Pals, I am going to try to go to a mensa meeting. It is not that easy. I am going to mostly listen today.

I wanted to take a walk. I think I could have. Now it is hot and going to rain soon.

What should I eat for lunch.  possibly make crescent rolls. With strawberry jam and butter.

Pals, the hospital notes. Kind of interesting.  Not really a game.  Like I did not even pay attention to the vitals until I saw that my blood pressure was too high.  I think it is back to normal now.

I mean kind of disturbing when you can't breathe correctly.  But it was anxiety.

I mean that felt real like it wasn't planned by the conspiracy.

I feel like Montefiore just got credit for all the medical care.  

But that was pretty crazy what they did for me. 

 Gice I really love hospital people but most of all I like my girlfriend named Ravneet. We have a very fun life and there is something kind of funny that I just remembered. But anyway I am boosting some videos on instagram. I hope the videos are cute enough. I had a hard time deciding which rendition to do for the factory video and the mouse to me is almost perfect but only shows the profile of the mouse.  But that is okay.  They are just 6 second videos. 

What about the jokes for the jokes page.  The jelly beans and the banker novel.  Ok I think I will boost that too. I mean I just feel how I am absolutely doing nothing else today. Should I take a walk? I thought it was raining.  I mean maybe I should take a walk.

Well, have a nice day everyone.

 Pals, it has been a while since a video boost. I think it is good to see how it goes with the new ai notice. I don't really mind it but think for cartoons the process shouldn't matter that much. The media elites have used advanced software for decades and the general public might have been impressed more than we will be now that we have some software.

Anyway I think my videos are cute but i think what is missing from the mouse video is the front view but it is still really cute. And the blob factory is not perfect but still to me cute enough.

Different from a checkerboard theme. I mean that one where the blob is on the boogie board to me is one of the absolute cutest ever. I might boost it again, frankly. I mean I could just boost it again right now.

Anyway I don't feel an urgent need to boost anything from the jokes page. But the novel post might be something I boost soon.  And the jelly beans. I mean maybe I will and round out this total.  For about five mil.  I mean to me I see myself as still ten mil away from 200 mil. However if you count all the likes and shares, etc, it is already up there. And yet why not go by my other estimate.

I think I wont reboost that blob on the water but it is so cute. It is my favorite of the videos. Does anyone have any opinions. I mean looking at my old jokes makes me realize what a blessing that was.  And I think that was my smaller numbers but it wasn't. It was very good with people really getting the jokes.

I mean I have a career, I just forget sometimes. The conspiracy feels that we really need to suggest that it is not about the money. Hmm I just question some things because there is such thing as providing for yourself and I did do the best I could.  So again I question obscuring the true path.

But anyway I am thinking boost two jokes. I mean for some reason, I feel like going for the cool mil on the videos. Are these videos cute enough. I think they are. What about that yellow and green guy.  And the dust blobs. I mean maybe the dust blobs I could add soon. I mean hmm maybe so. I mean maybe do that now. I think I should.  I mean I do not know. Maybe save them for later. I mean it is nice having some possibles to add another time.

 Gice the people who have let me have a seat on the subway are going to be at judgement day and I am going to be hugging their feet in front of all of humanity.  and just think of the other people like Daniella, Yara, Danielle, Karla, I mean that is all I will name, and people like that who did stuff for years to keep me alive.  I mean should I hug people's feet now on the subway, I don't think so. I think I should save it for when they really could be blessed by a reward. I mean I just can't believe when they save me a seat, especially near 42 street on that 6 train, and they are just standing there not sitting down. 

I mean you can't believe it. But that is not cool when I look at people already seated and they read my mind and know I just want them to leave the train. I mean that truly is the worst of my brattiness and sometimes I don't even mean it. It is compulsive.  And yet wow I always do sit down in a competitive way. I mean the comfort, and the food, I mean I just can't help it.

But anyway I hope people are going to all get some good stuff. I mean some people aren't doing right.

I like the trash can person and I think it is kind of cruel to do a trash can give away, like you can give but you can't forgive.  But maybe this is about the young people.  Like teaching them not to be a hooligan.

I mean maybe this is about the imaginary mice. But I like that Angie Baez person and I hope people give her a job soon, I mean I think those photos were cute and I am not saying I am interested in that way but I think it was not a bad fifteen minutes of fame.

And now a rent freeze.  Like don't take a trashcan but we can tell one million people they don't have to pay their lease.  Well guess what, I am in support of that, too.  New York is doing great. You can feel the blessing and the great weather. I hope everyone has a good pride weekend. I myself probably won't go downtown. I mean for me possibly Thai food or something but I need to save some money and feel better after this SSDI check. I mean there is not another bail out for months. So this is it. Getting those accounts back to normal.  And then one small facebook boost. 

Are you guys thinking not to go for the cool mils on the videos? Like maybe always 606060.  I kind of think that might be the humble thing. And to think of kids with budgets for social media.

Gice, all the parenting, the suffering people, I mean all I can do is pray. I tried to provide books. But it is just jokes and poems.  I wish people would read it all.

Gice it is a nice path.  Food, volunteering, walking, friends, creative writing, open mics.  Can you believe what the Wit's End kind of people did for me? I mean I can't believe it.  And think of all the charitable giving and has anything ever been better than when our slam team got some free meals? I mean to me that beats world vision. I will say it in front of the judgement day crowds. The multitudes. 

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, I went to sleep for a while. I missed the job talk group which is one of my favorite groups but I am happy for myself for getting sleep. It also meant missing a meal which I could eat now, a piece of stouffers french bread pizza, but I don't know.  Maybe I should miss the meal.  Earlier today I ate a brownie and caramel macchiato.

I am breathing better and realize that the weird feeling that sent me to the hospital was anxiety plus asthma plus a normal health dip.  I just didn't recognize it.

I liked the hospital people.  They might have rewarded me for exercising but I don't know.  I like that nurse named Laura.  She is a nice person and the PA and really all of them. It was very clean and not too crowded there.  They did not make me wear something I did not want to wear or anything close to that.

The hospital there always has trouble finding my vein for blood tests which drives me crazy but it was okay. I gave a book to the cool person named Natalie. 

Right now there is a high pitched noise in my apartment and I don't know what is causing it. Is it my refrigerator or something outside? I had a dream that we all got evacuated and now I wonder if it was real and they announced it on the intercom which no one can hear. 

I kind of think the noise is my refrigerator. It is not. It is in the hall from the elevator or something. It is not that loud. I think maybe I should make a grilled cheese sandwich.

Karla was really nice to me yesterday. I think it is a reward for walking.  She said inspection looked good.  I mean it kind of drives me crazy for them to use inspection to reward other stuff and not praise me any time I do inspection right.  Because to me that is the issue is that I can't do that at all and then do.

But I think mostly I am like you know what, this was God's plan, and for whatever reason, the things that drive me crazy about this housing were meant to be part of my life.

Today I told my therapist my delusions. I mean actually I have no idea what is true.  Because it seems like this is some kind of delusion puncture week and I should have congratulated my therapist on making it this far, like what, twelve years until finally all my delusions are proven wrong.  The literary status, the conspiracy, the health martyrdom, I mean all of it.  And yet that could be just a game is they taught me how to treat psychosis but all of my suspicions are real.  I mean I do not know.

But I think Ravneet is my person.  And I think when the hospital said that they think I am okay, I think they meant that they think I am a legitimate literary participant.  And I should be humble and have good behavior for their sake too.

I mean I do not know.  But it is cool living near them.  But I miss the stop and shop.

 Pals, I took an iron pill. Second one this week. I don't have fatigue that bad but I think the shortness of breath is from low iron.  So it is kind of a serious issue. But I am okay and this is a low point for it, but I hope the iron pills are enough and I kind of don't feel good sometimes.

But it is okay. I think people can notice my neck sometimes, too.  But that is also okay. I mean I think I have three years left and we are going to see some stuff.  And I am okay so far but at 92 percent this is not that bad.

I got a squishmallow mcdonald's toy that is themed from the world cup.  There were a lot of nice hospital people at McDonalds. It's not that easy working anywhere, is it guys. No, it's not, and the bronx is rough a lot, isn't it.  But NYC is cool and hopefully we will get through this bad presidency. 2.5 years left. ouch, that is a long time.

Do people like my review? Not that many people have seen it. I think it is good. It is just weird because the book is so good and heartwarming. Like it does have a surprising quality and yet the kirkus people said "underwhelming." I mean I guess maybe that is similar to saying the donut novel plot meanders.

So anyway, that was mostly a good experience and it was funny how they imitated my style in the review. I mean that is really funny.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just paid some bills. I think I should walk to Mcdonalds or something soon.  I feel yesterday's walk. I just need to walk walk walk every day. It will be okay.

Later I am going to a presentation. I hope the Kirkus people are not mad at me. .I think they are my friends.  But I might have overdone it with my last email.

I feel better from sleeping. I had a dream that was interesting. Today I need to clean my apartment some.  

I guess just recover from the last review. I think part of the feeling yesterday is when no facebook friends except one hit like. So I think that is from the conspiracy.  So I think I need to remember that all the conspiracy stuff is real.

That was so sweet yesterday when I said hit me and then the result was so sweet and did not torture me.

I think I am going to make some coffee right now instead of walking to McDonalds. But then I will probably walk there. I mean I feel how I could walk to go get coffee. But I just think I am going to drink some here now as a morning routine.

I am thankful that my mom helped me with those bills. She said she felt it was reasonable and it was reasonable. I really do have business expenses.  The website, lawyer, etc.  I have to register a few books as copyright. I think definitely library book, the imaginary mice, I mean honestly that could be all.

Gice my mice parents are so sweet. I mean all the mice ever, all the mice characters, and I have some mice and rabbits and groundhogs myself. I mean that is sweet, isn't it.

Gice the angst last night, that was rough but I am okay. It could have been worse but it did bother me, kind of suddenly, and then it was better and I fell asleep. But they did that on purpose.

Gice why did Dr. Talreja do that with the notes? I do not know.