Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sunday, Sept 7 at 8:30. I passed inspection from a postponed mercy because I forgot Thursday. It is weird that I forgot because it is the main thing every week that I organize around and prepare for.

I have some good news which is for the second month in a row I checked book sales and there were three or four purchases that weren't me. That is compared to zero for about 7 years. It does feel much better. I knew it would feel better. I felt that people believed I shouldn't care and selling the writing feels the same as not selling the writing or is supposed to and I knew they were wrong.  Any wales are great. I hope I can really get a lot of it out there and read instead of totally ignored.  I would feel so much better and like things were worth it.

The facebook people from India really saved the day on that one. They have been my main readership and I do not know what I would have done without them.  It has been fun to share the work though I still miss the american audience.

So anyway, next Sunday is critique group.  

That was nice of Jacqui to talk to me today. Should i have stayed for the picnic and book reading? I just couldn't and I think that is okay.

Gice I feel so tired and I wish I had milk for my coffee. I could go to 7-11 but I used ice cream. But I did not add sugar and it wasn't enough coffee left. So I should do it over. But I think I am not going to. I think I will eat some pretzels and cherry coke with ice.

Gice I read about a firefighter with PTSD from 9-11 who killed himself and it comforted me in a way.  Just the way he really did suffer and couldn't get over it. I just relate and it is so different than when people dismiss your feelings about past trauma. A lot of people can relate to that even though it was a unique event that happened.  

Was I supposed to tell Gloria that I was going to middlechurch today? I think I can tell her another time. It was fun but I did feel the loss.  I mean was I supposed to be involved in other ways before? I think it is ok.  I am worried Jacqui will go to a better heaven than me someday and I won't see her again but probably she will stay in touch with all of us.

Well I think I will watch the other church's sermon.  My friend Amanda is sad because her dad died and we should pray for her.