Hello everyone, today is Thursday. I am doing okay. I almost forgot about inspection but took a walk and remembered it when I came in the building at about 6 pm. So I cleaned my apartment and then attended an autism event. Interestingly I was able to mark myself as LGBTQ which I normally don't label myself as. I think in the autism community I will be able to talk about it like that because they don't have a history of treating me like crap as an evangelical. I didn't even realize that was a factor. But I see how I can be accepted and honest whereas I never sign up for LGBTQ stuff. I actually don't like how it starts with an L because I don't like the L label and now the generalized term has turned into a form of that. Which in a way feels like it matches the disrespect I have gotten from a lot of people. Wow, I had no idea that I felt this way. It is interesting. It is part of a prophecy habit of telling the truth and then things don't line up with the world in a certain way. A lot of people know what I am talking about. That is also an autism experience because of indirectness. People force us to lie because they are the ones that can't face reality.
So that is interesting. I think for some reason I am really saying goodbye to the seminary but it is okay. I am not disaffiliating just disattending. It is hard to believe but I think it is God's plan. I think he has something else planned for my final chapter. I think maybe they know all my thoughts about it already.
I mean am I wrong, I do not know but I had a good time at the recent event.
My friend Amir died. I am sad because we did not end that well. I gave him a taco and then he was mean to me and I screamed at him to leave me alone and I think it really hurt his feelings more than I expected.
Anyway someone else made me feel bad tonight so I called my friend Wendy and felt so much better talking to her. I think the holy spirit helped her and I am happy for her. It is weird because she feels bad about some anger problems but I experienced her as a saint. So what does that mean, I do not know.
What am I going to do tomorrow? Ok I remember, I am going to a writers event online and I will work on my novel. I have set it aside and not worked on it at all.
Well have a nice day everyone, thanks for reading my blog.
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