Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just went to an awesome presentation. It is a good person who did something interesting and stuck with their preferred outlets and platforms in a way I respect. So way to go.

No one tortured me but I was worried that their actual presentation was yesterday and they did this one to catch stalkers but I am not a stalker and I think they know I just like that person in the same way as everyone else.

But now I see that other post I did in a different light and wonder if it was too rude. But I think it is okay. I mean people can read my posts and think anything they want.

So now I am going to take some books to Bronx Arts Council.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Sept 18. I feel back to normal. I had a dream where I was helping my friend Claire Bateman with a pet alligator and then went to a youth group party at Caroline Cheves' house and there was a creek with roots that were really snakes but they said don't worry about it and it was okay. I mean that was a weird series of dreams but it wasn't that scary.  When I was taking care of the alligator I went to a restaurant with Maura Dawson and some other people.

So that is interesting. What it all means is that I got good sleep. Today at 10 I have a meeting and then a presentation at 11 am. I think it is okay to wait until Monday to take the books to the bronx Council but I might go today if I am able to.

The main thing I want to say in this blog post is that I think yesterday's weather was about me. The way it was cool and overcast as I went to my appointment that took a long time to get there, etc. I just feel that it was a part of the Bellevue care from college and God's interesting New York thing that I am a part of. This might be bad to say, but I don't feel like every day is conspicuously like that. So I do not know what it means and why it was like that. I also had a good time at the support group last night and it was fun.

The email I got about the query had that bright writing quality that I kind of wish I had commented on, but it is okay to not compliment it.  But sometimes when I read people's writing, it is bright and comforting in a way that surpasses mine and that agent's writing was like that. Robin D's writing was like that one time too.  It is cool. It is not that crazy and writing is like that sometimes, but I think it is neat when writing contains a cheer that strong.

So anyway, that is sweet. I mean it is kind of funny because the advice was good too. The way my letter was like a normal letter just saying hello and she is like, it needs to be more about the book you are trying to sell.

Pals, why do I keep forgetting to take those Red Pencil books to NCB? I do not know but I go there often and I will take them next time. I did remember this time and then forgot again.

Ok what else. I am scared of this quesadilla because of food allergies but the corn things were so yummy. Pals, what is the meaning of that weather? You kind of have to guess that it is about a lot of us and not just me, but I do think it was the Bellevue miracle care. But I had narcolepsy because of dreading telling Dr. Talreja that I stopped the Latuda. And yet it went okay. So that is weird. I mean what does it mean, because you have a day like that where the weather is about you, but there was just three years of emotional abuse and a mess and bugs.

So anyway, that is interesting. I hope this book drop today goes well. I think it will be okay.

 Hey everyone, this is Refried Bean. Today is Wednesday, Sept 16. I slept well and yesterday talked to three phone-a-friends. Also the two meetings I had were awesome, and the Toastmasters on Monday was also great. I need to prepare a speech for the next meeting. So maybe later I will do some of the online training.

I paused the two facebook boosted videos. I felt like about 3.3 mil is good and I should save the money if it is not going to be over ten mil.  Because that was the reason for maxxing it out is that they were going to max it out but they did another halfsies trick so I did another pause. 

I am not boosting images instead until maybe a few days from now. And really there is no rush for that and yet my pace is at as much as possible, so that could be what is right. I think I will do the dog pillows for america and neon for India. Also maybe one for ALE.

I think the conspiracy is helping me.  Possibly I should use my new card to do another comedy class.  What do you gice think about that. I mean it could be ten steak dinners. 

Anyway there was just something funny from a legal shark.  The Bronx Civil Social Club wants a post. There will be a video soon. It will be very self controlled yet true.

Did India like the two videos I posted? I think they were cute. Like not ultimate but cute.

I think I might go to Bronx Council tomorrow morning to take the books.  Then talk to Drena, then take the shuttle to NCB.  I was going to do a YL visit to the lupus conference and eat at the BBQ place but I just can't. I mean it is a nice idea and not that weird, and not that cheesy, but I just can't.

Also I think I am not going to the BH puppet show. I am happy to just watch Crank Yankers and I am really sorry to not be more of a champ for NYC but it is going to mostly be a diner life. I mean this is an opportunity for people to see the "can't" of disability. Because a lot of people jsut don't believe it.

So anyway, have a great day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I had a sudden inspection today and guess what, it is going to be a monthly inspection.  That is great news to me and I did not expect it. Also I like the Noemi person who came to see me, and Anthony.  It wasn't that bad today. I took out five bags of trash recently and had my laundry put up.  So really it went well.

Also medicaid is being renewed soon and health first is going to do it over the phone. Wow, that is great. It might happen today. I feel like they are conspicuously not torturing me. Thanks, everyone.

Ok, what else. My scale is under-reporting my weight, either because it is on an angle or needs a new battery, but honestly that is just what I need as I get through this next phase of getting back to normal. I mean honestly I think I am at about 198. That is actually not that good. But I think it is ten pounds down from last March.  Also I have probably recovered some muscle so maybe I did okay. 

What else, Facebook videos. This is where I feel like the numbers are not as good as I expected. They are doubled but not tripled and it seemed like they were honestly going to be around ten mil and it will probably be 7 mil.  That is still good. If it were easier to pause it I probably would and save the money. I mean maybe I will in a while but I do not know. 

I need to register for that talk I want to go to but I do not know if I seem like a problem person.

What about taking the books to the Bronx Arts Council. I think maybe I will do that Friday. Hmm maybe it should have been today. Or even yesterday. Well it is okay. Tomorrow I have two appointments.

Pest control is knocking on doors. They will spray soon and it will drop my mood a little. But it is okay.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Pals, I got the groceries. No water this time. I will get some more from Walgreens hopefully, maybe after delivering those other books.

How are things going in my apartment. Not that bad. I threw out a lot of trash this weekend. So next up is laundry, make the bed, clean the counter area.

And really after that it is in pretty good shape.

The other book delivery offer was a no go. I am kind of relieved but might need to still stock up on about ten joke books soon.

Gice I don’t think this weekend was a weight loss weekend but I probably maintained. The scale is now saying 191. Well that is not right but I might delude myself and calculate BMI. I think really I am at 196 which actually is great, that is ten pounds down. However I always went by this scale so possibly I am doing that well. And yet I don’t think so.

I think this will be a milkshake day. Also maybe I will try to talk to Erline later. I think I have let her down some but I am tired and sleeping at different times than before.

I just realized I need to email Drena.

Ok everyone, have a good day

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 9:30 am on Tuesday, Sept 15. Today,  I am going to try to do a grocery order. I have some space on my shelves and in my freezer.  So I will probably try to do that at about 11 am. I mean maybe I should do it now and beat the traffic. So maybe at 10 am so they at least have a chance to do it before lunchtime.

Anyway I boosted two videos and my numbers were doubled. I tried to make the most of it but if it doesn't really pay off in the long run then I won't do that again. I will just enjoy the half price pay. So far it is going well. I am at a cool mil.

Last night I had a dream that my sister yelled at me in a car and I was like hmm is this an evil spirit and if so how do I rid myself of it. So I think it is gone but now it seems like it was possibly just a bad dream.  But I do not know because when I reach a lot of people online, I feel various powers attack my mind.

Anyway also of note is that I got rejected for the Sparrow credit card. And I know I should have just waited a couple of weeks. I did not realize that the deadline was farther away and I could wait. Because it was too soon after another card.  And that happened another time.  But I think I can try again another month and it will work.  That is what happened with the Zable card. So really there are two possible cards on the horizon if I need it: Indigo and Sparrow, and maybe a credit line increase on a few of the other cards.  

Are you guys surprised I did these videos? Well it has been a while. I kind of do respect Facebook for boosting my numbers, because that other set of posts was sort of brave in a facebook way.  And yet I also kind of feel like it is about them wanting to control and even ruin the world with bad politics.  So that is where I question it.

Last night's toastmaster meeting was great. I think I am giving a speech next Saturday. So I need to work my way through the online training thing.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sunday, Sept 13 at about 10 am. I just drank some coffee but if it is not raining, I might walk to Starbucks soon.  However I still have some biscuits from the fried chicken extravaganza, so maybe I will heat up a biscuit and wait a while. 

I restored that meme. I mean I just was falling asleep last night and felt like archiving it and I did feel okay doing that.  Will I archive it again later, I do not know. 

It was kind of hard to find the archive on my computer. Also, I think I need to cancel that subscription thing somehow.  Facebook decided to promote my page because of that joke.  I do not respect that.

So anyway, are my books selling? I do not think they are. I think people are waiting until I am dead and it doesn't benefit me in any way.  Kind of like christian family members who wait as long as they can to profess their faith, so as to torture the christians who care.  It is the same kind of thing.

Anyway, does anyone have any thoughts? I personally do like Charlie Kirk. I think he was cool and tried hard and believed what he believed and was refreshing as compared to some of the social control. He could be a martyr even though it was political. At the same time, there is some major laziness and stupidity from that political side.  The way people got fired for saying their actual opinions, and the way people don't believe in religious liberty, and wow, the way some people overtly despise the disabled.

Ok so am I going to try to take the comedy class in October. I do not know. I do have enough stuff for a routine almost. And I would probably think of a little bit more. It is just that it creates a narrow window for a November trip.  But that is okay.  It works out fine. And the cost issue is the main thing. I mean I could call Anne and mom later and ask for the cost of the comedy class. Well let's see how I feel, because I already asked for extra recently. And yet it is small numbers as compared to Anne's business stuff.

I guess some of the issue is that it is time for a new generation and I don't see them as clearly as some people do. But I did write books for them but the hypocrites censored me. All it is is censorship, lie to yourself and say it is something different.  Call it failure, people four hundred years ago will call you something too.