ok everyone my girlfriend said we might have sold 25,000 copies of my books.  I just don't really believe it because I think there would have been a buzz from it.  Like people would say they read it and loved it.

But I think she is saying to stay hopeful and not complain. It was from a secret message.

I mean I did think we sold some and she got the money.  but it might be more secret than that.  Like possibly The Bridge got money for its constituents and me and Ravneet get nothing.

But to me it seems that I simply have only sold 3000 books.  So maybe they are saying that the next phase is the 25k. I just didn't expect some depression today but I can snap out of it if I think about it.  Just that Anne's beach trip was two weeks and mom and I both didn't know that.  But it makes sense and Elise visited mom and mom had caregivers and was okay on her own.  But she is going stir crazy now and needs to go to the grocery store.

Ok what else.  There are three things: the reminder of the missing national career, the discovery that my sister is not back in town yet in person with my mom, and the fact that my lawsuit idea isn't going to work.  I mean maybe it is better that way anyway.  But it is kind of an interesting idea. Then I was like, maybe me plus a local place, and I don't see it.  So it is another mood drop.  

I can work through these three things.  The fact that my mom is fine, Elise visited her, the book sales are secret, and the lawsuit idea doesn't concern me anyway. I mean it is kind of genius if you think about it and maybe the conspiracy was who thought about it.  Like for no one to defend me and then family members collect the cash for themselves later based on their losses that were doubled from their own hate.

Well, that is an interesting day. I am drinking a sherbet shake and will be okay. There is going to be a storm tonight. I kind of feel like I have been indoors too much but I had stuff to do.

Will I post that book today. I do not know. I think it doesn't matter. But I could be wrong, like it might be good to get it done and available.