Hello everyone, it is 12:11 am on April 9. I just took my medicine and ate cinnamon toast and corn pops. I am worried that I took two latuda pills instead of one latuda and one risperdal but probably it is fine.

Earlier I got attacked by an evil power and usually what helps with that is going to New York Presbyterian hospital, either online or in person.  But last time I admitted a psychiatric problem online, they sent an ambulance that took me to North Central Bronx hospital where I was tortured.

So instead of having an appoiontment what I did was read the notes from my last in person visit to Weill Cornell, and guess what, it worked.  I have had relief now for about an hour and I think I won't have the feeling as bad if I don't dwell on it.  And I can read the notes again if it is the middle of the night.

Tomorrow I talk to my therapist.

The first time I ever had the bad feeling was at a prayer conference and I simultaneously saw a vision of Jesus Christ curtsying like the kissing a ring thing that catholics do but he was wearing a New York Presbyterian nametag.  And it changed some, like he seemed like either a doctor or janitor, and the idea was that anyone at the hospital could help with this evil power.  And sure enough, when I went there, they got rid of it, and one doctor made it go away online, and now tonight just reading the notes was enough.

People can decide not to believe it and say it is my psychiatric problem but I personally am impressed and amazed that the hospital can do that with something so obviously spiritual.

And this power works the same as before where it doesn't leave and get worse according to what is happening, but people can still make it go away.  That seems contradictory and maybe it is, but what I am saying is that there could be a video that has curse words or a video of bible verses and the power might get worse in ways that have nothing to do with it.  But you can also participate in something that makes it go away temporarily.  Hopefully it will not come back tonight or tomorrow and maybe I will try to sleep.