Hello everyone, today is memorial day. I am going to reflect on what people have done for the country. I mean not in this post but as the day goes on.  I have therapy at 1:00 pm and I am grateful for that.

I thought about going to the mall today but I do not know if I will.

Another thing is whether I should take a book to the apartment person and tell them I am waiting.

Gice I already said this but my numbers are restored on facebook and that post is doing great. It will probably hit 500k which means the original amount would have reached about a million.  But for some reason that did not work out.  So I am not going to overspend. I just felt like I should make the most of that meme.  Get it, felt?  But anyway I think the machine meme is also doing well and could hit 300k. So we are looking at hitting the 43 million mark. That is good and the numbers do matter to me though I think I am going person by person enough too.  That is why I tried to include people in the book list.

Some people think it is meaningless to add the people who don't know about the book at all, but I think it is good because all those people made a difference in my life, and this list is a downpayment for their reward in heaven. 

I have a company in heaven already working and they make wooden boxes and gift baskets and deliver to a lot of places.

Gice I feel like I might have gone to panera too much but probably it is okay. If I have doubts about it then I can go to the Lowes grocery store. But I am wondering if this isn't a mall day.

Anyway maybe I will just make coffee here soon.

Gice my mom isn't bothering me on purpose as much and it makes me think about how bad it was and why? I mean why did that happen? It hurt me so much. I am disabled. Was that the point? To earn writing time? I don't agree with it. 

Gice is princeton mad at me? I am not mad at them but I felt that I could not see the difference between their stance against christian nationalism and the racist bullying I get in the Bronx. I think it will blend in my mind and I just decided to avoid the problem.  But then when I went to that event I was amazed. So hopefully it will be okay. I got to see Dayle and that was fun and I hope I did not hurt her with my answers that time, I was trying to really participate well.

I jsut do defend the chrisianity in the south because I know people are doing what they are supposed to and do not deserve to be bullied. And if the problem is that they have a vote too then people are wrong and hypocrits because everyone does get a vote and that is fundamental. I mean they must be joking to sqwawk about rights and then not tolerate a vote that is different than theirs?  And some of it ends up being an embarrassment to minority groups because that is what they compromised for.

Anyway I hope for another okay year in the Bronx. This summer I will do the job program. I do not know how I feel about it. People would say be thankful for what you have but I really was trying to wash dishes somewhere and this does not really make that happen. I think I understand that I already have substantial gainful activity. I think that is the issue that I always forget.  I think book sales would change my outlook on that. And other people's outlook as well which does hurt me.

But anyway the issue is cab rides.  And then I got that form and freaked out so that is weird. I do not understand but I guess they were supporting me on my trip. I think this trip has gone well. I hope I travel okay. I do not think I can upgrade to a roommette but I will think about it.