Ok everyone, I did my personal inventory for the year. I might be missing some stuff but the list is below.  I think what I am noticing is that I need to continue giving books away and budget some for that instead of only facebook.  But the memes for India were an awesome opportunity but I need to keep the books distributed as well. I might enter addresses directly to amazon for a while. Well here it is, thanks to everyone who helped in any way:

Inventory for the year

Paid off credit cards for jokes page 30 million views, India reached with Christian humor

Maintained three new pages and reached 50 million views, felt love and HS, low budget

One trip to Greenville, attended mental health program despite abuse, finally quit

Maintained weight at 200, failed at exercise

One comedy class and show, successful

Attended nami groups, scaled back

Phone a friend expansion, 10-15 friends, some losses

PHP program successful

Maintained personal facebook page and shared poems and book links

Gave 150 books

Passed inspection 50 times

Stayed alive and did not have gallbladder surgery

Prayed for people

Published three ai books, one novel, one Bronx combo book

Spouse with ravneet

Found new groups with mensa, scbwi, middlechurch, etc.

 Hello everyone, I just put some things at risk, but I believe people will work with me and do the right thing.  If I messed up, I think people will say, party's over for just this one thing. I do not think they will take away everything because of one mistake. 

But I think it is not a mistake. I think it is some really good therapy work that people can learn from. 

Today one of my churches really surprised me with a message that was such a blessing and some of the best material that I have hope in. And they prayed for all of us to have courage.

I was going to ask a philanthropy place to donate to my church and I never sent the email and I possibly did not do right. I was going to ask on behalf of both my churches but maybe next year.

Well, that is all. I think now I will go walk to 7-11 and buy a bag of ice as a treat for myself to drink with cokes during christmas. What else, no calzone, because I ordered a pizza yesterday.

Gice are my facebook friends mad at me, I do not know, but it is okay, I understand, my ads are a bit much. Thanks everyone who read my blog this year.

 Hello everyone, today is Sunday, Dec 21. I think my facebook friends might be tired of my ads, but I felt that I had a good ad opportunity with some rhymes. I did get about a thousand visits to my poems blog, and I am happy about that, but most of the readers are from India. I think they are good readers and I am thankful. However it is weird that I just never reached America.

I think some clicks from America that would have gone to the rhymes page actually went to the book sale page. But it would be few sales, but I actually think I probably got a hundred visits to the amazon page. I mean at this point a lot of people know the thing I did. It is weird how there wasn't a path of success for ten years despite all that work. I mean I guess twelve years or even 14.

But there was a path of success with content and creation so maybe that is the idea is that it lasts after I am gone and I have to play a role of rejected prophet while I am here. It is kind of creative and I did see it ahead of time but I kind of feel that it hurts my motivation and impact for people who did need it in this time.  Is that the gag is that our society is not peaceful? I think people are hurt from that and it is not a good game.

I sent a meme to my friend Johnny who I have a weird history with and I did not hear back. I think he might be worried that I have the wrong idea but of course I don't. But the weird thing is that I felt he started the conspiracy and now it seems like he knows nothing about it. I mean that is weird. 

And I just did all those emails of people who were in the conspiracy.  Ok some people are saying what about Rita for an email in the book. It's not a sampler based on total highlights. It is a selection as I scrolled through the sent box, not the inbox. I am not putting a bunch of other people's emails. I could get in trouble that way. That is why I was saying I did care and was careful about that kind of stuff.

Gice I love this new book, it is one of my favorite books. I am worried that it won't get accepted but I did first names only. Does anyone have any opinions about it. Well I do not know.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Saturday, Dec 20. Happy Birthday, Jeremy Holly and Susan Kelly. I woke up late today after a dream about my old school and I critiqued this lady's book and nailed it. That is weird because my academic abilities have declined and I don't know if I can really give people a good book review now.

I just now finally drank coffee because I was distracted by two things this afternoon, which was a Mensa meeting, and a walk to the drug store to buy shampoo. Well Walgreens has their brand unlocked so people buy their brand instead of all the other brands which have to be locked so as to not be stolen.  Honestly, I don't have time to do anything about that injustice except blog about it, and Walgreens is the one facing all the thieves, so I just buy their shampoo instead and get over it.

Tonight I ordered a pizza and there was a similar lying cheating stealing, which was that the pizza place did not allow me to enter my apartment number in the address. And the form recognized my address from last time and deliberately took the number off so I would have to come outside and get the pizza and they would not have to bring it to my door. Well that is cheating lying stealing and I don't appreciate it. I always go outside anyway but it put me in a bad mood, and they changed the name of my city to my neighborhood, which I also find dishonest.  It makes my address inaccurate in a public context. I just don't need that. Who do they think they are to just change your address for their purposes.

So anyway, here we are, after some of the best pizza I have ever eaten, and now drinking coffee, and this is a good night to pray for enemies.  Because I am in a good mood now because of the pizza, but I got wronged today in ways that could put a whole society of thieves on my mind.

Anyway, the other thing is facebook, who sent my ad only to india but allowed me to choose india and usa on the payment. But I got over it and did another ad for usa.  The numbers are so low on usa but I am just thankful for what I have.  600 people from India read my poems, and I hope they liked them.  The poems are only okay, but there are about five of them, so people can like what they want. I think about a hundred usa people have read the poems, but you know what? They might have clicked the other link for the 5 dollar poetry book.  So maybe that works out okay.

This year I need to think about revisiting the book sales and doing more ads for books, more mailings, and less meme budget.  I hope my girlfriend was okay and did not miss any secret income.  But I do not know what happened.  To me it seems like zero sales.  But when I wrote a blog post complaining, some people did not like that. Well I am glad to know they felt that way, but I question if their work should have been wasted, too. I mean don't my facebook friends want to be part of success and not swindle? Well I do not know.  Anyway, this is a long blog post. These ads will last three days. One ad is for four days. 

Tomorrow I might go to church. The pastor video did make me feel better.  Ok that is all for now.

 Ok everyone, it is okay. It is good for me to see I still feel mad sometimes. Because when I am okay I think I might not still be provokable but then something bothers me and there it is.

So anyway I am okay now and the new ad is doing well. I think it will be what about 800 post interactions, which is great. It could be less. It could be 300. I am thinking 300 likes but maybe it is well I just don't know but I think the second ad is reaching some people in america and that is what I need to do with the books. And I appreciate India and am happy to send them the christmas mug ad.

So I guess you live and learn and maybe other people can also copy what I do.

Pretty funny. Hello to Dorothea L. Way to go Dorothea. Have a great christmas, Matthea and all you gice. Noelle I put you in thee wrong list, sorry about that. Who else was there, some other people. Myla, and some other people. Gice it will be funny in heaven.  Man we will have some laughs. Especially since I might be in purgatory. That will be some good material.

Anyway, okay, I feel better. I told my girlfriend that we need to be in person soon. But I know she knows she is my person and I will not leave her. However this is year five with the delusion re-enactments, and I question what I am supposed to do as another christmas rolls by and her gifts are accumulating.

I mean this year I did not spring for the coco may earrings. That was a product placement. I have a lot of sponsors who helped me stay alive.

So okay. Now what. I made lemon cookies today. I am thankful that went well. I think I have now done all my holiday baking.  Should I maybe do a christmas dinner.  Maybe. A green bean casserole.

So okay, some phone a friends tomorrow, maybe two walks. Grocery store, hmm. Maybe the grocery store near walgreens. I do not know. So anyway today the montifiore people were nice to me.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, December 19. I just had to run another ad in addition to the one I thought was so good.  But it wasn't so good because I designated it for usa and india and facebook only sent it to India.

That is so depressing to me and I am not happy to feel anger when I was happy earlier that I had a good post. Will I repost it, I do not know.

I still feel depressed. I do not know what to do about it. I don't really need to send that link to india other than including them in a post for america. There is no need for them to read those stupid rhymes.

This boost isn't doing that well, either. I guess the "auction" favored the corporate money people. So the rest of us have to pay for "nothing," and that is just how it works, get with the program.

I also saw that amazon is advertising on my author page and deliberately adverting attention away from my book and onto their own ad for kindle. What a bunch of jerks. 

Well let's see how these next posts do. My other ad was the ad I wanted to do.

I mean should I just do it over, I do not know.  I guess just do more prayers for enemies, and it is very societal so it could be a million people.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Thursday, December 18. I just made spaghetti and it turned out fine but I wish I had cheese. Later today I have inspection and have to clean the apartment. I believe I will do fine and get it done. I got two books in the mail that I have not reviewed before and they seem okay to me. I do not know if I will do any ads for books yet but I might send around a poem ad.

I just don't know if I have any book sales but I could have some secret sales.

My sister's family is having some ups and downs and I need to do my christmas shopping for them. I wanted to go downtown but will probably do that tomorrow. 

I think I need to start cleaning up soon like maybe at 4 pm I will start to do some chores.

Well, have a good day everyone.