Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am sitting in my apartment. I went to the post office and got a birthday present that my mom sent me. That was nice of her. She has always done well with that stuff even during times of torture.

I also picked up a box of five more joke books.  I do not know who all the recipients will be.  One thing I do think is that it is wasteful for people to not be getting books from the amazon site while they are available.

Anyway it is 2 pm. At 3 pm I will try to take a shower and then at 4 I will try to leave to go to comedy class.  There is still a chance I won't go because of the locked gate but I believe I probably will. I might skip the next class though.  Because I think I have already prepared a lot of jokes.

I think I am not going to call my mom today because the texts and birthday present went well.  I mean can't I send her a thing of molasses chips from Sees for mother's day. I think I should do that right now.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just took my medicine. I have been taking it in the mornings. I had some dreams so I think I got some sleep. And now I will sleep about four more hours and then go to the post office hopefully. 

I will make some coffee soon if I don't fall back asleep.

Gice how do you feel about my videos.  I feel like this batch was iffy in some ways but still mostly okay.  And live and learn, ups and downs.  Gice earlier this year I was going to mail books and then I spent the budget on facebook but I feel like it helped me reach more people in the big picture.

Gice did you all like what I just emailed to myself. Gice hopefully I will have a good trip downtown today. I felt better last night.  People still try to get in my room in the middle of the night but maybe that works out for me to sleep in the morning instead.

Gice I didn't do that well on facebook in recent weeks but it is my actual posts and I think that is okay. I will do a constructive dismissal post and then that will be about it for torture.  

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Monday, May 4. Tomorrow is my birthday. For my birthday I am going to comedy class.  

My videos are finishing up soon and the numbers are good.  I also prayed well this time. I know the bible says not to say when you pray but I do say it so people will expect to get something.

Today was a weird day. I think it was because I slept some before taking medicine and felt a tired feeling that affected my thoughts.  And it lasted all day. I think some of that might be from sharing the videos. It is a spiritual warfare issue of some kind.  So that is interesting. 

I drank a milkshake and it was yummy.  The 2 percent milk is easier to make a milkshake with. I am perfecting the process a little bit on that. 

How do you think my meeting with Connie went? I enjoyed it. I kind of yapped her ear off but I could not help it because I was so freaking disturbed by my spiritual problems overnight. And I was scared that it would ruin the meeting with Connie and even wondered if it was on purpose.  So that is a little bit of paranoia.  I mean I do not know why but people do trigger it sometimes and it is them, not me.

So anyway, I am 92 percent done with my life!  That is really awesome and I am thankful.  Hopefully it will be a good finale.  Hopefully my books will not get wasted. It is weird because I do not know whether to expect good things or more suffering and loss.  But I think in some ways I could see some stuff as done and in other people's hands. What do you guys think about that part of library book when I say the best thing in my life are the people? I just wonder if that did not do God right in a way. Well I do not know.  Maybe people can discuss it and intend to do better and not say things like that. Like was I supposed to say that it is in God's hands? I mean I am talking about a profession.  An industry, and there are other people whose decisions affect me.  

Well, that is all. I felt like writing a blog post but didn't really have anything to say.

Gice I am going to be tenth wave instead of for such a time as this.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 4:39. I talked to my friend Connie earlier about my kirkus reviews and I am feeling okay about it all.  She thinks it is a good idea to get some more casual reviews on my sites.  

I also packed up a few joke books to send to two people who did not get joke books yet.  It was so sweet when one person asked for one because I did not expect her to want one after I gave her possibly too many poetry books.

I also cooked some eggs and bacon and I did not do well with the cooking. The bacon was not as crispy as usual and the eggs had too much bacon grease but it is all okay and still yummy.

There is something that bothered me overnight and then I was successful in a dream about it but I don't know what I am supposed to do and I do not know if it is on purpose from anyone. I think I am okay but it is weird how I did not really know what to do.

Tonight I am hoping to go to the anxiety group for nami. I don't think I have other appointments scheduled.  I am still avoiding the bad person from the other group I am in.

I think this recent video boost did a number on me.  Possibly I should end the ads and see if I feel better. It could be some kind of spiritual issue from sharing to millions at a time. But I do not really know.

But I possibly am out of money for it anyway. Maybe I will pause it right now.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I am so excited and surprised to find out today that a guy from my church who got wrongfully detained has been brought back home. The pastors worked so hard and got lawyers and it was very scary for five whole months. So way to go everyone. There is a nice video.  Maybe I will share it but I don't know.

Today I went to Wendy's with a friend from my mental health program last year. It was fun and maybe I can socialize more. Tuesday is when my next comedy class starts.

I have had some mood ups and downs but am okay. I took an iron pill yesterday and had more energy.  I will try to do that again in about 7 hours.  That is hard to believe, isn't it? I will go to sleep in 7 hours at 6 am.

I ran some more videos this weekend and feel mostly okay about it.  Honestly, sometimes facebook gives more numbers to some videos that to me aren't as good and honestly that messes with my mood a little bit.  But mostly I am really happy when they get approved and sent around. I am saying I will post three and one gets super numbers but it is not any better than the other videos and some get low and I don't know why.  But really my numbers are awesome. I don't think I should say what the numbers are.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with a creative writing teacher to discuss a book review that I got.  I am excited to talk to her.  It was also fun to send her my blog posts with my original reactions.

Gice I am so glad the church people are okay. I only attend online. I have three churches.

Well, that is all.  What should I eat tonight for dinner. I am thinking bacon and eggs.  What about pancakes. I think that is not necessary. I could bake a cake but I think that is also not necessary. 

Gice hopefully we can bring all the detainees home and give them citizenship.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 4:11. I just walked to the grocery store. It was really far. I spent 17 dollars of OTC dollars. I got milk, cheese, sour cream, and eggs.  I think I will eat potatoes later and make a cake.  My apartment is warm but I can go sit outside.

I am listening to a video that makes me feel the Holy Spirit.  That should humble me because I didn't already feel the Holy Spirit without the video.  However I can't say how fru fru I find some of these people's beliefs to be.  But they will find their way and ultimately they are probably not "the problem." Am I right? Like some people are "the problem," and it is probably not these people with their new age spirituality.  Except a guy named Harry was mean to me so I have not returned to the group.

There is a nice presenter who is a CPA and is saying some creative stuff about having a relationship with money, like it is personified.  So that is interesting.

Something on my mind is that I am looking at admissions stats for colleges and some colleges are hard for anyone at all to get into.  And it is kind of sad to me but I guess there will be those super places and then some regular places. Life is hard and people will find their way.

Gice I had a small vanilla milkshake and it cooled me off so I might get another one.

Gice this opportunity to pray for my constituents in India is very unique and I invite everyone to brainstorm some stuff for them.  It works and is slightly different than just praying in general for the world.  I believe that it does help to have a connection and to pray specifically for specific people and you can be in the middle and pray for crowds in between the way people pray for their church and pray for people in general.

Tomorrow I am going to get a frosty with my friend Tehla. I am meeting her at Wendy's at 4 pm.  I hope I don't forget or get blocked.  Maybe I will go at 2.

Gice these people on the video believe in the law of attraction and I don't.  

So anyway, that is all.  I am watching my facebook numbers.  I didn't expect to boost all this and add ten million views suddenly.  But that is it and I am going to be at about 160 million.  That is good and I can do more videos.  

Gice I would really like a Buccee badger stuffed animal but all in good time.

 Gice I got a fast approval on two boosts so be thankful for what I have. Gice I think I should try to market my books in India. Maybe I will call amazon and see what they say.

It is 2:23. I think it would have been nice to go to wellness chat today but maybe next time. I think they don't mind me being a frequent.  There are a lot of good frequents. I need to do a donation for the walk.

What should I eat for lunch today. Ravneet said food. I mean should I chop the bacon.  I don't have sour cream for the potatoes.  I mean maybe that is the idea is to make potatoes with cheese and sour cream and bacon.  So I need sour cream. Should I walk to Key Food. I mean I could do that at about 4 pm. But wouldn't that be a good thing to do tomorrow? So I think tomorrow I will do that.

Do you gice have any opinions about my videos? I think they are good.  Well, mostly good. I think there are facebook people who care about my posts. I mean that is what I have going for me.  Other people have other stuff going for them.

Gice maybe a little exercise in the evening. So what should I eat for dinner tonight. I am thinking a hot pocket. Ok that will be good. Gice I feel my phone a friend program is lagging but I just wasn't sure sometimes about whether to call people.

Gice people are saying maybe socialize with New York people more and be a comedian. Maybe do some open mics.  Ok that is what I will do. And then when it is the only thing I do then it means I am a comedian as a career.  And I can sell joke books. The joke book is my top seller right now.