Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, April 10 at 8:40. I passed inspection a little while ago. Karla is nice to me.  I think the idea is that they are nice if you do what you are supposed to. But I always do what I am supposed to and they make me mess up so they can be mean.

Anyway I won't get into it but I just read the hospital notes from two years ago when I was being tortured and it brought back a lot of bad memories.  But I think the hospital was recording some stuff and imitating how I was being treated.  But they marked me down for a lot of delusions of persecution.

So that is interesting.

Anyway I woke up sad today and checked facebook and had trolls that said my blob art wasn't real art. And it depressed me and as I managed it, I saw that there were weird grey boxes on my profile when I was on my phone.  It bothered me all day and I felt like facebook was messing with me.  But when I just checked my profile to see if my friend's daughter was okay after surgery, I saw that her profile also had a grey box.  So they did it to everyone.  Probably it was supposed to have graphics and just didn't.

So that is weird.  Well sadly, my bad feelings contributed to me unsubscribing from some emails after receiving what was actually a nice warm invitation somewhere.  So I felt bad and regretful and decided to RSVP after all.  It probably won't be the same and they think I am a bad person. 

Some of it is my condition because I did feel love from them just this week and saw how other stuff I interpreted as being mad at me wasn't. But at the same time I have some confusing mixed messages from just about everyone I know.  

And some of it is a real thing that I am tired of.