Hello everyone, it is about 4 pm on Saturday. At 8 pm I am attending a poetry reading online. I think I might phone a friend soon. I kind of don't feel good today but it is because I took my medicine.

I am now making some coffee. I think I might replay the video of the book hero again.

And I might reread Gospel Compendium.

Are any of my books selling?

I do not really know but I saw 8 copies listed as sold this month and I was not the one who bought them.

I wonder if I should do some more selfie videos soon.  Like maybe not advertising the books but talking more in depth about stuff. But I know people think I am ignoring the ICE stuff and only caring about my own problems but I do think people should be caring about their own lives and the goodness from that will be an important part of overcoming the bad stuff.

Gice the hospital people really help me and are nice people in God's plan. I really feel that they are there for me and make me feel better.

I got my room ready for inspection but no one came and did inspection so I guess I am just being escalated and will try to make it to Greenville and escape these racists.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. My room is mostly ready for inspection. I took out two bags of trash, swept and mopped, cleaned the table corner some, put up the clothes, moved the carts, cleaned the counter, washed some dishes, made the bed, and that was most of it.

Then I listened to music that brought back good memories.  I am basically being abused by racists again.  I knew it in March that it was happening again. I also feel the familiar grief where some if it is for me and some of it is for the abusers who are going to be devastated on Judgement Day. 

But anyway, I guess I will get through inspection and then sleep some and avoid the neighborhood if I am able to. I can see a few more trouble spots that I could work on in this last ten minutes.

 

Hello everyone, this is Refried. I did the floor and counter and made the bed and took out two bags of trash. So that is good. I started on the table area and need to pick up the bathroom clothes and I will do that at 10:30. And I need to close those cabinets. I feel the racism from this organization and the hate.

I hope my day improves after inspection. I will probably sleep more. Because of the medicine. But it could be worse and they might make it worse but if they do I will not be here anymore.

Karla is abusing me. Karla is a racist child abuser. All I can do it report it every time.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I got some sleep and had interesting dreams. Then I took my medicine.  So I won't feel as good for a while but then it will be okay. I think I will try to clean my apartment. Inspection is at 11 and I had forgotten about that.

So okay the list for inspection: do trash in table area, then take trash out, make bed, sweep and mop, wipe counter, put clothes in cart, close cabinets and that is all.  That is not a lot.  I will do all that at ten oclock.

So okay. Pals honestly I see a lot of bugs. But it could be less but it is okay.  I think they are doing a second bug bomb next friday.

What does everyone think about yesterday? Well I do not know.

Pals what do you think about those books? I think they are kind of boring but interesting for a book that is boring.  Like it is just me yapping but I do say interesting things but I have a lot of books that aren't just me yapping.

 Hello everyone, I drank some coffee. I think I will take my medicine at about 3 am, possibly 4 am.  I did not email Amar about Toastmasters. So I do not know when the next meeting is.

I read some of those books that sold. I think they are okay and maybe some people will find them interesting.  But to me, the poems and stories are better. But that was when I did those prayers.  And some people might like reading my opinions.

Tomorrow will I call any phone a friends? I do not know.

I do not want to be bullied anymore but it is possible that people are intervening.

I mean honestly it was not that easy to get through the pest control thing.

Maybe tomorrow I will call my sister.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, October 23 at 11:58 pm.  I am making some coffee. I washed out the coffee maker. I think the coffee did not absorb the poison but just now I am like okay of course it did, coffee is actually used for that.  So I need to start over with a bag that was not out.

So I will do that. I mean maybe that works out because I cleaned out the coffee maker with this hot boiling coffee and then I will do a different batch.  My apartment doesn't feel covered in poison and there are still a lot of bugs crawling around. I think they are going to do it again next Friday.

I feel tired but I took my medicine yesterday so am kind of okay. I guess soon I should take more medicine. I felt good prayer feelings this afternoon and prayed a lot. So that is a couple of days after about a week of not doing that well. 

Then unfortunately there were some squids and eels and dragons. But I am okay and I mostly think that is done for now. I think I can stop it whenever and take a break and it is kind of like when hospitals give people medicine to make their delusions go away.

The nami group helped me a lot tonight and I think that is kind of cool because I was like gosh what do I do, I am praying for shame and horror on the bad people but should do forgiveness but that did not feel right either but meanwhile I felt the good prayer feeling of the Holy Spirit.  So then in the nami meeting it became more productive and positive. And personally I think it is cool how that was provided just when I needed it. But I had a spell when typing an email about the pest control thing.  Because I was not invited to the community meeting where they told people the instructions.

Anyway I guess now I will try to make the coffee again. Maybe I will eat some lucky charms.

The hospital told me some opinions which is try to work work work work work. Like the song from the Bridge soundtrack.

Hello everyone, it is 8:35. I have taken my medicine and prepped my room for bug spray.  In about five minutes I will take my bag downstairs.  should I use a cart today? I mean maybe I will. Or maybe not because if I have to like go somewhere or something. So I guess just use the bag. But I don't know, maybe put a box of books and use the cart.

I had a Young Life dream this morning and it was interesting, I don't really remember it that well.  But I think possibly I am able to see the Young Life thing as different like instead of having a nervous breakdown because of some weird thing, just maybe the normal onset of mental illness and my conclusion was that I had to quit.   So it is not necessarily bad and I am not necessarily a mismatch for it.  And I will be a writer for teens which is related.

So anyway, that is interesting. I mean the dream was interesting, I do not have that many dreams about it but when I do, it often does match the culture and goals of it.

So anyway ok I am thinking cart, which means I am not done packing up.  I mean this whole bug prep thing has been really hard on me and does not match my sleep schedule.

Well, see y'all later.