Hello everyone, this is Refried.  I am worried about people being tortured in detention centers right now.  I doubt the Trump people went to much trouble to make sure they have food and shower facilities.  And there are probably children there in rooms with some bad people. 

I might do a post on my mad blog with some reflections. 

I think mostly my role is to pray at this point.  I already did what I could for people and it wasn't much. 

I am turning my attention some to Judgement Day and trying to ask for people to get a lot of rewards.  

Jesus seemed very stern when I imagined him reacting to my forgiveness prayers.  It seemed like he was saying that his teachings were his teachings and it was very clear that he said love your enemies and pray for them.  So I am trying to pray up a layer of that on other people's pain and anger.  Because wow sometimes you just can't until years later.

It is kind of warm in my room. I think April might be a gap month before air conditioning. But I think there are some rules about keeping the building comfortable.

Well have a nice day everyone.  Do you guys know what church I go to? I go to Echo Church Online.

 Hi everyone, it's me again.  I don't know who reads this blog but I really appreciate it.  I should share it on my facebook page again soon, even though it feels like my friends are slipping away. 

Tomorrow I am planning to take a walk in my neighborhood near the hospitals.  It is a different direction than I go to for my mental health program.  I do not know if I will stop for a coffee or drink coffee here.  

I might start running on my treadmill soon and try to see if I can lose ten pounds.  I think I could keep it off and feel better at 186 again.

People are nice to me though and don't bully me that much about not doing so great.

Do you guys like my new picture books? I can't wait until the blob book gets here in the mail.  It might be my favorite book that I have done, even though the poetry books were fun and took a lot of work.

My psych medicine has messed up my attention span and I almost can't read my own books sometimes.  But I think I need to still have faith that other people will be able to read them and enjoy them.

It's weird if I won't be sharing poetry for a while on facebook and it will be all art.  That is how it feels. Isn't that weird? Well I don't know.  If facebook ever automates some pages I might sign up with my old material.  It is good stuff and maybe I could get paid for it.  

Well, that is all for now. I think I will do another blog post soon. 

 

Hello everyone, what do you think about this blob? I am not sure because I think the eyes might be too bulging. But it is cute at first glance.  So okay I just tried to boost a post with a cute AI picture of mice in a church. I am trying to send it to India and some other countries because I haven't sent them any posts lately.  In the end, I pay money for them to get some good content, even though the fun and honor of it definitely is a gift to me.  I am waiting to see if the ad gets approved and I hope it does. I do not know if I will also boost posts on my Unfluencer page.  I might.  I might do more straightforward christian resources like bible verses sometimes.  But I don't know.

Right now I am in my apartment and I feel a little bit less lonely since doing some more facebooking.  It is still somewhat social.  I noticed that some pages I follow have gone off the deep end since I last visited.  But that is just part of the facebook adventure. 

So anyway I am also thinking about how sad I am to not volunteer anymore. I think that the medical people have found me to be at a new level of disability.  But I don't know if that is it.  There could be a social risk that affects other people.

Tonight I am doing some prayer for people in New York, my life, and the conspiracy.  Probably if this ad gets approved, then I will add in the other countries more.  I felt a feeling from sharing the blob on my regular page, too.  But that is kind of slow going.

I do not know how this stuff all appears on instagram.  I am not sure my page for art and poetry shares at all on instagram but it might.  If it does, it shares under the name refriedbeanpoet.

Have you guys visited my AI art sites yet?

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Friday, April 4, the day MLK got shot. 

Yesterday I went to go see a new friend named Lucy at Staten Island mall.  It was fun and I saw a crowded teen community on the busses on my way home.  I hope all those people are blessed. I could see that a lot of young people work hard in the businesses in shopping centers on Staten Island.  It was neat and different from the Bronx, but I was glad to be home in my neighborhood today.

I thought I did not thank that new friend in a recent book but I did.  So that is good. I got some copies of three new picture books in the mail today.  I am happy with them.  I thought about giving some to the Taco Bell people when I was there, but I am going to have to wait until another time. I hope they are okay. It is hard to know when people want books or not.

So okay, what else.  I am boosting another blob post on facebook. For some reason I skipped one, and for some other reason, I am not adding a link to my new blob book on this one.  I don't know why, but I just felt like sending one more around for "free."

I think soon I will send the striped room post around and provide a link to the blog and my book for sale.  That will be good, I think these pictures could kind of catch on a little bit.

I am sad about the suffering people in our country but possibly there are things about life that millions of people need to learn for themselves, and it isn't the same times where most people felt like they had already cracked the code on civilization. I think humble service is going to be the most key thing, and a lot of people are doing very well with that.

Here is a good sermon everyone: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYehxsQufks

Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. I hope you all are doing great. Today is April Fool's Day.  And my mental health program let me know that I am being discharged soon.  It was an April Fool's joke that I was going to have to stay there indefinitely while they tortured everyone.

I gave Jackie and Courtney each a joke book. Vivi wants one but I might have to mail it later after I get more copies.  Thursday I am going to go meet a new friend named Lucy at a mall and give her a copy of Library Book. I will miss a lot of people at my mental health program but I can probably return some day. And maybe be facebook friends with people. But wow I feel sad. I am not going to dwell on it because mostly I am relieved to not have to be tortured. 

The thing they are doing now is getting everyone in each group to show that they don't like me.  That is what Barnes and Noble used to try to do to me in the cafe.

I posted this blue guy in the striped room on facebook but I haven't sent it around yet.  But I will boost it for twenty dollars pretty soon.

I did some other blobs too. It takes time to get the right muppet quality.  I think when I created my new blog for it, my computer got infected with a virus.  So that is too bad. I am getting notifications.

Possibly the reason mental health people started torturing me again is because I haven't picked up my trileptal from CVS. Well I have half a bottle still, and when I went to get my medicine last time they did not give me the trileptal. I knew it was wrong.  

So anyway hopefully it will be okay. I take my medicine every day.  What is scary is when I feel God being mad at these people. I don't know what they are thinking to abuse someone so blatantly.

Anyway I am happy about the Cory Booker news. That is a bright spot for all of us. 

Well have a nice day everyone.

 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. Today is Monday, March 31. There are signs of people intervening and preventing further torture, but I don't know if I can trust it.  So I am just doing what I can each day.  I self published four books this past week, and they were all AI art books.  And the visuals have some power on my eyes, like a magnetic connection that can exhaust me if I am not careful.  So I am trying to recover. I will take my medicine hopefully at about midnight. I do not know if I will go to my mental health program tomorrow but I might.  It is April Fools Day tomorrow. 

Tonight I got a surprise message from my English Teaching Teacher named Dr. Tracy. Thanks Dr. Tracy!! Man it was fun to talk to her.  I think there are still two things I should tell her, which are the links to youtube videos that I think she might like.

Also tonight I attended an online zoom meeting with my old church, Middlechurch Collegiate.  I am thinking about reattending but I do not know for sure.  There is something I want to tell the main pastor named Jacqui Lewis. I want to tell her that I think it is cool that she is not mentally ill, because she does a lot of complicated loyal relating to diverse church members. I just don't see how any one can do what she has done without going mad.  You will see what I mean if you ever attend middlechurch.  Like even within a service they do social justice stuff to juggle attention, and it is just the most obvious work that I would ever consider to be mad genius.  Like before a crazy guy in a lab I would picture the middle church ministry in a role of insane theology artists.  I am running out of labels and words for it, but it is classic. I mean possibly I should stick with Middlechurch for Judgement Day. Just the complexity of it, the excuse-making for sinners, it's just very closely aligned with my secular participation.

You think you are going to get away with it but you're not

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I rested for a while and feel better. I am sad because I ran out of AI credits for canva and could not continue working on the hospital book I am trying to create.  All it is is cute creatures in hospital scenes.  I am not sure it is going that well. I am not satisfied so far with most of the quality of the images. I tried three different generators.  I did get a cool stuffed animal scene from bing.  But I think that brings me to four or five usable pictures and I will need about 35.

I also don't know what to do about my mental health program and housing.  I am glad I got a new doctor.  I might ask them what to do.  I am kind of trapped in my mental health program and don't like it. My worker assigned to me makes me feel bad and has indicated that he plans to use the notes to make me look bad and break up my socializing some so I look racist in front of other clients.  The idea is to harm my writer reputation. It is in retaliation for saying I might get APS to help me leave the program.

This all started in January or possibly December.  And I got a new doctor as soon as I knew something was wrong, because I knew I needed to leave the program.  But my housing place is emotionally abusing me if I don't attend, and they will say it is noncompliance.  Most of these people like power and create their own power through mistreatment because they don't have any from doing what they are supposed to.