So I think it is five hours until the conference. Maybe people think I should be taking my medicine soon.  But I think I will take it at 3 am. I mean is something going on that I don't know? I don't like being in the mob thought bubble nyt hypocrit factory.  But I am left leaning and see my black friends from high school as being pretty reliable reactors to factors.

Factor Reactors.

So anyway, it's not that big of a deal. Does no one show up to the Golden Kite party? That was so weird. I mean the tables were mostly empty but I am sure this conference must be so full.

Well, that is all for now. I just think once I go to sleep then it will be hard to wake up for the conference.  Are you guys wondering if I should skip medicine? Hmm I do not know. I think I will take the medicine and set an alarm. 

Well I still think I will leave that post up. I mean who did I lose, everyone? That is okay. I think certain friends are my real friends but might have waves of true disgust.  

I didn't confess to slurs if that is how some people perceive it.  I just feel like people deserve not just condolences but apologies. Like for people to admit that they themselves are not totally innocent.

But wow there are some people who want me to be worse than I am.  And it is interesting because who are my true friends? Some people frankly aren't sometimes.  They bullied me. But I guess I already established that with those poems.

Maybe that is the issue.  Hmm I guess it could be. But I think those poems were real crowd-pleasers.

Well have a good day everyone.