Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Saturday, August 29. I slept a lot. I am okay about the Facebook numbers. I think the issue is that they gave me a deal last time and now it is normal.  That is different than cutting them in half. For som reason I feel okay about that.

I resumed the ads but missed the best chunk of time.  But I think it is okay and it means I will not spend too much as I was going to. I mean it would not have been too much if it had been at the super numbers.  But it is just normal and I can afford about double what I did.  Which will get me to maybe 14k followers. I mean that is cool to me. Like it won't be instantly 60k.  But let's think of other people for a second.  

Other people don't have those numbers. I mean think of Nut Smugglers Life.  They should have millions.  And they just don't, and it has to be fair, and actually probably is pretty close to being fair.

So that is good.  Maybe I was weird about interpreting the sky last night but I think it was real and cool and also kind of subtle, like people can take it or leave it. But I feel assurance that Claire and Elise etc and my family are all in good hands and there is a plan.  And I feel like there was a nice expression of condolences about grief and when I think well what is my grief, it is about some of the stuff that has happened in addition to traditional grief.  And it kind of makes it truly be okay to me.  And like maybe there is some support for the conspiracy's plan and even the weird NYU things I don't match on.

And it could be a good sign for the immigrants, frankly. I mean we do not know what is going to happen but I feel that we got some support from an up and up who sees and cares.

Also the stomach problems from later could have happened at the game.

So I am okay. I am drinking coffee. My weight said 197 this morning and that was a good surprise. That is three lower than that other reading. So I mean should I take a walk in a while, maybe.

Gice. the numbers. Man, double would be cool, but I really do understand. This is still good. And I needed to do a pause so now the pause is done and I did it at peak time and that is okay. A twelve hour pause so that save me 25 percent and I will probably save more again later.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Ok everyone, the facebook situation is okay. They did cut my numbers in half.  Probably because of the hacking. That is too bad but it is still good numbers. I think I will end up at about 30k page follows.  But honestly I might not do the whole budget because the idea was to get a lot for it and if it is going to be kind of normal then I will spend normally too. So I am thinking pause it tomorrow.  They will not be happy with that but in a way they might not care. 

I think also the cut numbers are a message from the worker named Jasmine who helped me when I got in trouble for the houseplant post.

What does it all mean, I do not know.  And the fact that we have this trust system where the posts don't directly reach my followers. But I think it affects who gets the ad boosts.

So I mean that is interesting. This is meaningful work to me.  It is a good opportunity. I just think some of the fun of it is messed up now.  Like it is a good experience but not as amazing for 40 dollars. I mean that was awesome for forty dollars and now it is not that.

I just think what happened this morning was also dishonest.  They made my card fail on purpose.  They did that a long time ago, too.  It makes it seem like you are not good for the money when you are.

I just think as we tolerate things like that we are inviting true persecution into our culture and businesses.

To let a company make it seem like your card doesn't work.  

I just think this prayer mission might be a fail.

Maybe people don't want to hear that. Well I can revisit the people like I recently did for the jokes people.

But I just feel like the things from today aren't going that well. But it is okay but not great.

 Hello everyone. It is about 1:41 am. I am doing okay. I did not feel well for a while but am okay now. I think it was IBS for no reason. Possibly with some influence from an iron pill.

I will inquire about the Biscoline soon. 

I just drank some coffee. I think I will eat some of my ice cream that I got as a consolation.  Were people really disappointed in me? Or were they not surprised.  Let's think about how I have some wins. I did attend five different comedy clubs this year. And I finished another comedy class, and I did a lot of zoom meetings. 

I had a good time at the writers meeting today but I think my orientation was a little off because of the facebook and canva adventures.

I really like the new post.  

The numbers are not that great and that kind of disappoints me a little bit because I think it was right to go by the other indications.  So possibly if they have cut it in half then I will cut spending in half, too, for a fourth. And that will put me at 20k followers which is great. I just wanted the page to be a little more substantial in some ways. But as the people click like I am aware of how each person is a real person and I can pray for them all.

But I am not able to that well right now.  The mania is not happening but I do have more of a prayer feeling than when I don't run the ads.

Pals, possibly it would not have been good to be in the sunlight at the game. It might be that I have some issues just from being outside for that thirty minutes.

But I do not know. I think I don't feel that good because I did not eat much tonight.  And it will help to eat some ice cream. 

Does anyone have any thoughts about the past month or so?

I need to take my medicine soon but I will wait until I eat some food.

Does anyone have any thoughts about right now? The posts, the ads, the baseball game. I mean did I get left out on purpose because I had not taken my medicine? I have taken a lot of medicine lately. Probably that was not it but I guess we don't know.

And then later the interpretations like this is about Ravneet and I missed the hamburger event, the presentation, and the game.

Well, have a good day everyone.

Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am supposed to be at a Yankees game right now. I did want to go but I could not get on the crowded train.  If I had maybe tried the next car then that might have worked out. 

But there simply wasn't a place for me to stand without shoving people.  So I left. I felt free and I said I am sorry but I can't get on the train.

So that is sad and I already had a good time talking to Daniella on the other train.  I think they know I tried. I could have gotten to know the staff better. I might have sat next to Gloria.  I like all of them who were there. I hope they have a good time.  Daniella was meeting up with other programs also, so I think she has enough fun and challenge.

I could have had fun talking to Karla also. Possibly next to Karla was where I could have gotten on the train.  I just felt that I couldn't. I didn't see a place to stand. It wasn't packed like people actually pressing against each other but it might have been at the next stops.

I could have gotten a cotton candy with their voucher. And nachos and a drink. That would have been really great. I mean maybe if I had thought about the cotton candy then I could have gotten on the train.

My comedy coach says that maybe I can use this in a routine.

About not being able to get on the train to go to the yankees game.

Let's see if I can think of anything:  I was going to go to a yankees game but the train was too crowded. I would only get on a train that crowded if I was evacuating from a hurricane. And even then, I might stay home and turn on the TV for a yankees game.

Hmm that is pretty good.  A 60 dollar joke for sure.

Sorry Bridge. I might pay them back, honestly. I didn't think of that.  But I could do that for them.  Maybe order a pizza or two for the building sometime soon.

Daniella are you reading this? I am sorry I let you guys down but at least we had the train ride. It was really fun. Ravneet gave me a message and said I reminded her of Howard Roark.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I just hit some snafus while trying to pay for my facebook ads. Some payments were blocked but some weren't. And the worker who helped me was only interested in helping the payment go through and not solving the hacking security risks that could have been a problem.

But I think I am okay for now. I just reviewed my credit accounts this morning.  Now it is all maxed out and hopefully there will be no more charges until I get a deposit on the 31st.

So that is three days. I mean the accounts are tight but I think it is okay.  I think it was 60, 50, 100 on the right accounts.  So that is at the limit. I mean that could help me on judgement day. Like to be at the limit when there is an opportunity.

But my idea was to do a hundred for additional followers.  But my spend limit was decreased so I am worried that the reach numbers are also decreased.  But maybe it is okay. I mean I do not have 500 dollars a day to spend anyway. But the guy on the phone said it was good to get to 900.  But now I am not at 900 because three payments got blocked.  But facebook blocked them.  So I mean I do not know what to think, because there is also a conspiracy and program helping me survive, and they intervene sometimes.

And yet some of the interventions are opposite interventions so as to throw off the sharks.

And maybe that is a reminder to just be thankful for what I have.  Because I felt like one of my friends who showed support might have been targeting me instead to do a weird reverse plagiarism scandal of some kind.  But maybe people know what is original. 

But okay what is the real situation. The real situation is that I let myself get hacked so they cut my spend power in half.  But I don't hit spend power anyway, but someday it might matter to me.

And then what about that video.  It copies something I did and I forgave it but probably it was from a secret message from someone else who I kind of confessed to but wasn't that bad. And I meant well and was trying to give away another idea. So I mean the truth comes out.  But it is something to learn from theologically, that it might be because our hearts are gold from Jesus, that eventually the whole truth will come out from everyone with actual righteousness on the horizon. I mean the actual vs legal status question is real.  And if it turns out the legal status is because the actual is pending.  And the actual is pending because of Christ's magnetism. I mean that is a Catholic rendition of the protestant message.

So anyway.  I mean why am I back to that again. I thought we resolved that.  

But in terms of supernatural, what do I have going for me now? I have the mania when I boost the RB Tostada page, and the confirmation for trillions of blessings. I mean it makes me literally drop all competition with people for my personal goals.  It makes me be able to tolerate total career loss.  And usually I am not okay with what has been ruined.  But sometimes I think it is going to not be wasted.  So is my peace based on the fact that it won't be wasted, or the fact that other things matter more. I mean it could be both and be somewhat related to the Abraham and Isaac thing most of all. I mean if you try to find something in the bible about it.  Like what is it. I mean I do not know.  

 I had an interesting dream where I was trying to make a meme that advertised my books and said "Refried Bean, the dirty sock of American Literature." I didn't know exactly what to say for the first part of it. then I realized I was in the car with my dad, and he drove to a Mexican restaurant.  But he had dementia and was driving too fast. Then we parked in a far parking lot.  Then mom and Anne and Claire were there but Elise was not there I think because she was at college like in real life.  So then mom said she was 98 and dad was 96. Then my sister and Claire went to go to another table but mom wants her birthday money and said Claire had it.  Then I had gum in my teeth and could not get it out. I have that recurring issue in dreams sometimes.  Then w were driving home and passed all these worn down cool houses that would have been a good neighborhood in Greer but weren't.  And mom wanted to go get coffee somewhere but she had dementia and it would be an ordeal.  So it was basically a parents with dementia dream.

I mean that is sad and a lot of people have that helplessness problem.

So I wake up and in the dream I really wanted to get that meme done.  But now I wonder if it is that good. I mean maybe it is usable. I do not know. :in the dream, the circumstances were similar and I could see how people would question why I would count myself part of literature. so that is interesting.

I am sad about my sister's business. Hopefully something else will go well.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 6 pm. Soon I will go to a support group.

Should I see if there is a meeting for 540? Well I do not know.

Pals I forgot to say that this morning after facebook helped me with my account, I saw a rainbow in the sky.  And just two days ago I prayed for God to give people signs.  So that is interesting. I did not say signs and wonders but I have before.

Anyway my blob ad did well and got over a thousand link clicks.  That is very rare for me. I usually don't do well on link clicks.  So hopefully it translates to sales.  And if so, Ravneet might see 300 dollars in her account.

But I do not know. I should not entertain delusions too much.

I think I am still on the decline and my affairs are in order.  Today I talked to my sister about my company and nonprofit.  So I think she understands my vision for it and has leadership skills that I don't have.

I mean that would be a cool outcome for our years of suffering.

I feel back to normal now. Isn't that weird? I mean was the hacking part of the supernatural status? Well I do not know.  I mean does it all have to do with RB Tostada? Because I will probably do a post for forty dollars and increase the followers sometime soon.  Like after I get this next check and pay off cards.  But it is not a lot of money and I can't afford to do much.

It is weird that I feel normal again but I am glad to have a break.  I do not know what will happen if I boost that cross post.  It could be that I think of more memes.  It probably could have been rhymes but my writers group got messed up because of someone being mean to me.  And that is where the rhyme motivation came from. I need to call Z and see if he still wants to get lunch.

So anyway, that is all for now.  Thanks, everyone.