hello everyone, this is Refried.

I am doing okay.

I am about to go to a nami support group.

I wish I had some wings but I had some cheese ball and cake.

Tomorrow might be a busy day.

Do I have enough joke books? I think I need to order a few more.

I forgot to say goodbye to David and Michael today.

Sorry fellas maybe see you another time sometime.

Ok everyone have a good day.

 Hello everyone. I am thinking of sharing that groundhog post even though I have to share the website with it.

What do you guys think about that. It would be international. Hello to India, you guys really made me feel better, thanks a lot.

I am at the hospital today and I go upstairs in thirty minutes. Right now I am sitting in a cafe downstairs.

I am planning to give some joke books to the PA students today. I hope I did not torture anyone. I hope it is not Sonia’s last day too.

Because I am still working on tapeworms for crochet.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 11:24. I am going to make a cheese ball in a little while. I think I will not be able to take my medicine until 1 am. this means I do not get psychological rewards at the hospital tomorrow.

I just got my groceries from door dash. I ordered them around 6:30 but decided to have them delivered later because I had a meeting from 7-8.

So I chose the 9-10 option. Well the driver didn’t leave from across the borough until 9 to go to stop and shop. And he had other orders and the order got to me at about 11 pm. I felt like I had already given them the two extra hours. So I was not expecting it but the driver was young and from another place and it seems somewhat miraculous for me to know him and for him to be able to drive and do this job. So I am looking on the bright side about it and got some good groceries even though this is my second failed egg nog attempt.

Earlier today the subway was not working in my area and I don’t feel the same about that. I think that is not right and the rudeness of the worker was not right. But I will try to go to that store to use my OTC card later this week. It is just hard and there is too often a barrier that makes me not be able to get groceries easily enough. And it has made me not have the right food this year. And there have been wasted dollars that I could have spent but was not able to.

But I think I can buy the other items at the key food from the subway soon and be stocked normally for a while.

So the issues are the closed stop and shop, the failed access a ride, the inefficient otc process at westchester, the subway skipping whole areas, the otc not being eligible for Instacart, and the slow service at DoorDash. I mean honestly that is a lot, and there have been mean bus drivers and cashiers mixed in, too. Grocery shopping used to be my favorite hobby and now I have some major outlook problems regarding my neighborhood and life.

So anyway tomorrow I will go to the hospital and tell them that honestly things didn’t go that well today.

 So okay, it's me again, Refried Bean. At about 5 pm I need to go to the grocery store. I might get stuff for a bean dip, a corn casserole, and pretzel salad.  Or should I wait until Thanksgiving to do that? I mean I do not know.  Possibly this doesn't need to be a major trip, like just pick up some chicken and bacon, and a few other things.  But some ideas are forming in my mind.  Rice Krispie treats, bean dip, potato soup, corn casserole, strawberry pretzel salad, dorito casserole, chicken pie, spaghetti casserole, I mean maybe get back in the game with food sharing. But really that is too late. I just hope I go visit Ravneet sometime soon.  Yoo hoo, Ravneet. Ravneet likes my cooking.

Today I did laundry and it went well. It was not easy because all the washing machines had clothes in them and I thought of an insulting sign to post in the laundry room.  But I think those feelings passed very nonviolently and I might not even say the idea to the mental hospital people this week.

I wish the mental hospital people would post more notes from my case but they know I publish them sometimes, well, every time.

So anyway, earlier I was thinking about how the people who helped provide all the cool stuff for 80s children are old now. They are in their 70s and 80s, and we should pray for them and be thankful and help them in some way.  It is a lot of stressed out people in my generation now caring for their parents and it is not easy for some people.

Anyway I prayed a little bit earlier today for some people and some yesterday under the umbrella of spiritual ocd about the facebook posts, but really I am just having small bursts of prayer and not enough sometimes. I do not know why but there is still some good stuff that people will get. Other people need to try the bulk ordering format and I am sad that my books didn't reach people to help them.  But I guess there are all those "thoughts and prayers" out there, and people can pray for facebookers, so maybe there is some good stuff already.

Ok what else to say. I mean doing laundry took a lot out of me so I can't go to the grocery store yet.  And I think there is still a laziness component from the medicine. So I do not know what to do about that but I think I might end up walking more during these next months.

I might read through some books for a while, maybe flip through and ponder. Earlier I prayed for other people to be successful at writing like how I used to pray at the bookstore.  And I think it worked a long time ago and now more people will want to write books so lets hope everyone can be successful. I mean why not.  These politics will pass over.

I gave the staff downstairs some copies of horizon cow. That is good, it took me a long time to do that, but today was the perfect day for it. I mean maybe no one has an attention span for it and maybe they will laugh at my old author photo that looks better than me now but what can I say, that was me back in the day.  Like it is not a fake picture in any way and I used to be skinny and made lifestyle choices that frankly some people think I wouldn't ever do, like getting exercise.  That is one of the reasons that God is going to chop up Tamara in front of everyone on judgement day.

So anyway I guess that is all for now, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, it is Sunday, Oct 19 at 2:46 pm.  I did my laundry a while ago and it was mostly pants and skivvies. So that is good.  Maybe I will start wearing long sleeve shirts soon.

Some of my white long sleeve t shirts got other shirt dye on them and they are not as white now.  But it is okay. I think about four are still wearable and that is plenty.  

I am stacking the amazon books I ordered so they get unbent.  I need to figure out immediately if I am going to take some to PHP. I think I will give a joke book each to the students and that might be all.  None for clients, and the staff already got some last time, so maybe a joke book or something for the interns. So possibly order a few more. But I have two for the P.A.s but what about the other P.A.s. Well I could give them each an art book. I think that is okay.  The art books are really religious but it is not that deep.  Like it says God loves you so repeatedly that it become charity to accept the book as a gift.

So okay. That is kind of comical.  As I finish sharing these halloween jokes, I see that I had exactly three of each category, three other jokes and three halloween jokes.  So why didn't I do a batch of three and a batch of three?  Well, there are reasons, which is that I had not thought of the butterfinger joke, and the necronomicon joke was really an inside joke for barnes and noble booksellers, and there was an unsharable among those other three.  So it became four and then minus two.  So now it is minus one and it will be three halloween jokes for a day or so.  I think that works out well. And it saves me about 80 dollars.  I also figured out that I have some space on my business credit card but I might need to use it for a PO Box renewal.

Ok this is all for this post and then I will do another post.

 Well everyone, it is Saturday, Oct 18. I have a meeting at 1 pm. I will try to do better at the meeting this time.  I just had some rice and peanut sauce that was really good.  The food I got went a long way but I probably can't do another splurge like that for two weeks.

I paused two of the meme ads but will I redo them, who knows. I decided to just keep the first two running.  So that is all kind of a fail, but I just wasn't expecting to keep changing my mind.  And there is a spiritual feeling that actually feels good but is different from the art posts.

Thanks LSH for the conspiracy support. I really appreciate it. 

I think for this butterfinger joke, saying "this year" would have been good. So that is interesting because that happens too when I share these jokes, I notice slight wording that should have been different.

So anyway, what do I have to say for the kids book meeting. Well I do not know.

Gice the joke books I ordered were kind of bent and I might try again but I don't really have the cash for it.

And yet I got that food.  But I think this year I did well with budget and not buying that kind of food. Also I think that I see you can do lobster dinners sometimes, like you might as well.

So anyway, ten more minutes until thing.  Gice I got invite to a no kings event but I don't think I will go.  I just don't know what it means.

After the meeting I might try to go get coffee.  But I could make coffee here so I do not know.

Gice does anyone have any thoughts about my meme foolishness? I mean I just did not do well. Maybe it is just a two joke day.

Well, thanks for reading, everyone.

 So here's what happened, I thought of another halloween joke and it seemed like I should not wait because the joke is about a season and now is the time for it. Well four memes is a lot but not totally undoable.  Except moneywise, it is a lot. But I can stop the posts after a couple of days and save the exact amount. Well what I just did is pause a good one. I mean maybe I drove facebook crazy. That is something to think about now, like I have spent their patience with it. And I am like gee it is like a spiritual thing, well, they might not appreciate that and just see it as OCD. 

So anyway I might phone a friend Wendy later, or Brian or Jay. Or Charlotte might have an opinion too. Also Cynthia and Claire. So I will recover but I think one issue is that there is in fact a spiritual condition from this and it is not that bad but it is a thing.

And I might post a photo and update on my regular page. I just do like facebooking on saturdays. 

I mean it is weird how I wanted to do the groundhog post and couldn't and then thought of another halloween post.  So now I will stick with this and hopefully these posts will be good. And I could end up still sending that other joke, like unpausing it. 

This felt so easy and then suddenly I could not decide.  And I jsut still question the necrinomicon joke but I don't want to waste it and I got good feedback on it from another humor person. Like that person saw it as usable.  

So now what, rest for ten minutes, then go to starbucks.