Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Jan 9. I just walked to the post office. My order that was scheduled for today was not there, but a few books had arrived from another order. I am prepping to be able to continue giving away books this year. I felt that I did not invest enough into the book business last year, though maybe some of it was self control.

When I went to Walgreens for some milk, I got some chocolates from a cashier who has now sold me 3 or 4 boxes of chocolates. She is nice and I do not know if she notices how much chocolate that is for one person.  I am reminded of a highlight of the christmas season which was getting the whitman's chocolate and feeling like it was a lot of empty packaging but then seeing that there was another whole layer of chocolates.  So that was fun.  I mean I can translate that into a blessing to pray for people.

What else from today: I saw a cute dog and I was thinking about how I would forgive those people if the dog attacked me.  But I can't stand it that the house repair people are going too slow for my mom.  And that is why I am going to be on a Judgement Day rewards committee.  Because I am aware of how some kinds of absolute martyrdom are tolerable to people while every day slights are almost unforgivable offenses.  Though I will say that sometimes when there are excessive amounts of those slights, it is a sign of deliberate bullying and mistreatment.

Hmm I wonder what would happen if I called APS about the housing repair people. I bet they would not expect that. They would expect a better business bureau report but then get busted for elder abuse.  

Well that is on the table now.  I will try to write a good essay about it and put their name in it for all posterity. And I just now discovered the angle that makes it interesting. Wow, God does take care of us.

Ok I just gave Bella a sprite. Possibly she needed another one for Maureen.

Have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 2 am on Wednesday. Tuesday was a good and full day. I felt blessed and got a lot done. I am running ads on facebook and feel some spiritual feelings from it.  Most of it is good but the video feelings are a challenge.  It requires constant prayer I think and I don't know if I can maintain that for three days. 

I think I will be okay though.  I am waiting to find out if my new threefer book will be approved. It is a cute book and I feel happy about it.  They might think something is amiss because I did not try to publish the third book by itself, but for one thing, my internet got used up and is slow now, and for another thing, I want to improve some of the images.  So I hope they like it.  I kind of want to call customer service and ask them to look at it and tell me if they like it.

I ate some macaroni and cheese and I hope it does not aggravate my gallbladder. My treadmill goals aren't happening but I have taken a walk every day for about a month, maybe even a month and a half.

So okay. I talked to Ravneet a little bit today and it was fun. I hope she is doing okay. Her life seems hard to me but I really don't know what she does every single day.

I think I should take my medicine soon. I think I have been taking it at about 2 am very consistently for about a month. I think that is okay although it would be better if I took it at 11.  This makes me more of an internet junkie, too. But my activities are positive, everyone, so no need to suspect me of certain things.

Anyway I felt like writing this post but didn't really have much to say. But I think my other recent posts were somewhat interesting.

Well, that is all for now.  Have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just went to mail a package and pick up some books I ordered. It was one of my main orders. It is horizon cows and more floopydoos. I figured out that giving the two books together is a nice gift. I think some people will think they got a lesser gift but really I mean it well.

I also got the best fried chicken deal that I have ever gotten at Popeyes.  Just in terms of the cost and value and it hitting the spot.  But I made a mistake to not go give a piece to my friend who was sitting on a bench a quarter of a mile away. It felt too far but I should have done that. I am sorry about that, and maybe some other time if I pass that guy in his usual spot then I will buy him his own chicken meal.

So anyway, my posts are doing well and I think one post is gong to hit a million people. It will be my most far reaching post compared to the cost, and I am thankful for the suffering behind the post which was from someone I was thinking of what I would tell them and then I wrote the post. That wording was not good of that sentence. It is not really one of my resolutions so far this year to improve my grammar habits etc.

Anyway I finished another three part ai book and I think it is really cute. I think people will like it.  There is an issue with part of it which is that I did not move the images far enough down the page so they are too high up, but at least it is consistent within that section.

I still might upload the thin book format of the rabbits book, but I am going to wait until I feel bored.

Have I been working hard? I think this is my job.  A children's book writer. It counts as substantial gainful activity so I can't have any cash.

I hope Ravneet is secretly getting book sales but to my knowledge it is zero.

But this last book is cool. I will try to order some copies.  I think I will order two class sets of thin books, and some of these lower quality threefer books.  They are all really cool in some way.  Blobtastic. Triple Play, Creature Comfort, and Play Day.  Uh Oh I just realized that I repeated the word "Play." Well that is okay. I did the best I could. The books are cool.  There are only four which means maybe there will be a fifth one at some point but I think I have done enough for now.

Well, that is all. Have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Monday, January 5. I went to my first group therapy group tonight at NYU. It was really fun and I met cool people. Hopefully I can stay in the group for a long time and get a refill if the money runs out.

I am also running some posts on my art and jokes page. That page is not as strong as my other page but I like the memes I am running.  Weirdly, I doubted the pink paint splash meme a little bit even though there is nothing to it.  It is a paint splash and says God loves you.  So hopefully that will be fine.  Facebook set the comments low so I am not getting as many comments to answer.  And I should have said stuff to some people instead of just clicking like.  So I actually have some reservations about how I am doing so far with this round of boosts.  The other issue is that a meme I really liked has a Jesus that looks maybe too much like a white guy.  The prompt I used said "cute jesus" and that is what it generated. And it looked okay to me. It is kind of weird if that is the issue because really the meme seemed a little prophetic and was a different risk than normal. Anyway, I think it is okay and I am reacting to the feeling of a few trolls.

I just ate some cheesy rice and it was very yummy.  Then I ate a piece of chocolate and it was only okay.

What is on my to do list for tomorrow? Probably go to the post office. I hope my books get there as ordered.  I think after I changed the wording of the address on the account it has gotten held up a little at the post office a few times. But that might not be it but I hope that is okay because I have two large orders that I am waiting for.

So anyway, the other facebook post is going well but I do not know if there are any book sales. I will do some videos when the books I ordered get here.

I do not know how I feel about the videos.  Facebook made the numbers better for that because they are competing with Tik Tok.  But I think that is their problem is that they are competing too much and not facilitating friendship like they used to.  But all it would take is a little leadership and an adjustment to alogrithms and things might instantly be better one day.

Well, that is all. I will write again in a while after I see how these posts do.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Jan 4.  I was going to go play games downtown today but stayed up until 3:30 working on a new book. It is a book of glitter bears in sparkling tunnels.

Some of the bears kind of look cheap in the images but I think it is okay. I freaked out about copyright last night but then saw that my original impression was correct.  A glittery bear is a generic toy already common in the culture and it is okay to name my book what it is.  There is an official product called a glitter bear but the main company had to call them squeezy bears.  So I think it is okay.

If it is not I will change it someday to sparkle bears. Not going to the games thing put me in a low mood and I feel kind of bad about myself. But I am going to walk to Walgreens soon to buy envelopes and that will be good.  I need to leave in about five minutes.

Ravneet sent me some very fun messages to cheer me up and it worked. I am monitoring myself for internet addiction but I believe I am okay. I shared some more posts to India and I believe they liked the posts and it was positive. I can't always hit like on every comment because my computer heats up.

Well, that is all, I hope you all have a great day.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just made some strawberry toaster pastries in the oven.  That only took me about five years to figure out it was possible. It was yummy and I will share with neighbors if they knock on my door at the right time.

I woke up at 2 pm today. My sleep schedule is off. I do not think I will be going to the board game meetup tomorrow. I think they were thoughtful and made it possible for me but I think I am not able to. I will think about it some more and I will also try to register my metro card properly. It might not be worth it to do the discounted rate. 

I am so thankful that I did not lose my insurance. I feel that some case management people made me have to worry about it instead of letting me have the mental reward from turning in my paperwork on time.  That is a value and practice I disagree with in the social work field.  but don't take it from me.  You will hear it in a lecture from Jesus Christ himself in front of all of humanity one day. And you will be wailing in shame.  

My skin is better today but not perfect. But much more normal, so that is about time.  I think that Karla made me feel bad because it is time to go to the doctor's appointment and he might adjust medicine. So they are letting me know they will send me to the hospital through their normal abusive means if I get manic.  I do not respect that practice but it helps me prevent anger if I try to see it as benevolent towards me, or at least intended that way.

I think I will share my escalation article on this blog, maybe with names and maybe not.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. What do you guys think of my new poem. I think it was a rather ugly thing to say.  But I think it is the thing, like I think I hit on all of it and needed to write it down on my blog.  So that is that. I need to not look back too much and say what happened because good things did happen and I think the idea was that I would be a children's book writer for teens. And it worked and things will be okay.

So block the triggers is the goal, and I should realize that watching snl might have made the algorithms start a bad feed. 

Anyway I just ate some popcorn and coke.  It was great. No one expected me to drink that coke in the back of the fridge but it is awesome.

I found out that I am not losing insurance, so that is good news.  And my SSDI is improved some.

I am a little depressed about my gift giving not going well this christmas.  What is the meaning of that?  I just don't understand.  My card did not get to my friend, I think I saw my unmailed package for someone else still at the post office today, the present for one my my nieces was late, and I am behind on three book mailings.  So that is weird, I guess it is my schedule and medicine problems.

My skin is still not doing well but it could be worse. But this has been like two weeks now and usually it is only a few days of a real issue. 

Soon I will get some books in and start giving them away again.  

Well I am using up my internet service and need to save ten percent for monday.

Have a good day everyone, live and learn, ups and downs, pros and cons.