Ok everyone, I guess this is my last post until later today. I am feeling more back to normal.  I had a rough day yesterday and today because I have a health concern, and in the background, my mental health program and housing are being mean to me. But it is because of attendance and they are trying to indicate that I will be going to the hospital before there is any kind of manic episode. 

And apparently that is a risk because of the new medicine.  I did not think of that and I am glad I stayed on .5 risperdal because stopping risperdal was the cause of at least four or five manic episodes in my twenties.  So that is interesting.

I guess I should lay down and pray again. I prayed yesterday and it went well.  I definitely have good zones and empty zones with that now.  People say that is normal but I wasn't always like that.  I had a good constant thing going for a long time.

So a new topic is that I might start participating more in gender culture. I think I know the next steps.  

Also I am out of milk and water so I need to go to 7-11 tomorrow morning. 

Well, that is all, have a great day everyone.