Hello everyone, it is Dec 8.
Friday I went to a short conference about humiliation. It was excellent and I had a great time. I had ups and downs with socializing but mostly enjoyed it. I gave a five minute speech about my idea for irrigation systems in forests to prevent wildfires. It went well and I made a climate friend who I can send ideas to if I think of anything else. I actually did think of something else which is heaters and air conditioning for animals as well.
This is a philosophical conundrum of how much to interfere in nature. I think we can gain some guidance from the book of genesis which tells us that the whole world has fallen into horror and probably any amount we can intervene in nature’s share of it is good. Also, I did not know this until a theology class, but apparently nature also sins. Like some of the tornadoes actually do mean it personally against us.
So anyway that is what I will tell my new pal if I send him a book sometime. I do not expect to think of a lot of other ideas, but sometimes I do think of stuff so I will do the best I can.
What else to say. My medicine is hurting my digestion. I might ask if I can go back on one milligram of Risperdal and 600 trileptal. But I don’t want to be tortured by the apartment people again.
Today I went to the grocery store and accidentally bought sugar free jello. But I gave it to my neighbor and she was so happy. So that is nice. Another friend suggested that I make cookies and give them to people on the subway but I am not sure I am strong enough to do even one batch. But I don’t know. Maybe if I get some ingredients I can make a few choices and bag them up as an assortment for people. Or maybe it is supposed to be just for people here at the apartment.
Tomorrow I go to my mental health program and then talk to my therapist at 3:30.
The other thing on my mind is whether to order some more joke books to give people, and if so, does that mean keeping two or even four credit cards that I was going to close.
Well I don’t know. I just don’t know. Tomorrow I am sending around another video ad and I will see if I get any more book sales. I sold five books last time. I hope people like the books. Five books sold from an ad is an awesome start and maybe my probation time is over.
What else to say. I added a phone-a-friend tonight who I actually called a month or so ago. It was a good call and I can call again without feeling shy. The friend and his friend are writing a Broadway musical and I think it will be great.
Do you think I am going to be sent to a hospital about my medicine? I do not know. What should I do. I kind of think the Latuda is making me have fewer intrusive thoughts. But it might be depressing me as well. And I feel some rebellion in my mind sometimes, that could result in questionable choices. It’s not causing dramatic weight loss, but I haven’t totally gotten rid of that half mg of Risperdal either. So I really don’t know what to do.
Well have a nice day everyone, do the best you can and you could win a mllion jackpots on any day for any blink or think.
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