Hello everyone, it is 11:39.  I believe I will attend the soon conference as planned, as well as the novel retreat.  I think I will be in an okay state of mind there and that the problems I feel here are from the social problems here and waiting for the finances to be settled.

It confuses me that my therapist suggested living here in Greenville. I don't see how that is possible and how I can afford it without being controlled by my mom.

Also would I have enough mental health care. I would love to do outpatient programs at Carolina Behavioral Health Center.

Anyway I kind of feel better to see that I probably can do the conferences.

I might try to raise my credit limit for venmo. That might make me feel better. Like if it was 3000. And that would make my total 8500.

But I have to say that I did probably have it made with those two smaller cards.

So next week I will ask Venmo if they will do that. I mean maybe I just didn't nail it.

I believe my mom is torturing me on purpose and I do not know why.