hello facebook friends, here is my blog. Definitely ups and downs like usual. Some staff people at my mental health program are mean to me but life could be worse.

This blog has some interesting entries, feel free to skip some pages, you might find some interesting drama.

I think there are still some trolls following me, hateful because of politics, but I pretty obviously am not a part of any of it except sharing a lot of art and videos that people might get tired of.

I’m not going to be on the podcast I mention later. There is no such thing and I am kind of relieved because my medicine hurts my appearance. It is kind of funny because I told the scammers about it some. That could be a movie idea where a scammer becomes friends with someone they try to scam.

Anyway I am visiting Greenville soon. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. 

It is 6 pm on Saturday, May 3. Today I went to a zoom meeting to talk to someone about a podcast I was chosen for but I figured out that it was a scam. I am glad I figured it out before giving them any of my main information.

I think they wanted my social security number but it wasn’t visible on facebook when I did a screenshare.

So I think I am okay but bothered by inappropriate images on my screen when I go to one of my main pages. Facebook is so horrible for junking up our feeds. I know of no other example of worse repayment to people who helped someone succeed. This disrespect and pilfering of dear friendships is a historical mass violation with a truly ruined society to show for it.

 Hello everyone, today is Saturday. I just ate some cinnamon rolls from pillsbury. It was yummy. I still am drinking coffee. At 12 I have a meeting. I am not telling some people about my podcast opportunity because I think they will try to mess it up.

I hope I have enough internet for the meeting. I thought of something funny last night. It is an idea that really made me laugh.

What do you Gice think about the purple and yellow blobs? I think they are cool.

I think someone took back their likes on some facebook posts because the numbers changed. That is weird but it is ok. Facebook really took back our socializing from us. It is hard on me. My experience is diminished but I still enjoy reaching people with jokes.

I have a short list of questions for the meeting. I hope my internet is okay. I think it will be I think what I am fearing is when I had to wait thirty minutes to upload the Amazon books.

Well I guess I will drink coffee now and watch YouTube on my phone.

 

Hello everyone, this is Refried. New York Presbyterian helped me with my skin problem. I am not happy about it and tried to get the questionable medicine reduced.

Ravneet I might send you another message later.

Tomorrow I am trying again to meet with someone about the podcast I am being featured on May 15. I hope I have enough internet for it. I think I might not but will do the best I can. At least I am not uploading an 80 megabyte book of AI art.

I did a couple of pieces of art tonight and it was fun.

I think I can handle it if I become infamous for AI blobs and no one reads my poetry. It is okay. 

I can tell I need to really just be thankful for heaven and pray for people’s forgiveness. I mean like all the bullies.

Ok now I will try to eat some food. I really want a pizza but might eat instant potatoes. Earlier I ate cereal.

Well that is all, have a good night everyone.

 I just think it is sad I have leftover toxic feelings from attending my mental health program. Like I went early and went to two groups and was nice to others.  But two snakes got their bites in with their racism fangs and I am left having to blog about it to retrieve a sense of peace and justice. And it adds to my ongoing game of taboo, where I have to conspicuously not call people the names that match their abuse.

Probably in about three blog posts I will be okay again.

I am getting ready for inspection.  I need to do laundry but probably will do that tonight.

And then tomorrow morning I have a meeting.

I gave someone a present today and I am worried that they got the wrong idea but it is probably okay.

Ravneet, how are you doing, will you send me some messages.

I ordered some joke books and I will mail them to the nice people from the show that is featuring me.

Thanks again DBS.

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 Hello everyone, today is Thursday, May 1. I went to my mental health program and it was okay except for the racist staff people.  I got a new worker named Angel and he will probably be nicer than Clarence who started making me feel bad on purpose in January.  I still have to see Hannah sometimes who is really nasty and makes certain people look and feel bad on purpose.  Wow that is nasty, I am embarrassed for their organization to really try to pass that off as justice.  Probably it will be a large cultural wave in the north and a lasting shame and setback for people who worked hard for progress.  

This could be their attempt to hurt my life and make me have serious losses each time I stand up for myself.  But the loss is absolutely theirs, and what a tragedy.

I think what happens is that those of us who know how to treat people accummulate a belovedness that mental health agencies think they need to cap for the benefit of people who never learned basic decency.  So they provoke us and use us as dummies and spoil our experience.  It is blatant theft of something sacred, and God is not happy with it.  They could have instead taught other people to do the behavior that made us powerful.  No one wanted me to talk about power, did they.  Some people will never be brave enough to face where real power comes from. They will always choose the shame economy and it will get worse and worse for another hundred years or so, until they can receive charity from the people who did choose the humility.