Gice I do not know if the meter or rhythm is right on that poem on the poems blog. But it is okay.  I like the order of the poems ok.  And it is a good hobby that has been restarted. I truly am starting my career over and trying again.

I boosted some more posts on my art pages and saw that wow the blob posts don't get as high numbers. But I think that is facebook's choice. I do not know why. I think they like to support things that are changing the world and not just decorative.

Anyway I felt the bad feeling for a while earlier and I do not know why.  Then I listened to some music and was okay. It is taking a while for my posts to start sharing. I do not know why. It could be because that groundhog post is still sharing.

At about 9 am I will probably go to that grocery store.  However I did think about trying an instacart order. Like what if I did a lot of beans and corn and rice.  Just to stock up.  Well the point for that is to use the OTC.  My case manager said to check amazon fresh and see if they take OTC. So I will check that. Maybe I should check that right now.

I am not that bothered that facebook is messing with me.  Maybe they are planning out the routes for the algorithms.  I mean something tells me that is automated.  But I do not really know.

I am trying to get to 99 million. I think after this share then I am essentially at 100 million.  It could be give or take ten million.  I mean I think it is more likely to be 85 than 110.  But if you do the money numbers it adds up to 110 million.  But without the organic reach it is about 90 million. Or maybe 85.  

But I am also counting my lifelong facebooking on my other page.  And I think that is a cool mil.  So that is really 2 cool mil for that page.  But those numbers are in the charts for the recent account. 

Anyway sorry if that is annoying.  

I had ups and downs on valentine's day. Actually some pretty deep depression feelings a few times. I think it was from that whole prayer machine thing, and then the reminder that the books haven't sold, and a feeling that people are going to steal all my work.  Well probably it will be okay, and one sign of that is the security of my pen name.

But anyway I also felt good sometimes.  And then when I had the bad feeling it is a reminder to be thankful for when I feel okay.

Well, I think I did right for today.  I will take my medicine probably at about noon.  I want to go to the bible study though. I need to send Ken an email.  Maybe he was seeing if I pray for them.  Well that is most interesting.  The thing is that I do pray in my own way.

The other thing is that my waking hours are when everyone else is asleep.  So I do not call and keep up like I want to.  So that is too bad.  But I think I will fix it over the next week or so.

Well, that is all.  Now I will investigate groceries.