Hello everyone. This is Refried. My mom is slamming doors right now because I threw away a Starbucks cup with a little bit left in it. It is because they gave me a grande because I asked for more milk.  I will need to explain that to my mom. I have to explain things about most things that I do but she has been better for this trip so I am not going to just list every little thing which is the whole point I am trying to say. I mean every single little thing is questioned or defended.

I need to throw away some more trash from what I cleaned yesterday.  I am going to the mall to see a friend that she would want to know about but I don't know if I can tell her because she would freak out. It is my friend from when I went missing at Bellevue.

Ok some of this draft got erased.

I told my mom about my friend and she was reminded of old times but I felt that she should know and be happy that I am still friends with that person.  

My mom deserved for me to be mentally ill and have a life that devastated her.  People say wow that is such a horrible thing to say but my family made choices in how they treated me and God did not put up with it.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.  I am going to go eat with two friends soon.  I think it will be fun.  Then I am going to have coffee downtown with another friend.  I did not fold my clothes from the dryer yesterday so some of my clothes are wrinkled . But it is okay. I have a shirt that is not wrinkled.

The computer took a chunk out of my funds but today I got my SSDI payment and that helps a lot. I mean honestly I am close to normal and can only do one or two more main video boosts.  But really that is a lot.  Two more boosts of three or four videos each is actually a lot.  I mean okay I can actually do about three.

So that is great. But I need to pay for my comedy class also.  It helps me see myself as a comedian.  I told my sister some of the jokes I had planned and she thought some were funny but some should be skipped.  I mean pretty crazy.  I had a good time with my sister but I can tell she still feels hurt about years past but it wasn't my fault and she made a lot of choices herself.  But I think she will get through it and I think my life isn't so amazing that it will cause her to suffer. I mean there are some cool things but there is some low status and suffering also.

There was only a little bit of coffee still in the coffee maker so I do not know what that means except maybe drink another one at the mall or something.

Gice my numbers on the charts hit 100 mil finally but I had deleted about 3 mil and then there is also organic reach to consider.  And I think I am at about 11 mil for that. I just think that has to be the estimate. And then about 10 mil for likes and comments.  So I mean that is getting to be 120 or 130 for total things.  But really I like to have that extra cushion so when I get to a milestone I can consider it done earlier. 

I mean I am sorry but these numbers mean a lot to me and are a good way of measuring some kind of reach that I was really going for. I mean think about what else I have going for me and there are other cool things in my life but I don't have a paycheck for work anywhere and am kind of bullied sometimes.  So why shouldn't facebook go well. And it is the thing that most matches my prayers.

Spellcheck just tried to say ostensibly.  That is kind of comical. I think it is a message from Ravneet who might be pretending to be one of the other dames.

Well I mean I am just keeping that the way I said it. Gice when will there be another thin book, I do not know.  I could work on it on the train, maybe, and get through the trip more easily.  It will be fine. 

Well, time to get ready to leave. Have a good day.