Hello everyone, this is Refried. I tried to go to my mental health program but they did not have air conditioning.  So then i went to get some strawberry jello mix from the grocery store. The air conditioning at the grocery store was really good and made me feel better, and the cashier was nice to me.

Honestly I did not feel good this morning and don't know why.  But I think I am okay. Right now I feel okay.  I mean this weekend was rough, three days in a row to be lonely, my friend's funeral and finding out her kids are sad and hurting, and then the flooding and sadness.  

But my facebook posts are doing well but I miss some socializing, such as with my girlfriend Ravneet.

Then at mensa I felt absolutely tortured at bible study because of my weariness after skipping a dose of medicine, which I had to do in order to successfully go to the grocery store.  And it did work and if you think about it, this was my most successful grocery trip in two or three years.

I might eat some ice cream in the next few minutes, and honestly I am thinking of making some more coffee for some reason.  Then later I will try to do a strawberry pretzel salad.  It is not going to be easy. I mean maybe I should finish the cheese ball first.  That could be why I don't feel good is from gallbladder but I do not know.  

Anyway for some reason I feel better about my IQ. Like it is what it is and it is already proven.  And some people are smarter, that is good for them.  But I made my choices and had my suffering and I am still alive, which is how I spent a lot of my IQ is surviving mental illness.

Some people are making fun of me and think I am stupid but I am not.  And I think, why don't I learn five languages but the fact is that I would have if I tried and I learned French without trying, picked up sign language miraculously easy, and did freakishly well on that spanish free rice thing.  Do you guys remember that? I mean I do function at certain levels but when you are treated like trash it affects you.

So anyway are you guys tired of this topic? I just feel like the scores are there and the societies are in question and they are still trying to prove themselves in the real world and I already did.  Wow that is so bad to say but they really hurt me.  But some of them are nice and I am praying them up some awesome stuff, like they will not be humiliated in heaven, they will win a pinball machine and gourmet food.

Anyway I feel better and need to be thankful for my medicine but in a way I am not because you don't just take away someone's love and literacy.

Now I pray that God would give those things to billions of people.

So okay have a good day everyone.