Gice I don’t know why I always say when I pray. I know you are not supposed to. But I always just think people should know that I asked for stuff and then God did it. I literally asked for popularity for people and look what he did. What do we want. Popularity. And we got it!

Yay everyone, just think of our houses in heaven how each others names will be carved in the bricks. It will be great.

But I am sorry I yap about good deeds but that is my participation so maybe other people have something to answer for themself.

 I mean you have to hand it to Jesus Christ on some things because the gay or not gay thing is a theology issue and I always questioned why it was political and the theology was missing from the debate but now what you have is an international discussion and what it is going to come down to is that the atonement is the point, not the gender choices.  So I think you have to see that as one of God's strategies to help all his people and future people.  Like it is a clever outreach plan that also humbles a very high achieving society of technology people and entertainers.  

Also I was thinking about how as much as people became semi famous and public, most of the amazing phenomenons were driven by multitudes of ordinary people using things like Microsoft word, smartphones, and other things that reached everyone.  So people could make a difference while still being anonymous in humble ways.  In fact, it almost becomes a celebrity level show to maintain the every day life of a normal person in our reality show culture.  Also, something funny for me personally is how often I prayed for people's dreams to come true and a lot of people must have wanted media attention.

I mean that is really comical.  But anyway I think liberalism and evangelicalism were both successful movements, and obviously the black showing was good too.  The immigrants also did amazing things, from rich to poor, and doesn't it seem like all of those categories are now being targeted somehow, by each other or by outside oppressors? I mean I do not know, it is kind of weird. I just don't appreciate how everyone was like, this is it, and then stuff happened, and now we are in the ruins, and I kind of got left out.  But I have had my fun time with my pals from India and other countries, and yeah, I am happy with that. I am happy that it was that for me, like that was it and we had a good time.  I did pray for all those people for a long time and I mostly prayed that they would get food. 

So hopefully social media will reach China and everyone will have helped a little bit with the mission work that was engined by many of their people who came here. I mean that is right in a way. 

Anyway some people say don't say it but wow that is some interesting hypocrisy, the thought and speech police, who got proud of certain things, and then party's over. Well, that is all, have a good day everyone.

Pals, what do you think about the video stall right now?  I think it is okay. I think those videos aren't that important. I mean maybe I am even wrong to switch to videos.  But it would be fun to make some new videos. Maybe that is what I should be doing right now.  But I think if I make some videos then I will want to send them around and I can't. 

Does anyone have any opinions about that?  I think I can't get a sponsor and that is why there are missing book sales is so I can maintain housing.  I just think it is wasteful.  I mean I have felt that about the whole strategy up here to keep me disabled. Like I could have been a champion with a salary.  But people are saying no I could not have. That something would cost it all at some point so we had to plan for that.  And they felt like I was tormented and could not make it worse.  But I just feel like you don't waste a writing career over that.  

Anyway, it is starting to be light outside. Maybe I will make a sherbet shake and go sit on that bench.  I guess that is what I will do. 

I want to maybe share this blog on facebook sometime but honestly it doesn't have really good posts that are like I don't know objective, like in that zone of quality that is outside personal yapping.

Well, that is all. I wonder if people have gotten my recent book mailings. I hope so. Are you guys reading this? Have a great summer! 

 Ok the other thing is that when I think of what is missing, love and money, I think of something else from another category, which is church, like there is family, work, and church.  And when I think of that other thing I think it is "status." that is the word that came to mind.  Probably that is off in some way and yet I really was thinking that was it, like if I find it through what is missing.  And I think it is interesting that the facebook early posts were framed that way. Like that is the blessing God provided for us. 

Anyway inspection went well today. I am on okay terms with the Bridge. Maybe Ravneet will visit me soon. Maybe I will get some book sales from somewhere. I just don't understand.

Someone did buy the book "Whole Bunch of Stupid Poems."  I just sent a few copies of that to Anne Parris. I know that will be some people's first choice based on title. I just don't understand why the books have to be wasted so much. Why? I genuinely don't understand. I did my part and that should already have been good enough.  Some things are believable and some things aren't.  And it is not really believable that there are no sales whatsoever and I am not a role model instead of menace to society. That is a weird waste that has no explanation. Well we have to let all 7 billion other people succeed first.

And I think when people say, well it is because I got a conspiracy, I think there is something to that, except as I have said before, it is cruel to create an audience and then withhold a normal success path on purpose.  That is a weird bullying abuse that should not be supported by anyone.  And yet everyone is going along with this failure narrative.  I don't understand.  And then the punchline.  Because of Islam. How absolutely ridiculous.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am thinking about the mean rejection from my society and was thinking about how people have sinned against God and God only so that means the wounds are his.  So what does that mean when you figure that out?  To me it seems like a very God-pleasing breakthrough but I will also say that I don’t have stigmata right now.  So maybe God sees through it a little bit. Maybe he knows I secretly just want the cash.

But those were my real thoughts and I feel like that has to be my best theology ever. I mean there is something to it, to feel insulted, and then to say actually it is Christ who is insulted. But I do not really feel a lot of supernatural feelings. Some slight peace but not that much of a verve or blush in that way like you know your mind is filled with the spirit in some way.

So that is interesting. I mean I am just sitting here.  And everyone knows my face did not look good for a few days but it is almost back to normal.

I felt the HS when I prepared the legal documents, so that is good.  And something else interesting is that the main section is from a hypergraphic seizure during the pandemic, so both law firms got something supernatural, but without exhausting me and sending me to the hospital.  So that is neat.  Also the dream with a whole bunch of church people and Ravneet in a realistic caregiving scenario.  So I do not know what it all means.  But I see a new batch of secret messages, and it is true that Clarence was the person who I concluded would be the person to go to that Trinity forum event with if it was me.  I mean last year.  So I see this mind shield that means something, and now I have to also think of all the match ups and their scenes, like which person for which fun thing.  But I can’t really figure it out that much. But Danielle was matched up with Princeton events.  So what is me and Ravneet which is actual? I think it might be the hospital but I don’t know.  Because we are not in person there.  So then I am like wait a minute, it is already the Bridge. So that is kind of weird.  I mean the Bridge does stuff a certain way and we have already established that I don’t believe in it. Except that when I first went to the Bridge I did like them at first sight in the lobby. I was like this is it. And yet it was an injustice from my school.  But still an exact match from a whole page of description. And yet there were zaps from losers.  What jerks sometimes, but some really nice people too who didn’t have to be nice.  And then the Indian restaurant.  The treat of the day.  And then Ravneet is my person.

Well, that is enough for a post, I guess. I think I will write more soon.

 Hello everyone, today is Saturday, June 6.  I slept really well from about 1 pm- midnight.  Isn't that crazy? I had dreams that included a lot of people and my girlfriend was driving me down a highway in my hometown only it was me driving and then the road turned grassy and there were horses and we stopped at this place that was going to take us to the hospital.

So that is interesting.  I am glad I got a lot of sleep.  Now it is 3 am and I am just typing and perusing facebook and my book page for amazon.  I feel frustrated by no book sales.  It really hurts me and I don't understand.  I don't understand my missing career and how I am left out of a lot of public discussions.

You all really hurt me and I will never get over it and in heaven I will have a completely different society.  

Anyway hopefully that mood will pass and I will find something else to do.  I actually have another book to publish. It is interesting. It is all the questionable sections of my book combined. But I kind of think I should wait until I hear back from the person I sent the documents to and yet I also think why not go ahead and post it.  I mean it just doesn't matter as far as I know.

I think I might read Poncheesy soon. 

Did anyone like my facebook meme about adding trump to tv shows through ai? I thought it was kind of funny.  But I mean who cares.

So I guess maybe publish that book soon.

 It is 12:07. I think Karla likes for me to go downstairs and ask her to do inspection but I think that is really not right and part of her new pattern that makes me have to worry about being tortured again.

If this is not good enough for her I am going to tell her I feel tortured again. I mean I might do a grievance today for that matter. And say it is already too late and I am living under emotional abuse again. People getting away with exactly as much as they can.

Some of this could be part of their power play on my comedy.  The way they always used to make me feel bad on that day before. To mess up my class and ruin anything good that happens.

I saw Clarence at the post office today. Possibly he is following me for legal reasons. It just feels like the racist network again.  Probably someone thinks my medicine is too low.  But I am happy on it. If people try to change it they will be sued.