Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Jan 23. I just got home from going to 86th street to get my rent check. It went really well and I got some yummy food to take home, too. I basically stayed awake until this morning and skipped a dose of medicine. I feel good.  Later I will take the medicine and maybe go to sleep earlier than normal. I was glad to rest and think for a while. I felt better when I cracked the code and realized I should skip a dose of medicine.  So far there is no sign of torture from the housing people and I have the rent check to turn in any time.

People helped me figure out that I needed to go today. I mean I still have some time and could go get some food for the snow storm but I think I am okay. I have bacon and eggs for today, and I can eat rice and soup during the storm. And I have chicken I could thaw and cook. I could make peanut butter chicken. I think that is what I will do but I do not have honey but I can use sugar to sweeten it. 

I think it is good that people are taking this storm seriously. It is a sign of respect for God.

I wanted to get some sparkling grape juice but the store seemed too crowded. And I thought about staying at Panera for a while but decided to get home as soon as I could. I just feel safe inside my apartment and am kind of a hermit sometimes.

I could go to the post office in a while.  But it is not urgent. But I could mail Josh and Holly's books. I guess for now I will see if there are weather videos online.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, it is 1 am on Friday, Jan 23. Tomorrow I need to go to the bank at 86th street and get my check for rent.  I can do it. It won't be easy but I can do it. I think I won't pressure myself and I will try to leave at 1 pm. That will put me on a crowded train on the way back, but I really need to do this tomorrow. 

I mean should I wake up earlier and go at 11 am instead? It is just hard for me to do that but maybe I could. In fact, maybe that is what I will plan on.  So I will take my medicine at 3 am, go to sleep at 4 am, and wake up at 10 am.  I can do it. I will set my alarm.  It is not easy. But just like I did inspection, I can go get the check.  It is okay.

Wow, next week is going to be cold.  I hope people are okay in the south. The ice will last a long time after the storm.  I think the stores ran out of stuff.

My friend said that a student asked where they could get water, but I am wondering why they don't have clean water. I mean I don't have drinkable water here at my apartment, and I didn't at my last apartment in New York.  What happened to the civilization that had running water?

Anyway, I just made coffee. Should I drink any coffee, I do not know. I mean maybe just go to sleep soon. What if I took my medicine at 1:30.  But I think I will watch that video and stay up for a while. I can still get up to get the rent check. I can feel how it is possible tomorrow and wasn't possible today.

I wonder if there is a weather channel online.  I wonder if I should start watching TV. Maybe in my new life with Ravneet, I will watch TV.  Ravneet is asleep right now. I did not talk to her enough yesterday.

Well, does anyone have any thoughts? Do you gice think I messed up with the names on my book redo? I just felt like people did want that.  I mean am I wrong? It might be a mess.  I think I will watch some more of the video from the class I keep missing.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just made bacon and eggs and the bacon was some of the best ever.  I tried cutting it into smaller pieces this time and I really want to travel around the nation telling people to cut up their bacon first and it will be easier to cook.  Why don't people know that? I mean it makes such a difference. Anyway, the secret messages are saying that my sister is suffering. I have a message to send her but I don't want to text her at the wrong time.  Probably they are all going to be okay.

There is an ice storm. I hope that the places keep power on for everyone, or maybe some firewood. 

Something weird is that I ate powdered donuts and had it on my face and it was like a reference to VC Andrews books but at a Focus on the Family event.  So that is interesting to me and makes me consider God's story shield that defeats Satan.  I mean what if like in the book of Job where Satan asks to torture Job, what if God lets him have access to the main typewriter sometimes. I mean wow we just have to trust God and do the best we can and look out for each other.

What else should I be doing right now. I think I will watch those videos from Tripp. I still have half of that last one to watch.  And then maybe listen to the song I pledge allegiance to the lamb. It is about my dad.

So that is interesting. What else should I be doing. I just am scared about this storm hitting everyone. I just hope people are okay. My friend who is a teacher said that one of her students called her and needed to know how to get some water. I mean there is so much suffering out there. But we can get through it, everyone. I think an urgent priority is citizenship for the mexicans. To just admit that ICE is a fail and get them to deliver I.D. cards instead.

Well, that is all, everyone, have a good day. Thanks for the conspiracy. I hope there was stuff in it for other people, too, and heaven will be better for all of us.

This is the final word on gay and pray.

 Ok everyone. I just had inspection and it went well.  Karla was nice to me. Also my friend's kid got a car for his birthday. He had heart surgery as a child and I am happy that this happened in his life.

I attended a meeting tonight with one of my writing groups and there was a writer who was a former marine.  And I think one of the ideas is that my pet guinea pigs were in the armed forces.  Dave was a marine, Fred was in the air force, and I don't know if Roger was in the army or navy but I think it was the army. I am reminded to try to support toys for tots.

This brings us to the topic of Focus on the Family, which is an affiliation of that speaker.  I decided to go ahead and feel love towards those people even though I think they did not do right. I think that the church really needed them to be right about being gay and they clung to some wrongness.  And I have even had a hard time seeing why God allowed that in their lives.  Because it is kind of sad. But I think they possibly indulged in an "us and them" temptation.  The love feeling of praying for the lost really became something they could not turn down well enough to face the reality that some of the sinners out there were saints.

To get biblical about it, I will say that I believe that makes them the "homosexual offenders" that Paul references in his letters. The people who chose to please their constituents instead of living according to the truth that some people really are gay. In doing so, they ended up being more gay.  They are forcing the false hetero relationships, and that is in itself, an abomination.

I think that is enough to say about it.  This is the final word.  If people can't see the truth in this, then, well, probably other people will reach them and it will be fine.  I do still defend the religious liberty of the nice Focus on the Family people. I liked their radio show when I was depressed and I think they care about people with family problems, which is a deeper allegiance for me, not to mention the Christianity.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, Jan 22. I just did some chores. I put the clothes in the cart, swept and mopped the floor, did most of the dishes, took out the trash, and actually that is all so far. I have thirty minutes left until my meeting and I need to make the bed, wash the last dishes, and wipe the counter. And do the sink. And I think that is enough.  The sink is not that easy, but I can put the medicine in a bag and put it under the counter. But if the sink leaked it would be ruined. So maybe put it somewhere else.

I might eat a pop tart soon and watch a video on youtube. It is a video of the all recipes person cooking casseroles.  I watched some more SNL and it was fun. I think I will send Ravneet a message soon.

Someone online just told me something is not a game.  Well I am kind of tired of people telling me it is not a game if I have a wrong facial expression but it is a game if I get tortured for twelve years after a trial should have already happened. So we will see what is a game and not a game on Judgement Day.

 Hello everyone. I am not able to cook the bacon and eggs yet. I will do that at about 11 pm. So now the goal is to start doing chores for inspection. I can do it. First, the clothes in the cart. Then take out trash. Then mop the floor and do dishes. Then make the bed. Then tidy the clutter. Then clean the sink. That is enough. I could wait an hour and start but I will get some done as soon as I can.

Are people mad at me. We do not know. Soon I will mail books to Holly and Joshua. Some say, hey, you could have done that today. Well no I couldn't have. 

Gice I will pray for all the people and animals in the cold.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I am doing okay. I can see my tasks set before me and believe that I can get through it. I could not go downtown for a check today but I have enough time next week hopefully. Inspection is not until 8 pm and I believe I can get all the chores done.  I wasted some pizza crusts but ate the pizza and shared one piece. I am probably successfully going to cook bacon and eggs and be okay with that. I will probably do that at 4 pm.  I could start doing chores at 6 and have enough time.

For the extra chore I will clear the sink of clutter in the bathroom.  Other than that, I need to pick up clothes, make the bed, do dishes, and mop the floor.  It will be okay.

My skin problems are okay and will be gone in about a day. That is a problem but it is still because of the latuda which maybe I won't be on if my career suddenly recovers.

I need to mail books to people and make sure that it does not seem like a Valentine's Day present.

Honestly I have to say that this list is still not that easy but I am in a safe range of being okay. 

I should take a walk but I might not be able to today.

Well, that is all. Have a good day.