Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just did laundry and a nice person named Sassy found four of my books and kept them and it makes me so happy. She deserves free books because she was nice with the washer and dryer.  She did not take two dryers like she could have. I was prepared to leave without drying my clothes.  But as it is I have four pairs of pants, 5 skivvies, four long sleeve white t shirts, five short sleeve shirts, and underwear.  So that is good for now, though I usually do two loads.

That got me a head start on inspection and I also threw out one bag of trash.  Next I will make my bed. The floor is mostly clean from last time. So I need to do dishes and the counter but that is easy. I will put the clothes away and clean up the bathroom a little bit. It will be fine. I think after that I will be fine. I think doing paperwork also counts as chores today and Karla knows I am doing the best I can.

Do I need to give more books away? Did people at pros want some more books? I gave them a lot but I guess there are several hundred people. Interestingly some people were really into it. I might have underestimated how much they might be appreciated. 

To me that is why they need to reach people. I don't understand why an ad on facebook wasn't enough for them to sell. I think that needs to be enough and I don't know how to make that happen myself. Like why should I now be okay if I get an agent? I think it already should have been successful.

But anyway I feel better. The conspiracy knows I had a rough time about it yesterday morning.

Anyway my mom got her birthday present and was happy. I think we all should have given her more presents over the years but she really made herself unblessable in many ways. 

So anyway I already had a prophetic dream about that and she was in the yard near the lake surrounded by alligators. So I should have prayed more for them all.

Anyway, that is all for now. I am going to a group tonight which will probably be a small group. I will try not to be selfish. But I also need to finish getting ready for inspection.

Well have a nice day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, Nov 20. I just prepared all my medicaid paperwork for turning it in the second time after they said they did not receive it before. I don't have great proof that I turned it in before, but I have some proof. I think it was because of the shut down that it got bumbled.

I will take it to the office in person tomorrow. I only provided slight proof of my small business. I did not show all records but I think that is okay. I kind of wonder if I should have showed the facebook totals from my last accounts two years ago. I think what I showed was okay.

It is not okay with me that they pretended not to receive it or even didn't receive it. This was the first year I used their envelope and why should that make it not get there? It should be the opposite. 

Anyway I feel good that I am almost done, and also that my info is honest. I mean I simply do qualify.

I think actually me and my family of origin are more frugal than their standard.

So anyway I have a group tonight that I will go to and maybe phone a friend soon. Sometimes I have nothing to say to anyone and I think it is because of my medicine.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Wednesday, Nov 19. I went downtown today and got my rent check and printed off some medicaid materials. I also stopped at my favorite restaurant called Kaboozles. It was a good deal and felt cheaper after a couple of other recent meals that turned out kind of expensive. I am wondering if they gave me a discount that I did not notice. 

After that, I went to a meeting at Nami. It was great and I saw some favorite people. On the train there was someone who dumped out some trash looking for food and I think I should have given her a croissant that was in my bag. I just didn't. You get used to having to say no a lot but I have just been to a support group where people were there for me in my suffering so why couldn't I share? Well actually there was a reason which is that she got off the train and I needed to make sure I stayed on and did not get stranded somewhere.  So hopefully that person and others will be okay. 

Tomorrow I will fill out the rest of the paperwork and maybe friday I will take it to the office. I already did all this in September and October but my therapist is helping me be patient and accept that I might be on medicare sometime.  I think that is a secret message: I accept medicare.  So I am secretly working.

Well that is great, I am glad about that. I wish I saw more hallucinations though.

Have a good night everyone.

 Hello everyone, I guess it is time for yet another blog post. Can you believe I shared that prayer example? I felt that I should. It was questionable in both directions, i think, to share or not to share. But I think one thing about it is to remember how much we can ask for across a lifetime. It could really help people.

Frankly I hope we get facebook in heaven. But that would be kind of weird, wouldn't it, after we did know about life without it. 

It is only 10 pm. I think I will try to take my medicine at midnight. Tomorrow I am going downtown. I think I will go to Nami in person. So that means go to the bank at about 3 pm. So maybe leave here at 2 pm. And then go to Fedex. And then go to Nami. Here is the question, is there a Wells Fargo near 42 and 34 street? Hmm, they might hassle me because I usually go to the other stores. I think I remember seeing a bank though, and there is a needle and thread sculpture in front of it.  So that is weird. Tomorrow I go to Grand Central.

Gice my life might get harder but hopefully I can keep this healthfirst insurance.

The shift key on my computer isn't working that well and I wonder if I need to stop capitalizing some letters.

Gice sometimes my books do not seem interesting enough to me. But maybe that is a sign that they are easy to read.  Do you gice have any thoughts about it?

Well have a good day.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just went to my complex minds group. It was awesome. Then I made coffee. i spilled some peanut butter sauce on myself and I suspected that would happen but it is okay.

What do you gice think about this image: 

I was just typing gibberish into ai and said acquaduct and miracle water cross and then I got something like this but replaced a yellow striped cross with this purple cross. I like this image but might not send it around facebook because why be cheesy.

Anyway it is weird how I don't always nail it with the images and have to delete things months later.  But it has to do with how you have an idea but ai only generates certain stuff so it is a tradeoff sometimes.

Do you gice think I should keep giving books away or try to find an agent. Well I do not know.

I think that other post was really good and probably reached some people who see what I mean.

Should I go to AWP this year? I do not know. Maybe I will.

i wonder how Vedanta and Debjani are doing.

Remember my pals from the jokes page? Was it a different crowd than the art page, well I do not know.

Have a good day everyone. I do not think everyone in America will hate me as an author but I think i am coming close to being able to handle it.

Well, that is all.  Ravneet will you please send me a text later and tell me what you think about some stuff.

 Hello, conspiracy. Congratulations. I just made peanut butter chicken with rice and did not waste anything.  I ate rice from that other canilla bag and made the sauce runny so the meal would last longer. I do not think it will hurt my gallbladder either. At first I could not find the honey so I used sugar but then I found they honey and added more milk and worchestershire sauce.

I got some good messages from Ravneet. Also I am taking an advent class that is of interest to me. It has some saint stories in it and I believe it will motivate me to serve others.

Soon I will go to two groups. I have not done well in either group the past two times. So I do not know what to expect. That is in about thirty minutes.  So what will I do right now. I do not know. I drank the rest of the sparkling grape juice and feel normal. I think some of the stomach issues have been from IBS at night.

So I do not know what to think but the cops are saying I need to take my medicine on time tonight.  But as you will remember I had to take it at 3 yesterday and that was right.

So anyway, tomorrow I am going downtown. I have to get my rent check and redo my medicaid paperwork. It is not easy.  I wonder if they knew I did not have proof of sending it before.  And I wonder if it was postal people, people at my housing, or medicaid people.  Maybe I could call the medicaid line and see if there is a different status.

But I think I should just redo it. Well, possibly I will be yapping about nothing sometimes for a while, because I have a lot of free time and need to regroup with the book efforts.  What next, I do not know. It makes me happy to give away books so maybe I will keep getting addresses and mailing them.  But I don't know.  I mean honestly I look at the joke book and is it funny enough? Maybe.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Nov 18. I am doing okay and looking forward to a presentation in a little while. Then I will probably walk to the post office.

My memes did better than I expected. I think I am going to hit 1.5 mil.  At the beginning it seemed like I was going to be at 600k which did not seem right.  So this is good and I need to revisit to hit like on the comments. I guess I should do that now.

I got through this season better than I expected without having to ask my mom to help and without getting a donation from a church. I guess it feels better that way and kept me from doing more than what was appropriate. I mean if you think about it, there could be such thing as too much.

Like thinking everyone has to see this cross with mice and birds next to it. Anyway I am thawing some chicken and hopefully I can successfully cook it and eat it with the polynesian sauce I have. I think for the next chicken I will try to do a dorito casserole. I need to tidy the kitchen area up some but I did well with eggs and grilled cheese sandwiches, and I cooked some rice a few days ago.  And I ate cereal. That is very good. I mean honestly I don't feel like I have saved that much money but maybe I have. I have some ritz crackers so many I will make another cheese ball if there is still some cream cheese in the refrigerator.

Anyway tomorrow I will try to go downtown to get a rent check and do paperwork for my renewal. I will need to write a letter to them about the small business factor.

So that is all. Do you gice think I should move the table up and put the treadmill closer to the plug near the window? Do you think that is what the issue is? I think it could be.

Well, have a good day everyone.