Hello everyone, today is Saturday, May 17. I just inquired about an apartment in Greenville, SC.  It would cost a lot more than my deal now but I am still considering it. The fact is that people have been too mean to me in the mental health services and it is near a total loss, like literally every aspect of life except survival being taken back somehow through emotional abuse.

So possibly if my sister can help a little bit each month, maybe with the amount she saved from the phone bill, and then if my mom kept it the same, I think I might be able to be okay for four years.  That is the other thing is that I believe I will not last that long.

But it will be hard to be on my own again.

So the next step is to talk to my sister and then Drena.

The apartment is in a good location for Carolina Center for Behavioral Health where maybe I could be in IOP sometimes. And I could walk to the grocery store if it turned out that I could not drive anymore.

Another option is to ask my mom for a raise in support and then it is my call on whether to spend that on rent.  But I don't know what my mom can afford. So I think I will talk to my sister and then my therapist and then maybe talk to my mom about it.

Another thing of interest is that I reinstated my credit cards that I regretted closing.  They gave me the option and I took it.  But I had cut up the card so they are mailing a new one.

That is crazy isn't it. I hope the mail will be safe at Waters Place.

So I will think about this stuff and would appreciate feedback.