Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am on the Amtrak train and we just left Greenville. I have a good seat buddy at least for about two hours. Then it will be 4:30. There could be a bad one after that but it will be almost daylight and that helps when you have a bad person which I did one time. The train station was not safe this time so I do not know what I will do for the next trip. I felt like after the trip here that I was okay to tolerate the train after feeling too disabled for it in the last several trips. But I think some of that was because I was being tortured at housing.

Basically there was a non passenger who came in the waiting area when I was the only one there at 1:30 in the morning. I said hello and he was friendly but stayed too long in the bathroom like possibly either drugs or just sleeping. So I went outside and waited on the platform. Actually it was a good solution because if someone came toward me it would be okay to call 911. but no one was there until a safe couple was standing outside the building later and I talked to them. They were first timers and I told them usually it felt safer. Well then another guy came into the waiting area and I decided to wait there instead. But then I found out he was not a passenger either. He said “ I wish I could get on this train and go to Philly.” Well I went back outside because it sounded like a drug dealer pickup line. But maybe he was a nice guy. 

So then I waited twenty more minutes and some other people came in the train area and the mystery guys left.

But there was another car with non passengers and they were socializing. So I am going to have to write a little note to Amtrak and say how bad it is that they don’t staff their stations. And I will tell them I am also going to send a note to the hometown newspaper to do a story about it.

People could say not to announce it as a target but there should be some leadership to maintain a functioning train station for a city of a million people.

Well maybe this is that article.

Have a nice day everyone.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I mailed some of my clothes to myself so I could travel with just one small bag. I feel that it was a good decision.

I am almost ready for my trip. I think I should call and confirm the cab ride to the train station.

And I need to finalize packing. These are crazy times and I think everything people do that is normal productivity is very valuable.

The post office was not crowded.

Gice I really am glad to be finishing mostly with the art hobby from last year. But I also think I should not waste the video opportunity. I am aware that there are a lot of other people doing what I am doing but I think I have a lot to contribute to social media. Currently I have two videos boosted.

I am happy to have done most of my work in life. God has been good to me and helped me live a creative life. But wow mental illness has been rough. I would say it could have been worse but some people max out your suffering sometimes and put you in the most extreme zone possible.

Anyway that is not the topic. The topic is that I had a good trip and got stuff done for my mom and she did not fuss at me that much this time. 

I wish I could go to the nami conference. I will think about maybe attending if I can. But I think I can’t.

 Well hello everyone. I did my laundry. I think I will mail some clothes to myself but I actually could do two bags. Does anyone have any thoughts about that. I think I would rather mail some clothes.  I think I will not mail shoes. So at about 2 pm I will go to the post office. 

Mom said she felt I did a good job on clearing the boxes etc. I think I did too. There are two leftover boxes of junk and trash.  I think they can just be tossed.

Gice I am coming to the end of my video budget.  This means also that I have less book budget but I actually do have that amazon store card and can do another round of library books.  Do people still want a free book? I do not know if they do.  Those books are starting to fade into the past for me.  And yet sometimes I am like gee this is good stuff and it should not be wasted.

So I will keep trying to get an agent. But you know what, an agent doesn't mean sales.  So possibly I should keep doing ads.  I mean I do not know. Am I supposed to just assume my books are selling when I have no evidence of that.

Well I do not know. I need to charge this computer. I am thankful that the trip went well and there were no health problems, traffic concerns, really bad social issues, outbursts, and things like that. I did send messages and not meet with people but I will try to apologize for that soon.

What were the main things about the trip: the books, the video boosts, the family visits, the computer sale, the food, a few zoom meetings, and I think that is mostly all.  That is good and I am thankful.  

I miss my therapist who is on vacation.  Hmm there is a nami group soon. I think I will attend.

Ok have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I am in a zoom meeting and it is very grounding. Earlier I attended a meeting about autism. It was excellent. I gave a donation. I might do a church donation sometime but I have to make sure the time is right and I have the cash.

Right now I am listening to a guy named Larry Leech talk about fiction flaws.  It is excellent.  I mean the stuff he is talking about now is what I need to figure out.  What setting details are necessary.  Because I think I short people on that a little bit and it might weaken my books. But also it is too late now.

I mean have I already been identified? I just question if I was so good that my novels could be propelled sight unseen.  But maybe people did think that. Or think they could be ignored because my stories were good.

Gice I think my writing career is mostly over in terms of actual work. That is kind of exciting, isn't it? And yet I still am thinking of jokes and poems sometimes. So maybe there will be a story or two. Or I could try to fix Poncheesy.

Hmm, maybe that will be a project soon.  Like take away the last part of the novel and start again on page 50. I mean it was good stuff and then I uploaded my journal. And I think one of my friends who read it didn't like it.

Anyway I had a good day. It was a challenge but I did the right thing.  My budget is back to normal for boosting posts. I want to do higher boosts and get a cool mil for some videos. But I might need to keep it in the 606060 range. I mean I do not know. Mainly I think I need to plan for a higher budget and acquire that funding somehow ahead of time.

I really had more expenses this winter but it was legitimate stuff, like that social work license stuff that did eat up the whole deposit. Hopefully that will work out and my license is renewed okay.

Gice I think it might be valuable info for autism researchers that I am disabled at fiction but able when the characters are mice. I mean that is a fact. Maybe people can read the books later and see that.

I don't know how to find sponsors for my book business.  But maybe there are sponsors.

Well everyone, I hope you all have a great day.

That was crazy that I saw a vision, wasn't it? A bronze or iron Alligator that might or might not be alive.

Possibly the main idolatry problem.  And yet my mom is acting when she tortures me. She is part of the conspiracy. But anyway I got most of the book work done for those boxes in the other room. All that is left are two keeper boxes, one trash box, and one mystery crate. I think I will make it a keeper. I mean I could look through it right now.

Gice ups and downs live and learn. I hope my train ride goes well. Maybe it is not that big of a deal. Gice some people are really suffering right now but a lot of people were okay when I wasn't.  I was a canary in the coal mine for some stuff and I believe the other people will get through it just as I did.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone. It is 4:24 on Thursday. Tomorrow I go home from my trip. I had a good trip and did not spent too much on restaurant food. But I spent some on two joy of Tokyo, one konichiwa, and some coffees plus tips. But I also did not order a lot of books to mail. So there were some savings here and there.

My budget is not going to be a lot for video boosts but possibly it is better to feel that again like the art posts. I just will have limitations and it will be okay.

I got some good messages from Ravneet a while ago. 

I think I need to finish up with the boxes in the other room. I think I unpacked about 7 boxes and sold three bags of books. 

I am thankful that my health was ok in this trip. I mostly took my medicine every day. I got good sleep last night and will try to get good sleep tonight.

I just had some leftover peanut butter pie. 

Gice tomorrow I might mail half my clothes to myself so as not to carry another bag. I also might stay in a hotel one night in New York so I can take the train to the Bronx in the day time. I need to check the cost of it right now.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.  I think I am going to the mall soon. I am waiting for my phone to charge. I need to go through one more box of stuff but I think I have done enough work in that room mostly. I could work on it later too. I am going to the autism group today instead of the nami group at 6. 

My Venmo balance did not seem right but I think it is okay. I think it is just taking a while for the payment to post. Sometimes it gets adjusted really quickly but this time I was like hey did they reduce my credit limit but I think it is okay and just taking a second.

I think everyone supports not overdoing it with facebook. Yeah I think that is good.

I will do some more videos soon, maybe on the train. 

Well, time to get going.

 Hello everyone. It is now April 2, no longer April Fool's Day. It is 1 am. I will take my medicine in about an hour. I have stuff on my mind as I crack the code. I mean these are my wheelings and dealings and I am thankful to be alive. My girlfriend reflected "tired," earlier, and that is what I was going to say. Like I am glad I am still around to do my usual decisions and live and learns, but it is true that it wears on me in various ways on various days.  But mostly I am doing okay. I think the train trip will be okay but what if it is not? I am somewhat expendable.  And certain things are mostly done.

I mean just to pause and reflect, aside from plans and ideas, it is good that I am at this place with the video boosts.  Because really it is optional.  I mean in a way I don't want to miss the opportunity, but in another way I just want to remark on how nice God is to give me a new hobby that is easier than religion. I mean I don't want to say that the wrong way. But these videos are just for fun. It does matter and I think it will help there be positive content and a gift from me and my conspiracy to nice people across the world. I mean it is nice and there could really be some classics in the mix.  But it is ai, and many other people are doing stuff that is almost similar. And already I have entered enough prompts that I could be copied and then you know what, did it really have to come from me? Not necessarily.

But what I am saying is this is how it is when I see visions, too, like it is not beyond my strength.  And I just feel like this is a sign of that yoke that is not heavy.  I mean this is the most I have ever felt that. Except actually the mild love feeling when I did share those religious posts was also a sign of that.

But I am sure that it will be challenging some times. And I might still have to do some brave ads soon. It's not that brave.  But sometimes it is not that easy.

Anyway I think it is okay for me to stay up until about 3 am. Then take my medicine. I have food back here and I will be able to take it. I can also go into the kitchen if I need to. I mean I could make coffee.

Hmm I do not know if I will do that. 

Gice I think that was nice of Brain and Jonanner to come visit me today. And Jocelyn is my friend too.

Gice Ravneet didn't have a luxury trip to Greenville.  I think she had to work. 

Well, that is all for now. Does anyone have any thoughts.