Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 12:15. I am drinking some coffee. I am not rushing myself to go to the grocery store tomorrow.  If I am still awake at 7 am I might go by train but I do not know.

Some people left me a tract on the ground yesterday that said have a good day and it is really funny because it has to do with the barnes and noble incident.  And the tract itself is funnily thoughtful and has a list of order form items which is funny because it matches my prayer life.

So that is kind of interesting.  I found it near stop and shop area and that is near Calvary Hospital which has a grief group.  I don't think I need that group for my grief about my friend because I am feeling better after Adam posted on facebook.  But I was still sad today to see that their family is sad.

I felt depressed a few hours ago but am okay. I think I have mood lability and need to find a way to cheer up whenever I feel upset.  Because peace is within reach even though my medicine problems are unfair.

Anyway I don't know if I should google latuda but I think my friend who is on latuda has a similar depression and disengagement with life.

So about the camp thing. It is so sad but there are some things to be thankful for.  For one thing, the camp had 750 people and less than 50 are gone.  So I am thankful that some people survived, and actually it is a lot of people. Another thing that could be helpful is to think that probably the missing died quickly in the water and they are in heaven right now.  They are not scared in the woods lost for miles. I mean that is everyone's worst fear, besides them already being gone, but in terms of active suffering, they are probably in heaven feeling love and peace. I mean maybe I am not supposed to say that but for me it changes my hopefulness.