Hello everyone, this is Refried. I took an atarax as prescribed by Dr. OuYang. Thanks Dr. Ouyang. This is almost a week after it was prescribed, but I thought it could help me breathe better and maybe counteract the new itchy spot on my left arm.

It is causing a slight throat tickle making me have to cough a little bit but it is not out of control. Also the breathing is fine. I don't feel that much less anxious. But I don't feel bad anxiety either and am not worried about my breathing.  So it might be helping my breathing.  Frankly when I take a clonazapam I feel suppressed breathing which is a risk.  But it does help with the anxiety which messes up my breathing in its own way.  So possibly it is about time that I started relying more on an inhaler.  Dr. Parik prescribed a new one and I have it ready to use sometime.  Probably I will use it soon because of all the recent asthma and anxiety.

So okay.  There is something else to say. They tried to tell me to get tested for colon cancer but I believe it is not colon cancer. I do not know if anyone already cracked the code and they just are waiting for me to say it.  But I believe it is Lupus. And I told people that. I told them it was lupus.  But low iron can be from lupus and so can skin problems. And skin infections can also happen more with low iron. I mean maybe everyone thinks I was slow with google myself. Kidney stuff is also from Lupus.

But this left arm itch is driving me crazy! However I believe it is from A-1 steak sauce that I ate three times in a row when tomatoes give me excema. I have not scratched the itch all day and it has itched constantly.  But it is probably not mrsa.

However the right hand thing probably is staph again. But it is happening because of low iron. However it is interesting to look around to try to determine causes and see what was out of whack and I was treated like crap at a hospital and had an obvious deliberate problem at housing.

So do people find this funny? Because I mostly don't. But I am kind of relieved. It is because of that Indian food I ate. It was really spicy, I got fatigue, and before you know it, I have a skin infection. I had the headache too, and the neurological symptoms. I mean are we just going to play around with this like it is a fun guess the lupus game for 7 years? Isn't it sweet that Ravneet was the first to know about that?

I am actually a textbook case for this stuff.  I have autism, I had a super immune system that helped me have 12 years perfect attendance, and then I was tortured and my autism was traumatized and now I hum to myself, have asthma and food allergies, and my immune system attacks me. We have a lot to go on as a culture and I just wonder if the autism advances are happening.  At a faster rate there seems to be revenge on white people, starting with the vulnerable.  I hate to say that on a fun lupus post, but I think some schools cannot be trusted. They are creating a new juicy narrative to satisfy people with bad heart appetites, while the truth is more and more obvious as a national devastation for all.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Friday, August 7. It is 3:40 pm. I am doing okay and having a good day. Definitely I have had some ups and downs lately.  Dr. Parik believes that I do not have mrsa. So my new itchy spot, I mean on the left arm, is probably excema or something.  It is where my arm was against the mattress with no sheet above it so who knows, I mean it could be something random but I am just glad for it not to be mrsa. And yet isn't that kind of suspicious? I mean two definite infections and one spot that could be something?

And yet, the staph explanation seems more plausible. I think I did have a stye a month or so ago.  so I might have rubbed it, gotten germs all over my computer, and then it got irritated. I mean I can remember that irritation from laundry. I mean honestly, this next thing that is being treated now could have come from doing laundry also.  I mean couldn't it have? Well I do not know.  

I think it would be beneficial to take the atarax later.  Benedrylficial. I think tonight I will also be taking a poof of my new inhaler.  The fact is that my asthma flared up this summer. It was anxiety and possibly a spiritual factor.  

This evening, maybe I will walk to McDonalds or something. Or is there anything I need at Walgreens? I actually think I need some more coffee.  Maybe tomorrow I will walk to the far away grocery store.

Can people tell that I did lose 5-7 pounds? I believe I did. It doesn't show up in medical visits but at home I am consistently at 199. As opposed to 208-210. So I think I am headed in the right direction and I have not been eating that much. Like I really think I have not been eating as much as some other times.

Anyway, this play by play heath stuff might drive y'all crazy. But that is what has been happening. I just feel like some health conditions are just conditions but an infection is a little bit of an emergency.

Dr. Parik knows the pharmacy did not give me the aqua medicine. So that will be another trip downtown. Gice, to be honest with you, time is going to fly and I probably only have a few years left.  And who knows, it could be sooner than that. We do not know. I mean maybe God is going to try to show everyone that we do not know. And yet Jesus did know exactly, didn't he. And he told people what to expect.

So anyway, do I have colon cancer. I don't think I do but they do not want to be wrong. Low iron is sometimes just low iron when you are 50. But I need to take the iron pills. 

Well, that is all. I think they are helping me be okay. I think they are not mad at me. I mean why was montifiore mean to me, I do not know. It is important to report the things that are serious like that medicine going to the wrong place. 

 Pals, this is Refried. Some good news is that the nice people at a certain publication accepted some of my books as a gift. But I had to tell them there might be germs on them.  But I think it is safe.

But that is kind of sad and weird. However maybe they can get a joke out of it. like putting a disclaimer on your gifts that says "This product is not meant as biological warfare."

Or something like that. Honestly I just have some concerns that I am getting more skin problems and it is a more serious problems that needs cleaning in my apartment on levels I might not be able to do myself.

However it does seem like the antibiotic is working and yet we could have known last week what the culprit was. And no one did a culture. So now I have a new suspicious itchy spot and one that is hopefully healing but we won't know for a couple of days. I just think it is getting better.

But I think I am going to have to log on about this new patch on my arm. And yet it could be a bug bite or excema. I think one thing we can suspect is that it came from the mattress on that spot.  But I got a bug bite nearby and I am certain that was a bug bite. This could be an unscratched mosquito bite. But wow it is kind of suspicious isn't it.

Gice it won't insult me if the books have to go in the trashcan.  

It is kind of funny because of that video they did.

 hello everyone, this is refried. It is Friday aug 7. I am thankful I got good sleep. I just drank coffee. Will I go for a walk today? maybe. I think the medicine is working on the new itchy spot. Also it seems that it was never mrsa but probably staph.  But I personally still don't know for sure.  Let's see if this medicine actually is working or if I am just hoping it is. I think it is. Also what was it that got infected? I think it was a mosquito bite.  Which now I have a bite on my other arm too but it seems like an obvious mosquito bite and I did see a mosquito.  And maybe some people are like, "it's always something."  And I have to say that well, it is always something sometimes.  And I got derailed from a few things this summer.  The elevator, the air quality, the low iron, going to the hospital, and then something that is either from the hospital or possibly from the ocd stress from elevator or the stairwell. My guess is stress plus apartment. And that is a thing. And basically when the housing people abuse me, my health permanently declines.  And I am reminded of the main medicine and health problems from two years ago.

It wasn't that long ago. The Gracie Square visit was 2024. I believe that was march. So two years. I hope Haley calls me today. It might only be if I am a good exercise buddy. So I will check the weather, I mean maybe I will walk to Starbucks.

Yesterday it was so fun to be back at 168. I just love them all so much but I wasn't consistently perfect with my thoughts and behavior. But it was still good and I think I might have felt some good supernatural prayer a few times.  But that was interesting about the OCD urge later and they gave me exactly enough time for it. Wasn't that weird? I think it was okay. And Dr. P got a blobs book.  Why didn't he want a library book or pinnacle of human folly? I mean I do not know.  But maybe they agreed with me that this is not a joke and I do not need to spread germs. I mean it is kind of an interesting impression they got from me. Like hi, I might have mrsa, hi I might have mrsa.  I think they will be nice to me but I will probably be paranoid about racism for the rest of my life.

Anyway I got my tetanus shot, as I requested by email at the mall that time. I do think it is good to stay up to date on that. I think last night when I suddenly didn't feel good, it was because of that.  And I was worried that it was because of the skin medicine. But then I was okay and sat up in bed and could breathe okay and saw some mild visions of random things. Just random people visions that weren't interpretable and seemed related to getting medicine.

But I had a healing feeling too so maybe people prayed.  It makes me want to pray more for the sick and maybe pray for the healers too, like praying for them to pray.  You can boost other people's prayers, I believe that is true.

Anyway I might send in a statement about how I feel like my notes are messed up. But it is okay for now.  I think the doctors think it is okay to just say pre diabetes instead of taking off that other thing, but really there should be no mention. But really I should lose ten pounds if I can and then it is not as much of an issue.

Hey pals, this is me right now. 8:30 Tuesday. About to go downtown. Maybe now I should wait until 10. I wish I could post this photo on facebook but I think the skin is not quite clear enough yet. But it’s not that different from normal but maybe a reminder that things could have always been like this. Basically Karla and Joanna signed my face.

 

 Hey everyone, this is Refried. I did not succeed at taking my medicine and sleeping. But I feel like going downtown to get my medicine from CVS.  So I might do that at about 8 o'clock.

I just got an encouraging note from someone. Thanks, Phil, you are an awesome legal pal.

It is a fun conspiracy, isn't it, everyone.

I am sending an email later and it is so crazy how it is working out just perfectly. But this particular project is still a process and I need to work steadily to get it done. I think it will go well.

Gice I am going to be tired later but I just think that while I feel able to go downtown I should. Because sometimes I can't. I feel too tired or blocked for various reasons.

I was going to send Z a message yesterday to see if he wanted to meet me at a diner but I had to wait. 

So that puts Caroline and Z on a list for socializing, and that will be hopefully two more trips soon.

But today it is just me getting my medicine. It is not easy.  

I just thought of another idea for Bronx Civil Social. To post a grades list.

That is a good one, isn't it. 

Ok everyone, have a great day. 

Pals, it is kind of not cool to take someone else’s email and post it but this is from the comedy thing I went to and it makes me really happy. And remember last time I let everyone down. Also my friend Angela Cerilio died and I let her down but before that I didn’t let her down and I visited her. She is in heaven now and has relief from a rough time at the end. I kind of am glad I didn’t follow up because I don’t think I could have handled it or visited again. But anyway some blessings are still happening even though I have had some problems in the Bronx. 

Also thanks Dr. Heravian, you are a pal who helped me so much.