Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday. Oct 16 at 8:09. I went to an excellent autism meeting earlier and I might step up and lead a mens group. I think that is what they are trying to get me to do but I am sad because I loved Peter and thought he did awesome. I forgot to thank him in a book but I will try to thank him in the next one.

Earlier today I went to an awesome presentation and I just love those people and felt some book world community. I feel that some of my resentments are being repaired and I am thankful. It is painful to have grudges and mad feelings. 

I have another presentation scheduled tomorrow and it is the same person and I am sorry but I just feel that I will still attend even though it seems weirdly obsessive, it is not. I mean the thing is that 
I remember this person's blog 15 years ago when I was about to query in a normal way.  And then there it was again later on, and then the person spoke at a conference and cares about all the populations that overlap with me and my book path.  And this person also I think has done something similar where they saw all the ups and downs of trends and then did their own thing. And I do respect that a lot. So way to go JF. A true bookstore pal.

You know who I thought of today is John Hensley. He was a good store manager. Remember when he had me do that map? Pretty funny. I think he will produce it as evidence when we are all reunited in court.

That is funny because I told the lawyers that as fun as a reunion would be, I felt it was not a game.

So anyway, I made a corn dip today and had a good day. Inspection was postponed until tomorrow. Hmm I should do a little work on the apartment later tonight. I did not feel tortured today and I think that they are doing the segregation thing which I don't believe in, but I also don't think it necessarily rises to abuse levels unless it does.  Do you know what I mean? I think steering people towards their own identity is not by itself torture. But if you use torture to do that social engineering, then yeah, you did torture me.  

So anyway, I mean who knows.  Possibly a lot of this is about boredom.  Like how I did get hit with boredom and prayed and then had a lot of love and meaning and jokes.

Well, that is all.  Luanne is reading a thin book. I hope I did not give her too much of a chunk to read.

Thanks Luanne!!!

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday Oct. 15. I repeated the word "creative" too much in that email, didn't I? Well I think it is just a writing quirk.  Also the word "honestly" in yesterday's email.  But I think it is all okay.

I decided to tell the Starbucks manager named Donna that I think it was her in my dream who was the school boss that accepted the food and did not let it be rejected. I just think it was a cool supernatural dream and she deserved to know that at least at some point, that person was either her or reminded me of her in some way. Everyone wants a supernatural nod.  Remember that Daniella got a dream like that once.

I have been thinking about emailing Bo Karen Lee. To tell her some random interesting things.

Soon I am going to a group online. Then after that I guess I need to clean my apartment but I have to take medicine soon and I think I got myself into a jam.

But it is okay. It has cooled off in here and I am okay.

Gice I think the dream was good for the army too. I don't think it was just about the food being okay. The theme was absolute victory, we will not be mcgillicuttied and it was good news. Like not just people saying we won't be mcgillicuttied but that the chocolates with the groundhog stickers on them will be accepted. The chicken dishes were good and not be wasted and I will not be considered a faulty teacher.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, Oct 15. I thought today was the 16th. My room is too hot again but I am psychologically okay. People choose to not earn respect sometimes and will have to live with that.

I will eat some ice cream or something later to cool off.  But it is bothersome and it is hot outside. The air conditioning should be on. I believe they would lose a lawsuit but hopefully I can keep housing here for three more years.

I need to talk to my mom about the copyrights etc. But I think I am okay for now with the normal deposit.

It is too hot in my room.  This is two weeks now, as usual. My comedy teacher was able to guess what the thing is that I am keeping to myself.  I still do think I will not say it.

I think I will be requesting another rent discount.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 12:07. Soon I am going to an online presentation. It is the second one this week about platform.  I think it is a webinar but I possibly should be prepared to participate.

I had such an amazing dream this morning about bringing food to an event and then it turned out to be an army meeting and my food was really appreciated and I told people we could also melt chocolate into molds and put packaging that had groundhog stickers and I had this feeling like we would not be mcgillicuttied and then it was this feeling of total victory, like the food could not be rejected and we could cook it or order it and the boss made it unrefusable.  Isn't that so interesting? It was neat and I wonder if people prayed for me because of my problems and that is why I had cool dreams this week.

It is warm in my room right now but I think the air is on and I have a fan.

I emailed the Lieber Clinic about some stuff and it was fun and happy. I miss Emily though and do not know where she is but she is my friend and one of the people who saved my life and it was so fun, such great memories, I mean why did I feel so bad, it was so awful, but they helped me a lot.

Today is a self publishing conference and I hope I can attend well enough. I do want to participate with those people and I will try to put a word in for my lawyers.

My lawyer gave me a secret message to make sure I clean my apartment for inspection this week, according to whatever official agreement there is.  But there can be such thing as bad agreements.

So anyway, that is interesting.  I really love all the lawyers and discovered today that there is some kind of lawyer following for my most questionable facebook posts.

So that is kind of interesting and funny.

Well, have a good day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I got home at 11 pm today. I went to comedy class and it was easy and fun.  The apple cider from Le Pain Quotidian was the best I have ever had. I was not expecting that. Their lemonade is not sweet enough. 

The air conditioning situation is probably over and I hope I do not lose housing for reporting it.  But I think that when I feel the emotional abuse especially, I should say something.

The stuff I posted on facebook could lose some people but I think it was the right thing to do and possibly very overdue in terms of addressing the weird coordination of people who turn on me. 

I mean maybe it is just a game or campaign but I feel genuinely hurt by it.

So anyway today I emailed someone with an idea, so if you are visiting this page, I hope you are well and please excuse the drama that is listed for a few posts.  I think some of it is journalism material provided by some of the sub conspiracies.

So anyway I like my comedy class. It was a small crowd tonight. But we had a great time and the route home was good and I got a slushie from 7-11. 

But I started not feeling good on the train and still don't feel great and I think it is the low iron. I only really missed one dose. Is it something else. Like digestion unease from going too long without food and then eating fast or something. I mean I do not know. Is it the coffee schedule is off.

Well I do not know. Tomorrow is the self publishing conference and I hope it goes great.

Have a good day everyone.

 Wow it took me several days to figure this out, but basically the housing people decided to not obey the law on air conditioning, or follow the directions to correct their other abuse, and they have decided to cheat us and abuse us anyway. Literally they turned the air on again for two days and then proceeded with their normal two weeks of illegal discomfort. So I will report them again tomorrow, not just to the OMH people, but as abuse. I just kept using my fan, like ok, maybe it is fine for now. It is not fine. Tomorrow it will be 90-100 in here. That was the whole complaint and they did it anyway as disrespect.

Part of their defense is that the abuse helps establish legally that I have no other place to go.  And this supposedly would be useful if right wing weirdos tried to take away my housing.  But mostly up here the racial problems are from the leftists, and Karla has plenty of people to excuse her lying, cheating, and stealing. So definitely as someone who gets the worst of both worlds, I am an easy target as usual.  

But there will be a list of complaints that stay with Karla for her short career, and last time I got criminally abused, it was complaint number twenty that resulted in the bullies disappearing.  Now Karla has tried to assure me that as long as she is here, I will have housing, but she has these other terms and conditions where I have to agree let her treat me like crap. It's a little abuse dynamic where I agree not to tell as she takes away rent value and practices some kind of activism against me and purposely tries to ruin my outside work, like comedy class. For other clients, the idea is to have work goals as part of the housing program.  But for me, any success is some kind of supremacy to be dismantled. 

Also, the new example is The Bridge using the word repair on the grievances record, like the air conditioning was broken and not turned off.  That was a lie from Daniella so I would let up on calling Karla the liar that she is. Daniella is still working with her on that. My therapist said they just don't have enough money to get good people so they have to save money on air conditioning.

 Ok everyone, I posted on facebook and it is really good material. I do not know how people will feel about it. Who I will lose and gain, etc. But definitely there were three or four good posts in a row, and it has been a while. 

I think I am not passing out books in the park until Wednesday or Thursday.

I ate too much at McDonalds but it was yummy but I kind of don't feel good but it is not that bad.

I mailed four joke books. 

The person from yesterday who read my whale book said it was only okay and she kind of liked some of the poems and not other ones.  That really made my day and I am glad it was interesting to her. It was some of my favorite feedback that I have gotten.

At one pm I have therapy.

Last night I had a dream that I went back to the spirituality and social work program.  It was weird because I had a dream of part of it and was impressed, like I felt that it indicated certain levels of spirituality from Dr. Nicotera. But then there was more to the dream where I went to the library with a new group, plus some old members, but they were people I did not know in real life, and one girl told me about how her high school colors were pink and purple but not a specific shade of pink and purple.  And then people got mad at me because I had been embarrassed when they did read-alouds last time in the library. So that is interesting.

Anyway definitely some zingers online. I mean I did bust those people. I am kind of sad about some of it because one person was a potential phone a friend and I forgot and now it is probably too late.

Well anyway it is just a lot of people to turn on me and they think if they are unanimous in their character defamation then there is no one else to vouch for me but even unanimity is going to just show the bullying at this point.