Hello everyone. This is Refried. It is 10:34. I just took my medicine and some cookies.  I should eat more food with it, maybe some cereal. Ok I just ate some cereal and I think that does it.

Today I forgot to text my girlfriend about mothers day. I was going to and picked up my phone and I think I said do you like me.  Instead of saying how do you feel today.

So I hope she is okay.

Then I texted her tonight and she seemed a little bit mad and sent me a message that I did not totally understand. But I think it is okay.

So anyway I had a weird evening.  I think my mood dropped a little because facebook weirdly cut my numbers on one of my ads and I don't know why.

Then I reported animal abuse from a photo that was kind of funny so I let facebook decide.

I want to tell my facebook friends that my pages are okay now but today was weirdly mother's day so just not a day that I wanted to post.  I actually thought about thanking my mom this year which is a lot of progress.  I hope tomorrow goes well. I feel some angst because of my medicine and I think it might not be that easy to travel.  I might take my headphones but I might not.  Maybe the headphones and computer.

Some people are helping me with secret messages. Thanks everyone.

I don't know if I will fall asleep fast if I try to go to sleep soon.  This is the earliest I have taken my medicine in about 8 months.

But it is not that early, 10:30. And let's see, I usually go to sleep at midnight.  So maybe stay up a while. 

I should not boost any posts because I do not have the budget for it.

My travel budget is cut close because I bought my girflriend a brick in our church's building fund.

It says her name.  I wondered if it should say I love you Ravneet but I just made it be her name in case it is a delusion.

She likes me though I am sure of it but I hope she will be in person soon. This summer I will mostly be walking to the hospital and back.  So I will get back to 186 and feel better about myself. I feel really bad about myself and I don't think that is good mental health status but some people are not bullies.

Anyway I googled religious delusions tonight and it is an issue for me but not as bad as it could be. I personally think it would be good to get group therapy for it. But I have individual therapy and a mental health program. But I miss going to the Lieber Clinic.

Are my books going to sell? I think that is mean to make them not sell.  I guess I should do a video again soon.  I hope Ravneet is okay with my recent facebooking.  This was quite a crisis to be scammed and hacked but I think it is going to be okay. Wow that was rough though.