Well everyone, it is time to take my medicine. But I just want to say that there is a weird advertisement story on the fox news website. It is about pop-tarts mascot and it is a made up story as if there was a mascot fight at a bowl game but it is an ad for pop tarts.  It is so weird and bad, with so much horrible news, to have a fake pop tarts news story mixed in. I mean it is ridiculous. It is disrespectful in a certain way. And then the fact that universities are part of it because it was based on a bowl game that the advertisers sponsored.

How weird. It is a weird society. Will things turn around, I do not know. I feel targeted by cops in my neighborhood like I have to worry about randomly being arrested if I take a walk.  

But hopefully I am okay. At housing they are not torturing me anymore unless there is something I don't know that is going to happen to me. 

Well, that is all. There was a weird SNL skit.  But there are a lot of funny ones. I am watching them on youtube and some have really made me laugh.

Well, have a great day everyone.

Hello everyone, this is the cover art for one of my new books. I finally figured out that I should not do so many squares.  Some people at the hospital secretly told me that.  Wow it took me a while to figure that out and I have twenty titles that use a square photo. So that is too bad but I think over all it is still okay.

I was strong and added another page of names for acknowledgements but thought I had thanked Choco the Macho Chihuahua and didn't in any book. So that is sad because his mom had a tough time this season wit health. So maybe I will add another page. But it will take a few days.  I feel like it doesn't mean much to people and then after I publish, I realize that it does to some people.

I might watch some more SNL videos and have seen three funny ones recently.  So that is cool. I am hoping to do sketch comedy in heaven. It will be a different medium for me. 

Today I slept through daylight and hopefully I can eventually get back on schedule. I think one strategy would be to try to miss a whole night, start going to sleep at 9 am, then 10, then the afternoon, and lose a night of sleep in the process.  But I do not know if that is the way to fix it.

I miss Ravneet and did not hear from her as much today. I think it was because she knew I was working on my book project.  I actually had not planned to do the trio book today but probably the conspiracy knew I would.  I am happy with the books and I think they are cool.  Should the emails have been formatted, well I don't know. I think it is okay.

Have a good day everyone. I guess I will watch some skits on youtube and then read the news for a while.

 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is midnight before Sunday, Dec 28. I just uploaded two books and am at a magic number of 112. I think that is all for now. I kind of churned out these recent thin books really fast but I think they are meaningful and interesting. I would wonder if people disagree with that.  I don't think this book is the particular zinger, but it is nice.  And the cover is cool. I took some time on it instead of just slapping a square photo on a page. I think maybe I did that too much but maybe it is okay.

So anyway, these books had medical notes that were interesting, and a hospitalization that backed up abuse claims.  So that is quite something. Are all these books secretly selling? Well I do not know.

I think they will though, and for some reason I was a writer and author in my time.  And that is a blessing that I am thankful for.  But wow I have some faults and foibles on display. But maybe there are reasons for that. I mean maybe it will all help teens in some way.

I think I will have a tarnished reputation in various ways but God already showed me that and I accept it. That was what I saw when I saw that bright white slate like a mountain.  There was a fine dust on it like the color of refried beans. That was what I saw towards the end of the vision.

So anyway, I do not know who I left out. I think Anli Liu is okay and did not need to be listed. She did not have notes for me to use but did refer me to Dr. Vaurio.

And I do think I forgot people at NYP, possibly including some major mega people, but I did not see the right notes from Dr. Sacco. I thought I would include that time I had the alternating silence. But I think it was not listed.  

So will I do a revisit, who knows. I mean who knows and at this point hasn't it all kind of I don't know just faded in its power. I think it has. The only thing I can think is that the books are already selling.

But it doesn't seem like they are.  But it is hard to believe I got no views on this poem after 500 last time I did that.  I just don't understand. I mean we don't all need to be heartbroken all the time. We are all the same people who were here during the nice years, too.

But anyway a lot of people are missing because of grief.

So anyway, I hope everyone is okay. I decided to add an acknowledgement page. It is a page of raffle winners. I did not list all the people I follow.  Did I list BBT in full name on another book? I feel like I did and this time said her nick name. I mean that is a real nickname.

So anyway how is everyone doing.  Are people mad at me? There was a serious swindle and while I ahve recovered a lot, I don't think I should be criticized for acknowledging it sometimes.

Anyway thanks everyone for your patience. I really believe that when we get to the blue yonder, I will have received my reward already. So I am trying to really make the most of it and I thank everyone for your patience.

Well, that is all for now. I will check the other facebook posts. I am glad I spent what I spent this season and ran ads. It helped me a lot, and hopefully while I get the therapy, I will be able to not spend and to instead purchase some more copies of books to give away.

Well, that is all. Do you guys like my books. I think some people will think I am a hypocrit for saying medicare for all but most people should realize that I suffered under insurance pain and have every right to repeat the thing that I feel was the real solution, even if it is too late.

Okay that is all. I might write again. Maybe it is an addiction, or maybe it is my main socializing.

 wow here is a funny saturday night live skit:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGst0SfUm3U

i just read the news and it was worse than I expected. Trump is sending immigrants to an island and paying the hosts 8 million dollars and the people will probably be treated like slaves.  And for that money we could have had a good immigration provision for people here. I just want some things to be positive, like maybe something good happens from all that christianity which wasn't a mistake. Some stuff was a mistake, but some stuff wasn't. And I thought maybe there could be some good.  But then you read stuff where there is this wacko just doing stuff for shock value when there are solutions that work but can't be used because of political gridlock.  Well, who knows. I really don't. And people can call me a complacent white moderate for not knowing, but I really don't know.  Bussing in terrorists also was really a shame. And alienating regular nice people with racism and harassment.

Well, that is all for now. I might share some of these SNL videos. I guess people don't want to watch the stuff on my page but to me it is good stuff. I mean why is my page starved from likes on some posts. I think it is weird to pay 20 dollars to boost other people's media.  But I would consider it if it did reach my friends. As for this blog post, I'm just going to click share.  I don't think anyone needs my commentary about the news. But I actually might have a perspective that is valuable from being so lost politically. It means I might not be trying to prove I was right four years ago or something and can just say a real opinion.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Saturday, Dec 27, at 12:33 am.  Really I just finished friday, the day after christmas. Wow I felt so much better today. I am thankful for that. Some emails got sorted out, I mailed the lego package to my sister, I mailed a great christmas card to a friend, I walked three walks, I got some hamburgers and calzones for the snow storm, and another box of chocolates, and I heard back from Ravneet, who said she had a tough day yesterday, too. I mean I do not know what she was doing, because I did not hear from her on my phone. I mean why is that, but it was nice today.

A lot of people are suffering right now.  Grief and loss, divorce, social torture, loneliness, financial problems, stress, health stuff, and of course the politics and safety problems and bad news every day.

I had a few prayer sessions after a very slow month where I could not keep up well.  I think I have made my choice, though, for a prayer style, and I just ask for trillions of things instead of putting more thought into it.  

I think for most of the 80s children, give or take about thirty years in both directions, judgement day is going to be a lot like halloween where people excitedly sort out their candy and get similar varieties, with a few whole candy bars and sodas for some people.  And funnily, one of the less popular results was always "Mary Janes."  And I think we will also have some unfortunate judgements on that theme in heaven, but it could be comedy by then. I just really do think that most people are going to get some good rewards, and God set us up for cool stuff. I mean just think of the toys and candy he gave us in our childhood, and then the computers, and social media, and now AI. Some of it has gone bad, but often that means someone is getting a reward for their endurance.  

So anyway, I also have this theory that both victories from the political sides have their virtues.  But I won't get into it right now. That reminds me to check the news. 

Well, have a good day everyone, soon I will take my medicine. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am ready for inspection which is in 30 minutes. After that I will try to go buy milk.  But probably they are out of milk. But I could maybe buy ice cream or something, which I use for coffee when I am out of milk. I have enough water and sprite for the storm. I hope our building stays heated. It is going to be a big snow storm.  They say it will be the most storm in years, but we actually haven't had any huge snows in a while, so I think it will be okay for me. 

Do I have enough other food. Yes, I have some soups, some chicken to cook, some cereal, and honestly not a lot but it will be fine.

Gice I had to email earlier while feeling tired and not as peaceful as possible. But I think it is okay. I simply explained the scenario and I think they understand. I think maybe what will happen is that they use the updated synopsis and the paper copies of the book.  And they can take a quick look at the PDF to see if it is similar enough.

Ok gotta go.

Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Dec 26 at 3 am. I have inspection tomorrow and this happened last time that inspection was in the day time. I stayed up late to prepare but couldn't, so then I take my medicine late and it is harder to get up early to get it done then.

But really I don't have that much left to do.  Dishes, trash, table, make bed, clothes in bathroom, counter.

That actually is most of it still left to do but I did take out some trash and put the dishes in the sink.

What do you guys think about Christmas. I felt kind of depressed. I think I should be honest with myself that I do feel depressed sometimes and holidays are hard on me.

I think I should just do the best I can. Maybe allow an hour for cleanup tomorrow so get up at 11. That is 8 hours of sleep if I took my medicine now.  But I only need five hours of sleep.  So I still have three more hours left to maybe chip away at chores.

I think I will order some more joke books and try to do better about giving them away with the creature comfort books.  

Well, that is all. I feel something missing. Some people missing. But live and learn, ups and downs, pros and cons. I think some people think I think inappropriate thoughts all night but I don't. 

Do you gice like this shirt that I washed. I think I will wear it with longsleeves sometimes.

Tomorrow I need to take my friend's christmas card to the post office but it is going to be cold I think and snow at night. I should check the weather.

Well have a great day everyone.