Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, June 19. I had a dream about being a gamer and then woke up at 11:46. That is really late but I took my medicine at 1:30 last night.
In my email inbox, there were a few emails about publishing, which isn't my path. And on facebook, there was a guilt manipulation political post. So that kind of gets my mood off to a bad start.
My email inbox is mostly filled with junk now, after really a good ten years of meaningful life despite weird huge losses. The losses I had do threaten to take away meaning, but I had some good hobbies and associations that were fun to me.
But now some of that is fading. I mostly feel a lot of waste now, and some dwindling hope that my books will sell and I will get to go stay with my girlfriend soon. But I do not know.
I do know that I am about to go to a novel retreat and I feel very blessed and happy about it. I think it will be fun and hopefully I can think of that without dwelling on losses. It is a luxury trip and I will stay in a hotel for a week, which is the only time in adulthood that I have done that. That is 28 years. So I am excited about that, and it is in the mountains, which is my preferred scenery.
I think I will do some phone a friends today. And maybe reread my new novel draft. I might keep it as is and not revise it but I do not know.
Soon I need to do a video advertising some books.
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