Hello everyone, I am writing some blog posts but for some reason not posting it.  Which is weird because I just posted some overly personal health stuff.  Isn’t that weird? I am watching my church service and it is about foster families.  So that is interesting.

I go to an evangelical church online in California because that is the church I like. 

I am not saying anything else about it.  Faithful people will do what they are supposed to. There will be a lot of gay evangelicals and we will help repair some of the damage that happened from politics.

This morning I read my book called Stranger Danger. It is an awesome book. I am proud of it and thankful.  It has some psych notes and I was marked down as “markedly ill” for schizophrenia.  That is 5 on a scale of 7.  And it is so accurate, they are right.  It is consistent across multiple measuring tools.  And what about the manic depression.  I do not know what my severity is on that. I think some of my manic psychosis turned into a milder chronic psychosis, which is what I hoped would happen.  So it is already included in the schizophrenia assessment. But I have depression and suicidality that I am treated for, usually very successfully.  I would say maybe my manic depression is less severe, but it was Bipolar I, which is generally by definition, more extreme. And some hospitals said I was the most extreme case they had ever hosted.  

So that is interesting. I use mental illness too much to try to be special but I have missed out on some normal love in life and have to collect it from other social scenes.