Ok that is what I was going to say instead of admitting I had a problem thought was that the Facebook people who help me with my posts do a funny 666 joke with me sometimes where they make the numbers turn out to be 666. And they did that today and it was funny because it was more coded than usual.

Pretty funny. They know me pretty well and probably are amused by my spending foibles and range of quality. Kind of comical. If judgement day is a roast then I think it will be them.Kind of funny.

So okay. Gice the reason I had to write a lot was because of feelings of unease for a couple of days. But I really am okay now.

Gice there is real evil happening so I don’t mean to take things too lightly or be too dabbling in the wrong direction but stuff got on my mind.

So anyway I will check the numbers and then go charge my phone.

 Gice people think I should have just taken my medicine at 3 and been asleep so as not to lose everyone at the same time once again as usual.

But I think I am skipping meds and getting up early and it will be fine. Speaking of freedom, while I am away from the torturers in the Bronx.

Anyway ok pretty funny there are secret messages about the evil power feeling. I mean that was bothersome but I am okay.

so okay I think I will skip meds.

I think I will see how the videos are doing.

Do you Gice like my videos? It doesn’t bother me that there are better videos out there. I think this is a cool assortment that I did. A range and some could be cuter but still a good start.

well have a good day everyone.

 Ok probably I should have kept my mouth shut in the first place but I think I disagree with the cease and desist. And it is interesting because it was also a first amendment fail when people kept getting fired for saying bad things about CK. That is probably why the left isn’t going to let it go.

But what I am saying is that free speech is supposedly also a conservative value and yet here again it is not respected if it is the other side.

 Hello everyone, it is 3:25. Unfortunately I started thinking of the origin of my mom’s problems towards me and accidentally prayed to Satan. So that was mentally ill of me and I got through it and it only was a second of compulsive problems. You just wonder what evil is in the house if there has been a thirty year attack.

But my mom is a Baptist and Presbyterian and really we are fine and most of it was her disability. 

Anyway I mostly feel fine. I feel relief and a content feeling like when I do stuff that is meaningful to me.

I think I might not be able to do a video boost like this again for a while unless I get a good budget and new income of some kind. Otherwise I think I am going to spend the extra money on books to give away. Because I do not want to waste that work.

I just saw some cute wool mice videos that are much better than mine. But mine are cute too, and I think that is the main thing is to always go for the cuteness.

I am glad there are other videos of this style and I don’t feel jealous or competitive. I feel like part of a genre and I am happy about it. 

I mean this is how it could have been with my writing but people hurt me. But that might have been part of the NYU education effort, to mess with my psychology for teaching purposes. I mean honestly I have to find some sympathy for any kind of bad person because a lot of it does happen from things that are hurtful or unfair.

Speaking of which, what do I think about this new Erica Kirk situation where she got targeted online. Well I think I agree with her statement that it is really cruel and racist.

However if I am not mistaken she is a major conservative force in the Trump camp and I don’t mean one of his concentration camps. So I think on that basis the people who are fighting life and death to save the Mexicans felt that they had no reason to spare her. Also my guess is that it was probably scheduled for today because of the no kings protests and this is the online material. I think that is kind of mean. I’m just still in the middle and think that you can still have character during a social civil war.

 Gice I feel better now. I kind of think I have too many at one time but I am mostly okay with it because of how the reels work. I mean I see five skateboarding videos sometime or floods or something and all these videos are different. 

I want to boost the glitterbear video but I am waiting.

I think I will boost it after the pink spiral and blue bunny are done. It would have been good to do the mouse one at that time but I made my choice and I believe it is okay.

Gice also the happy easter meme but I feel that being the end of that. Do any of my India pals have any opinions?

Ok one person just told me I could boost the glitter bear if I want to. Hmm I just think maybe I should wait.

Thanks though. Ravneet is so proud of me.

Do you guys think I should take my medicine now?

I am thinking maybe at 4 am.

Or maybe skip.

I am not really sure. 

Well, ups and downs live and learn. I feel back to normal. I mean what was the problem? I just had that art feeling when there is not a good rendition.

Any thoughts about the nami walk post? I mean I don’t know but I just feel that it is good to do what I can.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Gice, pretty funny, I got a good glitter bear video. I mean I don’t know what the problem was yesterday. It feels back to normal. Gice I wish I could boost the glitter bear video but I am going to try to wait but the numbers are good again. It was slow for a while and drove me crazy but wow in just a few minutes there are 70k views. It could be partially because I chose the mixed goals. I mean that will be interesting to see how that affects the numbers.

I think it is okay that I have a lot of posts going. It is kind of like an intro blitz and then I can revisit.

But my instagram followers from before might be tired of it. But this is what I am doing right now. It is a good opportunity. I need to check that card or maybe pay some on the business credit card.

 Gice I feel fine, I feel normal, I just stay up late. And as I said before one issue is having my phone only and not the computer. So I scroll more and that also drops the mood some. But I am happy with my hobby and like all the videos. I mean I already said all that but it just goes on and on each time I type “cute mouse wearing clothes taking a glowing magic marble out of a bag.”

So anyway maybe I should be rereading some books from my shelf, I mean the ones I did.

Something I was thinking about earlier today was my intro on the revelationsaries book and I was maple and my sister magnolia and my dad mahogany and my mom Myrtle. And I don’t take that lightly because Myrtle is in the book of Isaiah and mom suffered and worked hard for our family. But she had a serious disorder and sinned against people too but I think there is a suffering forgiveness aspect too so I try to remember that. I mean it is very serious suffering to be compared with Myrtle in Isaiah. And even now I want to start analyzing it which is weird like always trying to make people understand her problem but it is beyond understanding. The incessant fussing and mental illness. Those are my two new phrases and that captures a lot of it. 

Anyway I am going to try to think about how much I need to explain it to people. Because in one way I do need to stand up to people who excuse it. But in another I could just decide to dismiss them back.

Gice I am thankful I got to do the school programs, it was really a blessing and it is people to pray for and they will get stuff.

Anyway I am also not ignoring the people who clicked like on these videos. As much as I am really going for views, the likes are nice of people too, to click on it. 

They are so sweet, I will send them gift baskets in heaven.

I just still question why I had to be tortured. I just don’t understand.