Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Tuesday, April 15. Earlier I went to a good complex minds meeting but we were missing a few people. I can't send a message to Ravneet right now because she has a meeting on Tuesdays. My friend Heather Dunn posted some nice material on facebook and it was about being in proper awe of God.

I sent an artwork to an international audience but had to redo it because of not clicking to make sure facebook didn't ruin it with their "ad creative." They mess up people's ads on purpose sometimes.

Then on my phone it did not reassure me that it was only facebook and instagram.  I do not advertise through messenger and have always found that program to be a power hungry controlling feature.

My therapist had a secret message for me today saying it is peeps season.  She is saying I have a lot of minister friends.  I think that is nice and inclusive of people.  Because frankly I made my choice to be a cashier. But possibly I am a secret chaplain. I was always trying to pray in a way that would allow me to be judged as a monk in heaven.  Like I could get a mild C rating but instead of it being as a bookseller, I would be a monk from possibly a good monastery overseas.

But I think what we are looking at is a secret mental illness chaplain, which frankly I am cut out for. And it is secret because we are trying to directly defeat the actual hallucination material that people have in hospitals.  I think I get it.  Maybe I am not supposed to say it.  I mean I don't know.  But I think of all the twenty pretend jobs that I believe I might secretly have, that is the one that I can actually do full time.  I can just pray and pray. I think the main thing to point out that God has done is that my prayers are for crowds and strangers, because none of us know what troubles are out there in people's lives of suffering.  

Well, that is all. I mean am I not supposed to say it. It is kind of scary. Because we really did switch up the hospitals to keep everyone safe and I saw a vision of a half demon, and a hyacinth, and had seizures when I googled Islam.  Right in front of my doctor and she checked to see if the medicine worked.  And the staff is mostly carribean and that is where I did the mission trips that made me get manic and go to Bellevue.

Well, that is all. Definitely now we have a Herod figure doing his thing, but I still have hope that the innocence from that side of politics will play out in some way. Like I know a lot of those people who vote that way actually do mean well.  And the north doesn't want to believe it, but millions of people do what they are supposed to and voted their conscience. I will not pretend I believe otherwise.