Hello everyone, I know that photo is really cool of me and my sister but I'm kind of offended that people don't like my regular posts more. Probably a lot of it is because of algorithms and no one sees the other posts but some of those names I just never see and why is that. It just seems like that church thing where people think you need to repent of something and there isn't really anything, you are just different than them. And I think there is something else where now I can be accepted because a sin problem was resolved like my sister had dirt on me because I didn't parent her better as a teen and now she forgives me so other people can too and I can be a famous writer. I mean I do not know if that is it or not but I do not respect that and to me you are all child abusers.

 Hello everyone, my room is too hot.  This is month two of an uncomfortable apartment that I pay rent for. I am also tired but thankful for free time to rest.  But I am kind of not that restful. I tried to go to a church meeting online but the music was noisy.

Also I think something in my book wasn't labeled properly and I will eventually need to fix it. It is weird because I was like of course I wont make that mistake and then i did. But i wonder if i was set up to mess it up. But I do not know.

Anyway I guess that is the reason I don't feel restful. And too much pepsi, and how hot it is.

But anyway I feel mostly good about the books. I think this will be okay. I think the books turned out good and they are what they are.  It is more finite than I realized in some ways. I mean of course it is but I guess when you just keep uploading stuff it feels like a lot but in a way it isn't. 

Anyway I guess run cold water on my feet soon.

 Hello everyone, I wish I was at the reading but the 6 train stops at 9:30 for no reason other than to make the Bronx not livable. It would have been fun and I would say Elizabeth, I did my copyrights yesterday, but I simply can't be there and I don't feel good.

Partially it is from Latuda.  I think the Latuda makes the low iron worse. I think that I wil lhave to report that it is taking away my life participation.  I can barely function to do the comedy show Sunday.

But I have two days to practice and I think I am done after that.  I think I didn't do the ideal dates on that mice book for copyright but I think there is something that will withstand a problem which is the simple truth of when the individual books were written.

Anyway it is not that big of a deal. God can return the blessings I lose someday when people ruin stuff but it has been kind of hard to believe.

So anyway I hope all those poetry people are having a good time.

I think I will call Haley soon to chat. She sent me some halloween candy. Thanks, Haley.

What do y'all think about my 800 pager? I think it is cool and I think it creates a liberal collection and a conservative collection but I don't really know if that is true but the titles are like that.

So anyway have a great day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 11 pm. I just got home from comedy class. I did okay even though I could have been more memorized. I just didn't work as hard this time but I think my routine is okay. It was kind of weird how Ben told the wrong stuff to all of us sometimes and I am wondering if he feels like there are too many scouts so he is deflecting or something. That is what I am going to tell Angela because I plan to text her and tell her I think her song ending is good the way she has it and she knows that but I see Ben's point about the big laugh but I think the song does end well the way she had it.

So anyway that was not easy today to do those forms. I think I did okay but I was wordy in a couple of places but weirdly I think it is more okay than I realize.  But I need to send a note about the brand names in Sparkity Bonkins and about that ai art section and to clarify about the lice joke.  Because they might think the original joke is from ai but it is not at all.

Something else interesting is that the focus on ai is making other issues fade when really people might have normal issues of accidental or coincidental similarities to address. I mean all the gillions of things that can happen in a book and now it is like hey is it ai or not.

I drank a coffee tonight that might have hit me kind of hard in the heart rate but it is not bad. I am okay I just did worry about it a little bit and I forgot to only drink half of it.

So I guess I need to decompress from this day and tomorrow go to the post office.

Something weird happened at the deli which was that the guy said the credit machine was stalled so he took people before me who paid in cash.  It seemed weird like on purpose but I eventually asked him what to do because I had poured a coffee from their machine. I mean is that what it was about? A power play? Based on the coffee? I mean I do not know.  Maybe it means don't buy coffee from there.

Ok so this is what it is about is documenting the coffee for tonight.  Why is that? To legally protect the health people while I do these copyrights? Hmm I do not really understand the need for that.

Well okay, that is all for now.

Have a good night everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Wednesday, Nov 4. In ten minutes I will go to my comedy class. I should have already left but my phone needs to charge.  So really it might be 5:30 when I leave. 

Today I applied for some copyrights and it went okay. I actually think they might all be okay.  But two were iffier than I thought, and one iffy one was actually okay I think.

And I just figured out that one section of a book was in fact ai art.  And I thought it was just the cover. But I can correct that, I just forgot.  I think it is okay.

That was interesting. For some reason I was not expecting to do all that today. I mostly memorized my comedy routine and should be rehearsing it right now but I feel the need for a break and that is because of the medicine.  It makes me more tired and lazy and it is interesting because people don't want either thing.  They don't want me to be lazy but they want me to take more medicine. 

But anyway I will do the best I can to finish memorizing this routine. I think it is a good routine. 

I need to get some food but where will I do that. Hmm I do not know. 

I emailed the lawyer people some interesting thoughts. I think that is okay too. I just said something kind of arrogant about how copyright law needs to keep up with me, not the other way around. I mean isn't that just so rude?  And yet they might fail me on ai. So I said so. 

Anyway, thanks Tristan and Tremain, I hope y'all like the books I sent!

 Hello everyone, I wrote a post but did not post it but I am happy about the election results and inspired by the Talrico victory. I wish I had some grape soda. I have to take my medicine soon. I am going to be tortured this week for skipping it last night but I had to be alert for my sister's visit. And really I had more medicine in my system.  The latuda is ruining my life and activities again. It is a shameful failure of my new york mental health environment, the racism here, the abusive hospitals, the bad housing practices, and a religious factor of people thinking that God is not going to confront them about it in front of an audience as they wail with devastation, horror, and a humiliation that no one will feel sorry for.

Anyway I did compile an 8 book 800 page copyright document but I think I will be getting to that another time in terms of schedule.  I am not happy to have my life ruined by this medicine.  Do people think I don't know how to manage my own doses? Do you think I got three master's degrees from letting doctors overmedicate me?  Do you think you prove me wrong by provoking me to sound paranoid in front of my facebook friends? They know but they don't know. There is stuff I am not saying. 

Karla abuses me.  I am on too much medicine.  It is wrong.

 Hello everyone. I think there might need to be another larger book with train light, actual poetry, yet more blobs, a faith book selection, and one more book of writing. what is missing from that, i do not know. is it the other worldly monk posts? possibly. or psych notes? hmm i do not know. maybe keep that as other people's writing.  and then if you add mad blog then that will be 7-8 larger books. Plus monstrosity. I mean monstrosity is a good book too but I just think it is another thing like Read This Last. Hmm, maybe a school paper or two in the other large combo with the two poetries.

But really the thin books need to reach people but I kind of do see the train light poems as missing from these larger books, and the new rhymes.  and then the ai memes that are cute.  they have a place so maybe that is it.  but then there needs to be a third section.  what is it? is it some school papers and maybe just one psych notes? Is it Bronx Honks? Hmm.  Maybe it is Bronx Honks.  Train light, plus actual poetry, plus bronx honx, plus yet mroe blobs and faith book.

Does anyone have any opinions? Maybe that is what this is about, is telling me I need to get that done.