Hello everyone. It is 1:44 am. Time to take my medicine soon. 

Pals. Are people mad at me?

I am thinking of giving a speech where I talk about that mickey mouse shirt incident.

I just don't think that the pride parade was about me. But a million people, that is amazing.

Wow I have no regrets from not going.

I guess I am supposed to be sleeping. 

I might call Dr. Busch tomorrow and tell her I am getting attacked by an evil power sometimes.

I forgot about something to interpret.

Maybe I will pray for those pals who have surgery tomorrow.

Pals. I am trying to crack the code on a bible verse. It is the one about God humbling the people who exalt themself and exalting the people who humble themself and I think if I read it and try to apply it then whatever I do is a form of seeking the exaltation.  

So I think the trick is to put my mind on other people who I actually care about, in other countries and our own, and then just feel the sincere prayers form. And then the greed kicks in and I can really send in some requests. Which again is me telling everyone I am praying but for some reason that just became my lifestyle is to pray and say.

But I think part of why that is the life for some reason has to do with God already intervening in my hypocrisy schemes.  I think the mental illness addressed that and now I am a coke machine.

Ok we have discussed this before. I just feel like when I mention the torture it is some kind of attempt to get a cheap admiration of some kind. And yet it is really what I have to say in my normal work life that is already kind of just true in a certain way. Like I'm on the path, it is already established, and I just yap in a certain way. So I talk about whatever is true in my life.  And the torture is one of those subjects.

So I think this feeling of batting into the air, like when you miss the ball and swing and hit nothing, might be something contrived by the torture scenario itself.  Like it's y'all, not me.

But I kind of don't appreciate this whole thing where people insist that I should have chosen certain christian behavior that I chose not to invest in for a reason. I had another project I was working on and had to choose my battles and chose wisely.  But everyone just wastes all that and questions why I am not doing whatever the conservative presbyterians wasted their time on.

I mean is that it? You wanted me to say that? So there is no positive crowd of beneficiaries but instead a small angry mob of elite rejectors? And that's it?

Anyway I had a good time on facebook this weekend. I wish I had gone to toastmasters. I did not realize it was yesterday. I need to make a calendar for myself.

Should I go downtown tomorrow? I need to check the weather.

I guess just keep walking and think of jokes and do the comedy.

 Hello everyone.  I left off the following post from my book and I kind of wish it was in there so who knows, there could be another eventual upload.  But I am happy with it for now.

I accidentally posted a photo without cropping it so people can see how dirty my computer is. Well that is too bad but it is okay.

Had an incident on the jokes page but I think I fixed it pretty well.

There is something else to say, which is that I am considering using AI to write a story about groundhogs.

I just feel like I can't write any more but still want to write about cute characters.  Maybe I can do a series of scenes. Hmm, maybe I will try that. Ok I can be strong and not use ai yet.

i felt the bad feeling last night and drove it away myself in a conversation. Then I felt it again today a little bit but now it is gone. I think I can read NYP notes if it comes back.

Gice.  the computer in the photo. I mean I could crop and edit.

 Pals, I wish I could have gone to Xu Xi's party. She certainly made the invite available. But I forgot to RSVP and inquire. However I think I would not have done well because of pride crowds.

I think my health post is okay. I did not know if I should post or not but eventually I felt like it was time for an update. And I think the conspiracy agrees.  And I also truly believe that on any of these visits, it could be the time when I am not okay.  But I still do think it is when I am 53. So I say that. 

It's not a big deal. This is a time for most of my generation where we lose our parents and for some people, bad things happen and they themselves are gone soon. And I am one of those people.  And it could have happened much sooner and did for some people.

Wow that is so sad.

But at the same time, there are things I am tired of and people are tired of some of my stuff but that is because they were also harmed by people hurting me.

Ravneet is not sad about my post.  She already knows and is having a good time as part of the conspiracy.

Do you gice like my jokes that are posting? I kind of want to boost the gambling insurance joke.  But I do not know if I will. I don't know if people will get it or not.

I just got a secret message that some people know something that they are pretending not to know.

That is hilarious. I mean think of the jokes. Like on pride day, coming out as Bobby Hurley.

 Pals, I am going to try to go to a mensa meeting. It is not that easy. I am going to mostly listen today.

I wanted to take a walk. I think I could have. Now it is hot and going to rain soon.

What should I eat for lunch.  possibly make crescent rolls. With strawberry jam and butter.

Pals, the hospital notes. Kind of interesting.  Not really a game.  Like I did not even pay attention to the vitals until I saw that my blood pressure was too high.  I think it is back to normal now.

I mean kind of disturbing when you can't breathe correctly.  But it was anxiety.

I mean that felt real like it wasn't planned by the conspiracy.

I feel like Montefiore just got credit for all the medical care.  

But that was pretty crazy what they did for me. 

 Gice I really love hospital people but most of all I like my girlfriend named Ravneet. We have a very fun life and there is something kind of funny that I just remembered. But anyway I am boosting some videos on instagram. I hope the videos are cute enough. I had a hard time deciding which rendition to do for the factory video and the mouse to me is almost perfect but only shows the profile of the mouse.  But that is okay.  They are just 6 second videos. 

What about the jokes for the jokes page.  The jelly beans and the banker novel.  Ok I think I will boost that too. I mean I just feel how I am absolutely doing nothing else today. Should I take a walk? I thought it was raining.  I mean maybe I should take a walk.

Well, have a nice day everyone.

 Pals, it has been a while since a video boost. I think it is good to see how it goes with the new ai notice. I don't really mind it but think for cartoons the process shouldn't matter that much. The media elites have used advanced software for decades and the general public might have been impressed more than we will be now that we have some software.

Anyway I think my videos are cute but i think what is missing from the mouse video is the front view but it is still really cute. And the blob factory is not perfect but still to me cute enough.

Different from a checkerboard theme. I mean that one where the blob is on the boogie board to me is one of the absolute cutest ever. I might boost it again, frankly. I mean I could just boost it again right now.

Anyway I don't feel an urgent need to boost anything from the jokes page. But the novel post might be something I boost soon.  And the jelly beans. I mean maybe I will and round out this total.  For about five mil.  I mean to me I see myself as still ten mil away from 200 mil. However if you count all the likes and shares, etc, it is already up there. And yet why not go by my other estimate.

I think I wont reboost that blob on the water but it is so cute. It is my favorite of the videos. Does anyone have any opinions. I mean looking at my old jokes makes me realize what a blessing that was.  And I think that was my smaller numbers but it wasn't. It was very good with people really getting the jokes.

I mean I have a career, I just forget sometimes. The conspiracy feels that we really need to suggest that it is not about the money. Hmm I just question some things because there is such thing as providing for yourself and I did do the best I could.  So again I question obscuring the true path.

But anyway I am thinking boost two jokes. I mean for some reason, I feel like going for the cool mil on the videos. Are these videos cute enough. I think they are. What about that yellow and green guy.  And the dust blobs. I mean maybe the dust blobs I could add soon. I mean hmm maybe so. I mean maybe do that now. I think I should.  I mean I do not know. Maybe save them for later. I mean it is nice having some possibles to add another time.