Hello everyone, today is Monday, March 10. Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment at 12 pm. I do not know what it is for but I am going to talk to him about my psych meds before I go see my new psychiatrist on Friday.

Tonight I wrote a story in a Nami writing workshop and it was fun.  Thanks Savannah and Alexis.  

I put the story on my poems and stories blog.  It is pretty funny but I just saw a mistake at the end. However I am not fixing it at this time.

So okay.  I have had some low moods recently.  Some of it is because of facebook.  I always feel better when I have good shares on facebook but one of my ads had kind of low numbers. Well the numbers weren't that bad if I could have just put it out of my mind.  But I decided to cancel the ad.  So now I am rerunning a video ad from last year. I think I feel okay about it. I think the idea is to not care.  The thru play rate is 19 percent.  Usually it is 26 percent but it is less because it is a rerun.  I am hoping it steadies out at 20 percent. Then I will ignore it, like literally not even keep up if there are trolls. I think one issue though is the fact that I did not post a link to the books on the video. But people can google it if they want to read it.  All I know is that I would have bought some books from ads like that and have bought many books from new authors.

I need to get back in the state of mind where I remember that my writing life is blessed. I know it is so I should trust God about the public results.  However I think I am being mistreated by layers of people.  There are a few bullies that get their way, and then other categories of people are swayed in various negative ways.  One experience now is the pattern of explaining my name to people. In a way, it is the perfect suffering to put behind books for kids.  But in another way, innocent people join in a bullying campaign that has now been going on for fifteen years.  

Analyzing it could become a bad habit like the writing that took over my blog after the pandemic.  

Well, that is all, I think I will write another post after this one.