Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just went to mail a package and pick up some books I ordered. It was one of my main orders. It is horizon cows and more floopydoos. I figured out that giving the two books together is a nice gift. I think some people will think they got a lesser gift but really I mean it well.

I also got the best fried chicken deal that I have ever gotten at Popeyes.  Just in terms of the cost and value and it hitting the spot.  But I made a mistake to not go give a piece to my friend who was sitting on a bench a quarter of a mile away. It felt too far but I should have done that. I am sorry about that, and maybe some other time if I pass that guy in his usual spot then I will buy him his own chicken meal.

So anyway, my posts are doing well and I think one post is gong to hit a million people. It will be my most far reaching post compared to the cost, and I am thankful for the suffering behind the post which was from someone I was thinking of what I would tell them and then I wrote the post. That wording was not good of that sentence. It is not really one of my resolutions so far this year to improve my grammar habits etc.

Anyway I finished another three part ai book and I think it is really cute. I think people will like it.  There is an issue with part of it which is that I did not move the images far enough down the page so they are too high up, but at least it is consistent within that section.

I still might upload the thin book format of the rabbits book, but I am going to wait until I feel bored.

Have I been working hard? I think this is my job.  A children's book writer. It counts as substantial gainful activity so I can't have any cash.

I hope Ravneet is secretly getting book sales but to my knowledge it is zero.

But this last book is cool. I will try to order some copies.  I think I will order two class sets of thin books, and some of these lower quality threefer books.  They are all really cool in some way.  Blobtastic. Triple Play, Creature Comfort, and Play Day.  Uh Oh I just realized that I repeated the word "Play." Well that is okay. I did the best I could. The books are cool.  There are only four which means maybe there will be a fifth one at some point but I think I have done enough for now.

Well, that is all. Have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Monday, January 5. I went to my first group therapy group tonight at NYU. It was really fun and I met cool people. Hopefully I can stay in the group for a long time and get a refill if the money runs out.

I am also running some posts on my art and jokes page. That page is not as strong as my other page but I like the memes I am running.  Weirdly, I doubted the pink paint splash meme a little bit even though there is nothing to it.  It is a paint splash and says God loves you.  So hopefully that will be fine.  Facebook set the comments low so I am not getting as many comments to answer.  And I should have said stuff to some people instead of just clicking like.  So I actually have some reservations about how I am doing so far with this round of boosts.  The other issue is that a meme I really liked has a Jesus that looks maybe too much like a white guy.  The prompt I used said "cute jesus" and that is what it generated. And it looked okay to me. It is kind of weird if that is the issue because really the meme seemed a little prophetic and was a different risk than normal. Anyway, I think it is okay and I am reacting to the feeling of a few trolls.

I just ate some cheesy rice and it was very yummy.  Then I ate a piece of chocolate and it was only okay.

What is on my to do list for tomorrow? Probably go to the post office. I hope my books get there as ordered.  I think after I changed the wording of the address on the account it has gotten held up a little at the post office a few times. But that might not be it but I hope that is okay because I have two large orders that I am waiting for.

So anyway, the other facebook post is going well but I do not know if there are any book sales. I will do some videos when the books I ordered get here.

I do not know how I feel about the videos.  Facebook made the numbers better for that because they are competing with Tik Tok.  But I think that is their problem is that they are competing too much and not facilitating friendship like they used to.  But all it would take is a little leadership and an adjustment to alogrithms and things might instantly be better one day.

Well, that is all. I will write again in a while after I see how these posts do.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Jan 4.  I was going to go play games downtown today but stayed up until 3:30 working on a new book. It is a book of glitter bears in sparkling tunnels.

Some of the bears kind of look cheap in the images but I think it is okay. I freaked out about copyright last night but then saw that my original impression was correct.  A glittery bear is a generic toy already common in the culture and it is okay to name my book what it is.  There is an official product called a glitter bear but the main company had to call them squeezy bears.  So I think it is okay.

If it is not I will change it someday to sparkle bears. Not going to the games thing put me in a low mood and I feel kind of bad about myself. But I am going to walk to Walgreens soon to buy envelopes and that will be good.  I need to leave in about five minutes.

Ravneet sent me some very fun messages to cheer me up and it worked. I am monitoring myself for internet addiction but I believe I am okay. I shared some more posts to India and I believe they liked the posts and it was positive. I can't always hit like on every comment because my computer heats up.

Well, that is all, I hope you all have a great day.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just made some strawberry toaster pastries in the oven.  That only took me about five years to figure out it was possible. It was yummy and I will share with neighbors if they knock on my door at the right time.

I woke up at 2 pm today. My sleep schedule is off. I do not think I will be going to the board game meetup tomorrow. I think they were thoughtful and made it possible for me but I think I am not able to. I will think about it some more and I will also try to register my metro card properly. It might not be worth it to do the discounted rate. 

I am so thankful that I did not lose my insurance. I feel that some case management people made me have to worry about it instead of letting me have the mental reward from turning in my paperwork on time.  That is a value and practice I disagree with in the social work field.  but don't take it from me.  You will hear it in a lecture from Jesus Christ himself in front of all of humanity one day. And you will be wailing in shame.  

My skin is better today but not perfect. But much more normal, so that is about time.  I think that Karla made me feel bad because it is time to go to the doctor's appointment and he might adjust medicine. So they are letting me know they will send me to the hospital through their normal abusive means if I get manic.  I do not respect that practice but it helps me prevent anger if I try to see it as benevolent towards me, or at least intended that way.

I think I will share my escalation article on this blog, maybe with names and maybe not.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. What do you guys think of my new poem. I think it was a rather ugly thing to say.  But I think it is the thing, like I think I hit on all of it and needed to write it down on my blog.  So that is that. I need to not look back too much and say what happened because good things did happen and I think the idea was that I would be a children's book writer for teens. And it worked and things will be okay.

So block the triggers is the goal, and I should realize that watching snl might have made the algorithms start a bad feed. 

Anyway I just ate some popcorn and coke.  It was great. No one expected me to drink that coke in the back of the fridge but it is awesome.

I found out that I am not losing insurance, so that is good news.  And my SSDI is improved some.

I am a little depressed about my gift giving not going well this christmas.  What is the meaning of that?  I just don't understand.  My card did not get to my friend, I think I saw my unmailed package for someone else still at the post office today, the present for one my my nieces was late, and I am behind on three book mailings.  So that is weird, I guess it is my schedule and medicine problems.

My skin is still not doing well but it could be worse. But this has been like two weeks now and usually it is only a few days of a real issue. 

Soon I will get some books in and start giving them away again.  

Well I am using up my internet service and need to save ten percent for monday.

Have a good day everyone, live and learn, ups and downs, pros and cons.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Friday, Jan 2. I missed a meeting at 1 pm but I think it got postponed anyway. Today I had inspection and it was hard to prepare and I lost a lot of sleep.  Then the case manager made my mood drop. I think it was because the sink was too dirty.  But I did everything else pretty well.  And I gave her a box of chocolates for christmas.

I just got a few books that I ordered and didn't realize had not arrived yet.  It was two joke books and a mice book.  I have two people I need to mail to soon.  But I am waiting to go to the grocery store so I can add something for one package. It is taking me way too long because it is cold outside and because I have to get insurance straightened out.  I got good news today which is that my medicare premiums are covered and I will not be losing medicare. So I just need to find out about medicaid and then maybe I can keep healthfirst. That would be the best case scenario.

I ordered some books to give away so I won't feel like my writing career is over. I think I can get another year out of it before I feel like doing an end of the year career clearance sale.

It will be weird if it is wasted on the level that the threat of it is for.  But there are signs of improvement so I will just see what happens.

I might share more poems this year on my poems and jokes page, but I do not know for sure. I question facebook's decision to not let my shares reach my followers, but possibly they have added that reach to the posts from my other pages.

Anyway I drank some water for two days. We will see if I can keep that up. I mean maybe I can go a few weeks like that and get back down to normal weight.  

I am using up internet but I wanted to have some internet left for my group therapy on Monday. I hope it works out okay. 

 Hello everyone, I learned how to make a good sauce for shrimp, chicken, and steak.  You combine mayonnaise, barbeque sauce, soy sauce, and honey.  And it is so yummy. It is similar to yum yum sauce but possibly better. 

I ate some shrimp earlier and then some chocolate.  I think tomorrow I will stock up on water instead of soda and see if that will make me lose five pounds faster. I mean even two weeks without soda might make a difference. I hope to see a difference in two weeks.

Is this blog going to turn into a countdown of pounds. Well I do not know but it is a very journally blog anyway.  Is everyone getting tired of each other online? I do not know. I think we are tired of the news and what the algorithms did to us.

What should I do now. Maybe prepare for inspection.  I took out the trash.  Now I need to do dishes, pick up clothes, clear table, and then I will mostly be ready to do the rest tomorrow morning.  So I will wash dishes in a while. I think I will put the dishes in the sink soon.

I can feel that I did not eat as much today. I can feel it in my mind which means I feel the effect of less sugar but it isn't necessarily making a weight impact yet.  That is tricky, to lose the reward of it before it actually helps you.

But it will be okay.  Who knows if I will actually stick with this but it is something instead of nothing.