The requests for trillions of blessings is now upgraded to zillions

 Hello everyone. Today is Friday, Jan 31. I sent in paperwork to access-VR for help getting a job. I hope it is good enough documentation for them. The diagnosis is schizoaffective.  Does that tell the story. Am I missing a key PTSD diagnosis. Well I don't know.  Have I been too stubborn or excusing.

So okay, it is about 2:30. I talked to two friends on the phone today. They are two great lifelong friends who I met while working at Barnes and Noble during my hardest years.  And back then,  I left both of them to cut myself off from the temptation of gay community.  And now they both have families and I decided to be gay.  But we all already knew that I was. So that is interesting.  My life is a constant survival situation and friends are the most crucial resource even above medicine, though wow I needed that risperdal.

Anyway, what is the topic of the day.  One topic is that yesterday I missed the meal at my mental health program and a person gave me her extra meal.  I think that was really nice of her even though it was tuna fish. I mean lets be thankful but lets say when when the meal is tuna fish, we should be honest.

Anyway I just ate bacon and eggs in my apartment. It was yummy, and before that was Lucky Charms. I thought of a commercial for lucky charms.  Maybe it will be a commercial when I am an advertiser in heaven. I have a lot of things I want to do in heaven.  Like it will take a lot of years.

So anyway what else, I am starting to feel boredom and purposelessness sometimes, and there is a threat on the table of losing housing due to cutbacks from washington. Swift irresponsible cutbacks.  But I think what they already did is a mistake deserving impeachment.  I honestly do believe that, that their freeze that did prevent funds from reaching people was absolutely illegal.

Anyway, what else. RFK. Another yucky guy.  Being rolled through today.  Then I interupted my friend who is watching it.  I called to tell her to watch the video interview of Nancy Kerrigan.  Who looks the same and was crying about the plane crash. It is hard to believe what a good person that is and how much it is the same as before.  So that is nice.  I was just talking about that previous ice skating incident to my therapist and  now I am having some mental health challenges of thinking the plane crash happened because of me.  And then the hollywood fires also seem like they could be because of me because I decided that I could within my personal boundaries apply to the Prometheus Society even with the reference to Greek mythology. 

And there was an earthquake in Maine that also seemed like it had to do with me after I found a possible contact to send my grievances to about some trickswindle low number switch-ups.

So what does it all mean.  Well I don't know but a guy named Evangelos was plenty nice to me and I continue to try to participate in new societies.  I wonder if I can play five card draw over  zoom.  It would just change the odds because you would each have a whole deck of cards.  But I think it would be fun and fair.  

What do you guys think about the movement of evangelical Christianity? I think it was mostly successful but had to have weaknesses and did in fact mess things up for a lot of people.  But I think God has done something interesting and social media has reached most of the rest of the world. Same with liberalism. It was a different expression of christianity and mostly a good thing.  Stubborn pride is a problem for both sides, and maybe it is time for our country to split up.  I think that could happen and it will be interesting that when the north requests it, it will happen, but when the south tried to do it, it was prevented.

Should I post that on facebook. I don't know.  Because I think the south would keep the military and the north would keep social services.  And fighting Russia and helping the immigrants are both sacrificial things.  So should we just keep the country together. Well I am not sure that is helping anything.

So okay, what else. Grocery stores.  Do I need to schedule an access a ride to the stop and shop soon. Maybe.  This blog post is too long. Is anyone reading it. I might compile a new book soon called "Hard to Believe." I think that is a good title.  Totally original and yet I suspect people have thought of it before for other books.  I think I am not using another title I thought of called "Praying for the Damned." But that is one of my weird theology foibles is feeling the most sorry for the reprobate, and spending a questionable amount of prayer on them.  However I think some of it might be appropriate, and as long as them and me are still on earth, then salvation is still reasonably requestable and respectful enough to try.

Well, that is today's mental health corner, if you want a free book email smefird@gmail.com.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.  I feel good because I had therapy today. Thanks Drena.

I would like to share a thought about the horrible Elon Musk email to all government employees.  I think he is outside of the proper chain of command ordered by whatever congressional acts formed the agencies.  So any employee or boss who loses a good worker has a good lawsuit case.

Hobby: watching whale videos for barnacle removal

 Hello everyone. Today is jan 29. I am going to try to do my taxes as soon as I can. But I don’t think I should rush myself. It is pretty straightforward. I got a check in the mail with my wrong name. I think people think they are doing me a favor by using my old name.

I definitely do not have any regrets about changing my name.  It is a permanent good thing and most people have done well with it.  There was a church group that didn’t do well. I feel bad for them.  Like wow they tried to call me my old name.  I let them and now I know not to do that.  

There are some bad things happening and a ridiculous unlawful attempt to freeze funding that has already been granted.  It is not a good sign but at least it is a failure that may not be overcome.  This could add up to an impeachment eventually.

What do I think about deportation.  I think that no one made citizenship a priority and the disrespect of that has caused many problems.

There are some bad people on the subways sometimes but mostly it is good new Yorkers as usual.  

I have two meetings today. One at one o’clock and one at two o’clock.  I have gotten a little bit depressed lately and felt purposeless. I am hoping that volunteering, games, and art will take place this year and improve that.

I am running an ad for books and I can tell facebook has minimized the impact on purpose.  They always have with ads that take people to other websites. They try to keep all content on their page.  I believe they will be wailing with grief on actual Judgement Day for what they could have done for people.

I feel some spiritual warfare like more inappropriate thoughts. It is interesting, it is from the books, and I think it has been the strategy for many years from the bad side of life.  I guess I am a children’s book writer so that is interesting.  I have withstood it pretty well and with a lot of help and support from other people.

I miss Ravneet, I hope that our company isn’t hit too hard by grant take backs. I know we rely on a lot of government funding.

Letitia James said it best, that Trump can’t just undo acts of Congress that have already passed.  It is disturbing that he would try, but this executive order stuff has been happening since Obama years.  

Well have a nice day everyone. Should I be more on guard about attacks against me. I do not know. I just don’t expect actual bad people to target me but maybe they will.

36 cents per click, okay

gice four link clicks is acceptable to me.

i was about to send them a little note

taking money for ads intended to gain link clicks while deliberately preventing the clicks is bad business and i think i could win a lawsuit over it.

the difference in that and the instagram likes is just too much.  like it is in facebook's control and they are shutting me down while taking my money.

their monetization is traceable. the cheating aspects are provable.

i still am okay with the numbers.

but they have my content and money and for them to also prevent link clicks for an alternate income is unacceptable

 

Jim and Barbara made their choice

Hello everyone, today is Jan 25. I wrote a really good blog post this morning.  Tonight I feel better after needing two whole days to get over a rejection from something that I think was not fair.  But it is okay. I am listening to piano music right now. It is a new hobby that took me a while to discover.

I also just drank coffee which is my main go-to comfort.

Today I got upset about a swindle that happened very unexpectedly.  I was trying to reserve a hotel room for a conference and thought I was on the hotel page but was on a travel booking site.  They said the price as 113 but after I entered my credit card payment, the page said I just paid 198 dollars nonrefundable.  And then another total said 180 so I had no way of knowing which one I was charged.  Well that is a bad company that I just paid money to.  So I called them immediately and demanded a refund.  I told them I would contact a lawyer if they did not refund it.  And what they did was cancel the reservation and list my “request” for a refund.  Well that means that now instead of losing 66 dollars, or wait a minute 86 dollars, then I stand to lose 180 or 198.  That is the third crooked action from these people and I will take them to court and shut them down.  I found the number I will call Monday if they do not refund the money.  If I have to go to court I will be asking for much more than the 180.  This is the fourth injustice on this level in the last month and a half.

I am trying to see it as just another loss, and a way to pray for all the people out there who would give anything to trade their problem for this one.  And then I can add in everyone who also faces a similar financial budget. I was still able to order girl scout cookies tonight.

I think what is being blocked by this stuff is prayer, so I will try to do what I can. It makes me depressed, but there are so many people who know the way things should be.  I do not know which heroes will succeed in protecting us from all the increasing tech violations, but I believe it will be someone, and millions of people have had enough taste of civilization to do what is right.

More AI after automated systems already ruined our lives. Great idea, porn addicts

 well here we go, it's Saturday, and I just got an email from the store manager at Walgreens, who I reported to the company for doing false price labels.  And now I am supposed to talk to him monday.  I should not be contacted by him at all. I reported him and the company should handle it.  So now I think I will call the better business bureau, depending on how things go monday.  But this is the second time I have reported a problem at this store and then I start getting intrusive emails from the store manager.  As if I work there myself.  Which is the trend that started about ten years ago, as some retail stores started allowing customers on their registers in order to blur the customer employee line.

So here I am with a bad feeling on a Saturday morning in my ruined country. Another affront after a month of holiday bullcrap from other violations. IQ societies that took a month to insult me as a trophy reject despite overqualifying scores, the ETS company that had a bad proctor and no accessible customer service, facebook's decision to hide my lifelong friends' posts, and of course, more racism and abuse from mental health agencies. My email inbox is full of meaningless emails and post relevant substacks, my phone gets blitzed by up to 30 spam calls a day, and four years after facebook ruined our lives and country, commentators are starting to acknowledge that there is a widespread loneliness problem.  The tech people have vacuumed out anything valuable in our society, and not a single writer has stood up to it. It is just so much more fun to continue badgering the religious people because they kept going to church during a 30 year not-that-creative media assault.  The liberals always wanted republicans to be nazis more than they wanted mexicans to be citizens.  And now we have quite a crisis, don't we.

Yes, we do, enjoy your status as pansy voting has beens, for biden who lets the bad guys win.

Meanwhile there is not a single honest industry anywhere to be found in the western hemisphere.

https://www.davidpbrown.co.uk/psychology/iq-conversion.html

 ok everyone it is 7:40. I am just sitting around pondering why my girlfriend isn't allowed to visit me in person. And the missing careers. But then I got up and did another GRE IQ conversion and I can see a case for not admitting me to the higher societies that I applied for.  On the form I used, I did say the whole three part score as my admission qualification.  A 2220 which is well over their 2180 requirement. I would have accepted me but I think because the 1420 part of the test is actually a 99.8 percentile and not 99.9, then I can tolerate their choice a little bit.  I think they are wrong but it is not as much of an injustice that is gnawing at my soul.

They said it's not a 2220 like I said because the 6.0 is not an 800. I think they are wrong and will be corrected by God in front of people. But at the same time I think my inability to accept it is based on thinking a 1420 is at their level but it isn't. It is a 148 and they are 150. or 149. So I don't need a concession there.  But I think counting the other section doesn't have to be seen as a concession.

But anyway I like the societies I am in. I am waiting to hear back from the disability society and maybe this will work out well. Because maybe there really is a social goal that is worth working on instead of just the credit. Like maybe it is a fun meet and greet. I am not assuming I get in but I hope I do.

So okay, I am listening to piano music. It is nice, I will choose these videos more often. 

Gice, they are wrong. They fumbled on the field in front of a crowd that will keep growing.

It's a 2220. No one had to do any weird math. No one had to say okay 5.5, what is that, 780? It could not have been simpler. Anyway, that is enough for now. People can smugly smile to themselves. There is a pattern. I think I am about to be able to let it go. And it will just sit here on my blog and be conversation material when I play games with other people who solved the brainteaser of where the real party is.

It's just not right.

 hello everyone, today is friday, jan 24. in ten minutes i will probably go to a meeting where they do mental health power plays to make you feel like crap.

i'm recovering from not getting admitted to a society based on a test score that should have qualified me.  1250 is a 130, i got a 1340, which is 140.  then i got a 1420 above that, which is a 148. it couldn't be more straightforward.  and then i got a writing score that is 160.  there is no other way to look at it.  can you in all seriousness say the perfect score is a 148. no, you can't.  Can you say the 1420 is just a 140. no, you can't. can you say the 1340 is a 130. no.  you can't. but people want to.  why.  what is making them want to.  my mental health group said they think it is because of age. i think it is because of appearance. someone else suggested that it really is the scores. Another friend suggested that it is because these are all proud rich guys who travel to Dubai and only care about women and cars.

it could be related to the scores, but mostly i think it is not. I think they are either going ten higher than their claimed qualifying score, or they are discriminating for some reason.  I would guess that reason to be that they are math nerds who didn't do well on analytical writing.

It seems that there will be a few more blog posts about this.  It's not a joke to me in some ways. It was something I was interested in for fun and would be just the right way to cheer up during disability. But it turns out to be a consistent scam.  I think the more reputable group actually did treat me well. That group is Mensa and is more inclusive in terms of points.  I might send them a note to report my thoughts. I might also send an email to one of the super high organizations, or even the super super high group.  Just to tell them my thoughts.

Hopefully Infinity International which did accept me will keep me around.  Maybe that is where I will share my opinion.  That could be a good idea. On their forum.  But I don't have the email yet.

Ok gotta go have a good day.

A genius would have given away three corn dogs

 Hello everyone, it is 11:44 on Jan 23.  Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment.  This week I found a new psychiatrist and it happened very fast. So the transition will take place over the next two months.

I also went partially downtown to get my rent check and stopped at a favorite restaurant called Papaya King.  Well I ordered a corn dog and a pina colada punch. On my way back to the train there was a beggar who I considered giving the corn dog too. I just felt that I wasn't so hungry that I would suffer much if I gave it away dramatically and suddenly. I passed the person three times because I kept going in the wrong door to the train station. I chose not to give away the corn dog and I ate it on my way home.

Then I stopped at Walgreens to buy milk and saw in their freezer door a box of corn dogs. The tag said that it was "OTC approved."  That label was also on some other food so I picked it up and took it to the register.  But at the register, my OTC card did not apply to it and I had to pay full price.  I knew that would happen because Walgreens did that to me before when I tried to buy cereal and granola bars. I went by the labels and then it was like Gee, all this stuff is regular price.  And I believe Walgreens is doing that on purpose to get more money from people who are tricked.  Stop and Shop also did stuff like that before it closed down and abandoned our community in poverty.  In the south where I grew up, the grocery stores would never do something as blatant as false price labels because it is illegal.

Anyway, I ended up giving two corn dogs to neighbors later and eating one myself from the corn dogs that I bought at Walgreens.  The main thing I have learned from this is that life is interesting and I am blessed to be alive. Like this is life, it has choices, and this is what people are fighting for when they are in hospitals trying to survive an injury or disease.

Also today I found out I did not get into another high IQ society.  So then I applied to one last possibility, which I will hopefully hear back from in the next two weeks.  I believe this will be my last one. I made a little chart that shows my opinion about my experience so far:

Note that the discrepancy of acceptance increases with the IQ points. I think that the Prometheus Society would be interested in this data, but I probably won't send them an application or email. It is kind of funny that people think I am stupid and don't see my GRE for what it was. It was a 660 verbal, a 760 math and a perfect on analytical writing. The lowest interpretation is to take the 760 by itself, which is 40 points away from a perfect. The highest interpretation is to treat the 660 as a perfect because it is 94th percentile like the math perfect is, and add that to the perfect writing score for a 1600. I do not support that interpretation.  The most common IQ interpretation is to take the 660 by itself.  But if you can do that, it is not far fetched to just take the writing score by itself, is it?  In fact, to have a section that I did that well on makes you wonder what the other two sections are measuring, if not ability. And then there is the simple way of viewing it as 1420 plus irrelevant writing score. When the groups online are faced with that option, they choose to say the test date was out of range.  Some people are reading this and still think I am stupid. You are searching my life and trying to find a justification for whatever is behind your blind hatred. Well I will solve this very difficult brainteaser. There is no justification.  There is no reason. You are an ignoramous.

You're missing a peg named S. Margaret Efird.

Food people food people 123 Food people food people you and me

Well hello everyone, today is Jan 22.  My Microsoft word program is now including prompts to use AI. So I guess this is a new era for creativity.  I feel that I have mostly completed my writing career and I am glad to have written stuff before this AI rollout. Today I was reminded of people I forgot to thank.  Well it is not too late. You think it is too late but it is not.  And didn’t I thank that guy? I think I did at some point.  Didn’t I? 

Anyway, okay. This week was eventful. I attended a conference that took a little bit too much mental discipline to endure, and then I went and played a strategy game with some new friends.  It was really fun, thanks a lot. I will try to come back and participate in February. It is part of my retirement.

Then I went and volunteered and it was not fun.  It was unfortunately a bad project that was torturesome.  I will probably still attend next Monday though.   But now everyone will hate me because I told them what I thought of their moral compromise.

I have sorted out my new years goals and got it down to three things: art, games, and work.  And the work can be volunteering.

Will I still do last year’s goals? Yes, but only a little bit.  Last year’s goals were journalism, graphic design, and comedy.  It went well and I am thankful.

I also got tortured last year but things got better in the fall when four bullies left the apartment program. I do not know the meaning of it but I hope the abuse in my life is over.

Today I went to my mental health program. It was mostly okay. A guy jabbed my arm on purpose when I was signing out of group, but I think he does not hate me and did it for some other odd reason.  So I am going to try not to make a big deal of it.

I got a good secret message from my girlfriend today. Maybe she and I can play some games too. We can maybe play monopoly deal, lanterns, abalone, ingenius, and dixit.

I wish I had taken a photo of our gameboard from Sunday when we played Space Base. Man it was a cool sight and I got distracted and forgot.  I think the people I played with could tell I had memory problems. It is kind of funny because it is a thing that I sometimes get accused of exaggerating. But in a game you are trying to win, so there is no incentive to forget to take your turn every single time.

Anyway, do you guys like my writing? I think it turned out pretty good.  I think there is definitely better stuff out there but I definitely churned out some laughs. Was it questionable to take those books to game time? Well I am glad I did but don’t know if I will every time.  I just don’t always know when people really want a book.  Today I tried to give one to the fireman who came to reset the fire alarm after I cooked bacon and he said he was not allowed to take one.  Well that is all, have a great day everyone.

i read a book today, it was great

     Hello everyone, I hope you are having a good day.  We are all waiting for the fires in California to be over. It is a horrible tragedy, and I do think that more prevention should have happened. And really all leaders need to step up their emergency games. I think God has helped us through a lot, including the pandemic.  Possibly this fire experience is preparing us for nuclear war.

       Everyone wishes I had kept that to myself.  Well I think we really need to do all we can to help the young people grow into whatever blessings and roles are going to be their thing.  Surely the tech communication extravaganza was a lot of our roll out for the millenium.

       Anyway, I just boosted the ET meme and I feel fine about it. I did imagine myself getting one million likes and being on Fox News.  But it is just another joke and not one that will really hit everyone the same.  So it will be lower numbers but still good so far. I am thankful because I did put myself out there and go it alone a little bit.

       Anyway what did I do today.  I read an awesome book.  I just loved it.  It was a vivid spiritual warfare novel that also very realistic and had an ending that I just didn’t see coming. Wow, way to go, a cool sample of the Christian fiction genre.  The book is called “True Status” by Chuck Richardson. Here is a link, just order a copy and read it.  It is a fast fun read:

https://www.amazon.com/True-Status-Chuck-Richardson/dp/B0CCCQW4HM

Another blog post about not posting something

 

OK everyone, here is another post that I kept to myself and I question.  I think yesterday would have been a good time for this reel and my trusted confidants or maybe just my sister said don't.  Like it is just too light.  But I think it is not making fun of anyone's pain and I have been sadder about this event than almost anything else.  So I am just wondering why I see it differently and whether people are telling me their true opinions. Is this about the conspiracy and the hollywood stars who did secret messages for me? And my friends are saying this is part of the torture case?

I don't know, because everyone seems so serious about telling me not to make any jokes whatsoever.  Meanwhile people are commenting on photos of the fires and saying it is Sodom and Gomorrah.  Well I have not a hint of that reaction whatsoever, like literally no sarcastic laments for wasted porn studios or anything.

So I am going by my true comedy sense on these posts and I think it is too late for this reel.

Also I noticed that the filter on my phone shows it differently than my computer.  And when I tried to send it to my LA friend on instagram, my skin looked worse.  Honestly these things seem like tech abuse.  My phone doesn't log into websites correctly and I never know if I can get to the next screen if I am using the internet.  And verizon is happy to put everyone on a payment plan that lasts years later than your phone lasts.  The phones are like 1600 dollars, as if you're buying a car.  And someone at Apple got to decide that no one would watch DVDs anymore on their computers. But God forbid that an uncompensated comedian would post a photo of ET when the woods near his old house are on fire.  And everyone knows he left that weird machine in the woods over night. 

new meme for my jokes page

 

Hello everyone, I am writing this blog post but might not share the post because I think the meme belongs on my facebook jokes page. My friends are saying don't share it because the fire is not a laughing matter.  But I think the joke might be just right for that.  And it is weird to feel like my friends are wrong about this.  I don't know what to think. For me the issue is whether the meme makes sense even though ET is a stuffed animal in the photo and not the actual movie rendition. And I also think an orange and yellow frame around the meme would look better.  

I'm not sure I can post it with so much doubt.  I feel very sad about the fires and aware of the fact that this could be an act of war from who knows who, adding to a possible ten year assault that is behind shootings as well.  But are we not going to joke at all for five years? I think I might post it on my jokes page anyway.

I also think the "too soon" idea is not it, like it will soon be too late for this meme.  Because the arsonists will have revealed whatever country is behind them.

I have another short video that I am posting on my videos page, which is a video I did not post yesterday because of similar input.  My friends are usually right.  So what is it this time? 

There are other jokes I am keeping to myself. Like I haven't said, wow, this Backdraft sequel is too realistic.  Or wow, these scenes are like scenes from Hollywood.

So anyway, I erased something else that actually was bothersome and now I will go post this post.

Great news everyone, a nice relief and happiness

 

Hello everyone, thanks for reading my blog. Right now is the middle of the night between Monday and Tuesday. Earlier this afternoon I got an email admitting me to Mensa.  My test scores qualified me, either from old scores or the admission test I took.  I feel really happy and thankful and am having a nice perspective on my whole life. A lot of people have heard about Mensa and probably have wondered if they could get in.  Well if you thought maybe you could then you might be right.  The test is pretty fun, and possibly you have old test scores that could get you in. It is 98th percentile. That is high but not unheard of.  Like it is within reach for probably people up to 85th percentile if you happen to test well one time.  Do you see what I mean? I mean like you could spike higher than your main level sometimes, and a large range of people could probably get accepted if they want to.

I am hoping to attend a games night on Jan 12 for local Mensa.  I have a game to bring and I might give it away. It is called Dixit. But I don't know, maybe I could keep it too and bring it again on a regular basis.

I feel some healing from this experience because I have felt battered and bullied as a mental health patient. Joining an IQ society feels vindicating and like an escape from persecutors.

Well have a good day everyone, too bad I ate banana chips and chili mango slices because I am allergic to both things. Soon I will take my medicine.  Email me your address if you want a free joke book: smefird@gmail.com. That includes you, whoever is reading this. Happy New Year!

happy new years again

 Well hello everyone, it is Saturday Jan 4.  I haven’t been able to figure out my new years resolutions so I have decided to just try for a hodge podge year. I will continue with last year’s work in comedy, graphic design, and journalism, and I will add in art and illustration. I might also do some volunteer work. 

My sister got me a new frying pan for Christmas and wow, it makes such a difference.  So maybe I will step it up with my chicken dishes this year.  Maybe fish and grits again as well.

Today I will write an onion article about the mensa organization deciding to use candy crush scores instead of standardized tests.  I think it will be funny, I just have to get it done.

Tomorrow I will go downtown to Michaels for a sketch book.  I will get a water color book, some water colors, some markers and pen and ink.  I am sad to not be taking classes but I don’t have the money. I think it is okay. I really needed to pay off the credit cards.

I think I will keep sending off joke books because that felt good yesterday when I mailed two books.  I have about twelve books to give away soon.

What do you guys think about me trying to be an artist this year. Well I don’t know but I think some kind of goal is good. I should do the surrealism project too.

happy new year everyone

 Hello everyone. I am writing this post in a “write-in” session with a group called 540. It reminds me of my old writing group from Greenville, SC.

I had a nice day today and people at my mental health program were extra nice and said Happy New Year a lot.  It was fun and made me thankful.

I just cleaned my apartment for inspection. I am kind of on a roll with that and do well every time.  I think some of it is because I have a good case manager named Karla.

Way to go Karla. Karla is interested in social work school. Please someone sponsor her.

Next on the list of things to mention is that I need to write up some New Years goals.  Last year went really well.

What should I work on this year? I really don’t know.

I think I need to spend another few days deciding what my goals should be. I am also going to order some more joke books to give away.

Well, that is all. I am going to a conference on Jan 17 and I will try to get rid of a demon that I found in my soul during a seizure yesterday.

Ravneet do you want to go to the conference with me. I hope you can, well have a good day.