I have a lot of friends. I am 47. I am nice to people and genuinely like most people I meet. I did a lot of volunteer work and community service as well. One of the main forms of power plays and abuse I have experienced from organizations is their attempts to make me seem like I have various biases that suspiciously align with or disguise their own abuse. The idea is to cause some kind of problem or issue, and then when I stick up for myself, it seems like I am targeting someone because of identity. I myself am an easy target for that because of my complete lack of rights as a mentally ill person with autism and christianity.
Some of my social contacts and audiences have laid low during these times, but there are a lot of people who have witnessed the shameful mistreatment that I have endured since moving to New York. A lot of it is from mental health people and political people. I personally have no hope for it to be over until Judgement Day when Christ himself starts a lecture series highlighting the patterns and the people.
But I think there are some advocates who actually think that some kind of exposure and compensation should happen in this life. I have no idea what that would look like or feel like, and to me it seems like the time for that is way over. I am just an abuser collector and my stats are in the hundreds of thousands now.
That is all I will say about it in this post. Some people will say it was for my own good and they were on my side all along. But somehow I just can't muster any respect for chronic, arrogant, lazy emotional abuse.
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