Hello everyone, I did not sleep well. I was thinking about how I got escalated at mental health program. It really bothers me and I think I should stop the program. I think it is about the paperwork that Hannah messed up on purpose. They are in fact making me feel bad on purpose but it is because I don't get my schedule signed, but I have no schedule. I asked for one multiple times and sometimes they give me a blank piece of paper and sometimes there is no one at the desk anyway. 

The thing yesterday that is bothersome is that Angel asked me to come in and talk to him. So I did like normal and told him my problems and he got me to interupt him as if it was me and I left feeling like crap.  But there was thanksgiving food which was cool, so I could say maybe it was a scheme to bless me in that way. But mostly I see the cruelty of another escalation. So I need to maybe take a break. They made me feel bad last time, too and that is too much.  Like I go there, they make me feel bad, and it seems like racism.  But really I don't know what it is. So I will take a break from the program and try to come back in 6 months or so.

I want to call Danielle today and tell her that but the program might have the day off.  So I will try to just be patient.

About the Feb thing.  I do not know if I should sign up. Maybe January is enough. I will think about it.