Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is July 8. It is about noon. I soon need to go to mental health program. Really I should try to get there right this second in time for a 12:15 group.  But I am not going to go there until 1 pm. And then maybe go to an afternoon group if they have one. Yesterday there was no air conditioning. So maybe I should skip today. I mean maybe I will.

Later I have comedy class and I am sad because I have to miss part of complex minds with some of my pals. But it is okay I just felt like I really needed to take another comedy class.

I felt unhappy a while ago. I think I need to be mailing books out and then I would still feel like an author but I feel jilted failed because of not sending books to anyone.

And I think I might not have enough cash.  And my mom wanted me to not use money on facebook but she is wrong and she is using the money to control me so it sounds like we don't have enough and that is not it.  It is a stressful life to think there is not enough money and she let me believe that for four years when we were okay. But now we might not be okay because of my sister's business.  But I think we are okay for a hundred dollars which makes the difference in my hobby.

But anyway I made a choice to attend a children's book conference. I will ask my mom to add that amount to the monthly deposit and maybe August will be easier than July.  Because honestly I am out of money now and that is not that easy. I mean I am okay for food but not for hobbies.

But my credit card debt is normal so I am thankful about that.   But what about tonight? I think don't eat dinner anywhere but only allow for coffee.

Ok everyone I will wheel and deal a little bit, maybe pay off a payment or something.